This Time
By: Forgotten Sunrise
AN: I am doing a terrible, terrible thing by writing a story where Jacob isn't in love with Reenessmee. So I'm writing this story to make up for my sins. All the writing that is italiczed on the left are modified lyrics form John Legend's song This Time and the sentences that are centred are thoughts or memories. Hope you enjoy!
Memories rushed through my brain
It's starting to hit me
Now you're not with me
I realized I made a mistake.
I thought I needed some space
But I just let love go to waste…
Really, don't feel that way; I just want you to be happy. Nothing less, nothing more…Just happy…
Just happy. There was so much meaning behind those two simple words. They played over and over in my brain. He explained to me this whole 'imprinting' business. He told me that I was his world and as long as I was happy, he would be okay.
He was lying, I knew.
Nothing would ever be okay.
Not when we were apart.
Density is just funny like that. You don't need to be a seer like me to see that…
I hit the bar every night
Looking to score a good time
It's not like I planed it
I'm left empty handed
I'm still alone in my mind…
…And it's not hard to understand why. Not a single guy compares. Not a single guy holds a flame to my Jacob. Alice often tells me not to even bother. She says my fate was written out clear for me decades ago. That I was born for him and he for me. And I'm sitting here at this stupid bar wondering…
Now what will it take to feel right?
His face is clear and strong in my mind.
My door is always open for you, Nessie
He told me that ages ago. I wonder if it still applies? I decide to text him,
Can I come see you tonight?
I waited for two hours, but not answer. My heart starts to flutter.
Is there someone new now?
What can I do now?
Run. I can run back to him. I can run to him now. So I forget the club, I forget Alice, I forget the car. There isn't time for all that. There isn't time for me to think.
Because I need you back by my side.
I need you in my life.
Last time I wasn't sure
But this time I will give him more,
This time, I understand. This time,
I'm more mature.
Last time I didn't know
I messed up and let him go.
I keep running, and I'm so close to his house now. I take out my phone and call him. He doesn't pick up. My eyes start to tear up, but I keep on running as I leave him a voice message.
"Jake…I need you…."
I need you,
Don't say no.
Please, don't let him say no.
I knock on the door. I can hear him shuffle his feet, his deep intakes of breath, and the steady beat of his heart as he opens the door. He isn't surprised to see me. I knew he knew it was me the moment I step in the yard. He smiles and motions for me to come in.
"Did you run all the way here? You look all sweaty and you have twigs in your hair like some kind of mad women on a mission…" he asked me as he pulled a leave out of my ponytail.
I couldn't help but grin.
"All they way from Port Angles." I said proudly.
"And you couldn't take a car because?"
"Jake, there wasn't time to take a car. Jake, I-"
I pause as I though of the right words to tell him. After a moment, I smile up to him and say,
"Jake,"
This time I want it all
This time I want it all
I'm showing you all the cards,
giving you all my heart.
This time I'll take the chance
This time I want you to be my man
I can be all you need
This time is all of me.
Alla Fine
AN: I hope you liked it! Please Review! And if you do, I'll love you!