I walked into the nicely decorated room that was meant to make you feel warm and relaxed but it did nothing for me, nothing did anymore. I looked at the furniture to see it all dark brown leather that tied the room nicely together and the matching lazy boy chair that was supposed to look inviting to any normal person. Of course I'm not normally anymore as I take a seat on the cold deep window sill and looked through the frosted window seeing the grey sky. I hear the door open but I don't turn as I continue to gaze outside with out looking anywhere in particular.
"hinata-chan? Can I call you that?" A low voice held with years of experience and wisdom called me from behind so I turned around so my body was parallel with the sill and walls.
"Why not? You'd be the last." I saw him take a seat in his comfy chair behind a cherry mahogany desk that fit the old crinkles on his face well.
"My name is Watabe and I'm assuming you know why you're here?"
"Hmm, it's no secret; you have ears and eyes like everyone else."
"Yes I've heard many things about you Hinata-chan but why would I be the last to call you Hinata-chan?" I look at him bored but he just sits there waiting for me to talk and I give in because at this point I really don't care.
"Because no one refers to me in a friendly matter."
"Why do you think that is?"
"I'm sure they have their reason." He sighs as I shut up and look out the window ignoring his next few questions.
"Hinata I am your therapist and your future depends on me so your communication would help."
I smile bitterly out into the winter morning before it turns into a dry chuckle.
"My future is gone doc, it really doesn't matter what you say because my life is already done, I'm just along for the ride till I hit the bottom."
He frowns and then nods before talking again.
"Then you might as well tell me your story while you wait."
"Why not?"
I put my hand on the window ignoring the stinging of my skin freezing while I decided where to start.
"You know what I did right?"
"Hai, you killed Sasuke Uchiha for betraying Konoha."
"Heh, you say it like it was that simple."
"Oh, it wasn't? Tell me then from the moment Naruto Uzumaki brought him back."
"I was there, I went in the middle of the night with Naruto and Sakura because at that time Naruto was my boyfriend and Sakura was my best friend and I would do anything for them. We went and infiltrated Sound and I got separated where I faced of against a man named Juugo.
Well technically I was supposed to fight him but we made no against each other, just staring till I heard a scream from Sakura so I started walking toward the door that was behind him but he moved in front of me. I told him I didn't want to fight him but he looked at me and sighed before he grabbed my neck and lifted me of the floor. I was dieing very slowly as my air supply was being cut off but I grabbed a kunai and stuck it into his hand. He dropped me and in those seconds I used jyuuken into his heart and he looked so surprised right before he died."
"Was that the first time you killed?"
"Hai, the first, but not the last. I left that room in kind of a shock as I stumbled into the room where a battle between Orchimaru, Sasuke, naruto, Karin, sakura and Suijetsu. I snapped out of my daze to stop Karin from killing sakura by tripping her forward where she landed in front of me where Suijetsu sliced her in half to get to me. He stopped in frozen horror at what he did before I used jyuuken to stop his heart. I turned around to see Naruto finish off Kabuto with the Kyuubi's help and Sasuke finish off the Snake not soon after. I watched as the three of them hugged and smiled at their triumph."
"And how did you feel? Did you join them?"
"No I didn't, I just watched feeling like wanted to puke, heh. I walked away from them and found an abandoned corridor and did that till my stomach was empty."
"Did they look for you?"
"No, they were still there when I got back and that was when Sasuke noticed me for the first time then to the bodies who were dead, he looked at me strange but I just left down the way I came. They followed me as I led them out of there and back to Konoha where they were celebrated on their victory. That was the day they became the next sanin as Hokage took naruto as her apprentice to be the next Kage as well."
"You were never mentioned, I never saw you up there with them."
"They asked but I smiled at them as I said no, they took it as shyness so they let it go."
"Was it shyness that prevented you from taking credit?"
"No, I was disgusted with myself for what I did and the guilt of it was heavy. So I watched from the shadows. Life changed as The golden three were united and loved by everyone as hero's."
"Did you resent them for it?"
"No, I was happy for everyone as things were happy and peaceful. Sasuke wasn't as anti-social since completing his goal and became good friends with everyone."
"Does that include you?"
"No."
"Why? Did you not trust him?"
"I didn't know him."
"You never tried?"
"Not important. What's important is that everyone loved him but the festival happened and sound attacked, nearly destroy Konoha. We fought for countless hours and many opponents later I found him."
"Sasuke?"
"Hai, he was waiting and when he opened his eyes he frowned at me. He told me to leave if I valued my life because he had no reason to kill me. At the time I didn't know what he meant till Naruto found us and I understood who he was waiting for. I watched the fight and I was about to intervene was Orchimaru stepped in front of me. I began to battle Orchimaru till I heard a Sasuke laugh and we both turned to see Naruto on the ground Unconscious and hurt. But we were both surprised to see Kakashi there with a Kunai to Sasuke's throat. Sasuke told him that if he didn't kill him then Naruto was going to die."
'Kakashi? I thought you killed him?'
"Kakashi lowered his weapon to try and talk with him but Sasuke turned around and knocked him into a tree where he was then paralyzed. In the commotion I made a clone to distract the snake and one to take Naruto and Kakashi to safety while I transformed into a bloody naruto. He bent down to say his last word but that was when I opened my eyes to see him surprised as I stuck a kunai in his heart."
"That was it?"
"No he survived as he jumped back and I got up ready to attack him, he told the snake not to interfere and so the snake disappeared. He looked at me strangely again before he told me I wasn't suppose to be a killer and I told I knew but that still doesn't change anything. He charged at me with chidori and used my ultimate defense to knock him into a tree. I walked through the forest and found him bloody and bruised and once again he said I wasn't a killer. He asked me to spare him his life, instead I stopped his heart. Nobody took the news good as I told them I killed him."
I tilt my head as I look out the window that has defrosted from what warmth I had left as the end of my story put the room in silence much like it had done that night. Of course nobody charged at me to kill me, glared at me, or even walked away but this guy was getting paid to sit and listen.
"Somehow I think there's more then you're telling me."
"No not really."
"Unfortunately were out of time so I expect to see you here next week at this time."
"Why, I told you the story, what more do you need?"
"The whole truth." I sighed as I looked at him from my perch and he returned my gaze evenly till the door opened and sakura walked in.
"I'm here to see you doctor, I'm sorry I'm little early but I was nervous."
"Its ok." He smiled her then his gaze slid to me before he flickered back to her as he informed her of my presence.
"I'll see next week Hinata-chan." I watched her gasp as she turned around to look at me first with surprise then anger but I quickly crossed the room and the shut the door on the way with out a word. I walked down the quiet hallway where the only sound was the wind through the walls. I kept walking till I reached my hospital room as I quietly shut the door and I made my way to sit on my bed. I know one will come in here unless it's a doctor to check up on my wounds so I relax but the window draws my attention and I'm lost another trance.
My heart skips a beat as the door creaks open and I ready myself for an attack but it doesn't happen instead the intruder sits down on the chair loudly. I blink as I look over to see the infamous copy Nin sitting in my chair smiling and holding a bag of food. Shouldn't he hate me like the others?
"The food here can kill you when you're exposed to it for a while so I brought you some real food Hinata-chan." I blink in confusion and he smiles under his mask before he reaches up and pats my head.
"I'm not like the others, I'm not angry at you Hinata-chan."
"That still doesn't explain why you're here." I say it in a whisper because the emotion of some smiling at me and calling me Hinata-chan bubbles inside of me.
"Until everyone comes to their senses and forgives I've decided to keep you company." I blink at him and turn my gaze back to the outside while takes out book and keeps me company in silence. Hours later He pats me on the head and tells me to get some sleep and leaves quietly through the dark hallways. I take the food and I eat it because if I go down to the cafeteria I would chance running into the others and the nurses won't bring me food.
That night I stare into the winter night sky wondering if I did the right thing and that thought plagues me as another sleepless night passes.
Ok this is a request, yes you know who you are. Ok i hope you like it and in case you don't know this is a kakashi x hinata which was a lot harder then i expected but i finished none the less! Please review!