Chapter one. The beginning.

Kate lead a perfectly happy life. She was happy in school, had good grades, had a fun group of friends and had a fantastic life out of school. She had a boyfriend who she had been together with for 6 months and had two nice parents, Johanna and Jim, who loved her just as much as she loved them. Most of the 17 year old wouldn't be this close to their parents, but she was. She didn't mind walking the streets with them, and going to the movies with them. But all of that changed in just 10 minutes. She was 19 when it happened. She was having a girls night out with her mum. They walked the streets of LA like they did many times, but this time was different. Kate and her mum where talking about what she was going to be doing as her job. As a kid, she mostly watched crime series, she had always been fascinated with the cases. So later, she wanted to be a homicide detective with the LAPD.

They were just about two blocks away from the movie theaters were they got attacked. Kate just told her mum she was going to be a cop when a guy ran over to them, pushed Kate aside and shot her mum in the shoulder and ran away. Kate didn't see the shooter or the shot. But she did see her mum fall onto the ground. Kate crawled over to her mum called an ambulance put pressure on the wound like she saw in series many times and tried to comfort her mum.

"It's going to be okay mum, just hang on okay?" Kate had sobbed.

"Katie, follow your heart."

"No mum, you'll be there to see me. You'll see me."

"Aw Katie, I love you. And I love your dad. I will watch out for you, from the stars, just like your grandparents are."

"No. I love you mum but you have to stay here! You can't go!" she cried out for help, but no one heard her. She grabbed her phone and called her dad.

"Katie, I will always love you. Always." Johanna closed her eyes.

"No! Mum! No!" Kate held up her mum kissed her on her forehead and hugged her.

She heard sirens coming closer, but it was already too late. Her mum had died for no reason, in her arms.

Kate woke up. She had that terrible nightmare again from that night now 12 years ago. Today, January the 9th, it had been 12 years since her mum got murdered. And on this day, every year she would have the same nightmare, the memory of her mums murder happening in front of her eyes.

She would have the nightmare on other occasions, but that faded over the years. But every year, on January the 9th she would have the nightmare, and today was no exception.

She walked over to the bathroom, undressed and got in the shower. She did that every morning to clear her head, but after nightmares if worked magic! She thought about any other things, and tried not to think about her mum. After a while, she forgot it. She stepped out of the shower, got dressed and got to work like any other day.

Now she lived in New York City. She got to the 12th precinct, where she had worked from the year after her mum died. She worked on her mum's case every free time she got, but never got a new lead. And since 2 years, she worked with a writer, Richard Castle. The first year, he had tried to show himself of, but the more she worked with him, the more she got to like him, and he her, but they had both denied it. But last spring, she really fell for him. She was going to tell him she loved him, but he showed up with one of his two ex-wives, Gina. She was a wreck after that, and he didn't even notice. She was mad at him, but couldn't help but take him back. He eventually came back, still with his ex, but he came back to help her. To get back at him, she told herself she wasn't in love with him and got a boyfriend.

She was doing paperwork when Esposito and Ryan, 2 of her partners, came up to her, knowing she had a nightmare, knowing she woke up screaming. They knew her pretty well by now, Esposito saw Kate as her little sister; so when Rick hurt Kate, he wanted to kick Rick's ass so he would stay away and never be able to hurt her again, but Kate wouldn't let him. Ryan was more the kind of 'brother' that she could talk to, joke around with… he was just another kind, but both awesome.

"Hey, Beckett, you okay?" Espo asked. It was a tone in his voice she barely heard from him. "You sure you won't take the day off?" Ryan added. It went like this every year. They asked if she was okay, if she didn't need to take time off, she never did that so they knew what the answer was, and every time she just shacked her head and took a sip of her coffee. When she wanted to grab her cup of coffee, she realized it wasn't there. "Where's Castle?" she asked. "I don't know, he should be here soon." Ryan answered. Just then Castle walked through the elevator doors.

Castle reached Kate's desk, sat down the bear claw and the coffee and sat himself down in the chair next to the desk. "Thanks!" she said as she took the coffee and looked up. It was then that she saw that he wasn't as cheerful as normally. He looked like he hadn't slept in days. "You okay, Castle?" she asked as she put her work down and focused on him and the breakfast he always brought her.

"I should be asking you that question seen which day it is today." Castle didn't sound like himself, he was harsh. That one single line, from him, made her eyes wet again. When she stood up and walked into the coffee room, he realized he shouldn't have said it. Not in that way, not now, not ever.

"Kate…" he said as he ran after her. "I'm sorry!" he said once he closed the door and sat himself on the couch on the opposite side of Kate. "I know you are." She sighed, "So, what's wrong with you to be this way?"

"Nothing…" he mumbled. "Come on Castle, I know it's not nothing!" she said as she looked up and met his gaze for just a second, before he looked at his hands that were placed on his knees.

"It's Gina." He said as he looked up. That one name changed a lot. She was the reason she wasn't together with him now, maybe it was better that she wasn't, but she still didn't like Gina. "Oh…" she sighed. "We're fighting," he said looking at her, "again…"

"Can't really help with that, you know…" she said as she had to laugh in herself because she wanted to stay serious with him. "Yeah, I know. I don't really think she'd like me to talk to you though, so I should go." He stood up to leave the room. "Wait, why not?" she asked him as she put her hand on his to stop him from going. "The fight was about you…"

"What? Me?" she asked confused. "Yeah, you." Was his answer.

"What about me could she fight about with you?" she was still a little confused, and nervous. "Well…" he awkwardly said. "Yeah? Come on Castle, it can't be that bad!" she said as he sat back down in front of her. "She thought, because I was staying late last week, that you and I…" he didn't want to finish the sentence, not to her. But she knew what he was talking about. "What? She thought that?" she asked, hoping she wouldn't blush because she still loved him even though she had a boyfriend. "Still thinks it actually." He awkwardly answered. Kate wasn't able to look at him, Rick was, he looked at her, not with awkwardness in his eyes, more the look that he wished it was true. That he wished it did happen instead of Gina making it up. When she looked at his eyes, she saw that. She saw the wish, the love. She was shocked to think he loved her back.

He broke the silence with this one line that changed everything, it was his choice weather he'd be with her or not, but now, with that one line, it was on her. "So I kicked her out."

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