Just one more shadow than he can take?
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Tag for post Hunter of the Shadows Book 1
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Don't ask me where we were. We'd been driving for fucking hours.
Some shitty, grimy bar in the middle of nowhere.
We just needed a break from the road, else we'd never have come to this flee fest. Some greasy butch bikers crowded the bar, raucous and raw, shouting and shining on the aging barmaid.
A fight was brewing, and I could sense it. Some stupid, drunken disagreement would turn into an outright brawl, and someone would get hurt.
I could feel it in the way Sam held himself, like he was barely holding on.
Kid was held tighter than a coiled spring of late...
A guitar gently strumming away made me glance up.
Made everyone glance up.
Then his voice...
"A love struck Romeo,
Sang the streets a serenade..."
I took in the scene on the stage when the guitar continued the soft melody I recognised from long ago. Behind me, the bar fell silent and my eyebrows slowly rose to the top of my head...
"Juliet says, hey it's Romeo,
You nearly gave me a heart attack.
He's underneath the window,
She's singing, hey la ma boyfriend's back,
You shouldn't come around here, singing up a people like that,
Anyway,
whatcha ya gonna do about it..."
I'd heard Sire sing in the shower before now, but I'd never heard him sing like this. Never knew he could play a guitar like that.
Never knew he could play at all.
And chick flick though it was, it was perfect.
"Juliet,
The dice was loaded from the start,
And I bet,
Then you exploded in my heart...
And I forget,
I forget,
The movie song.
When ya gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong?
Juliet..."
The audience was still silent, held in rapture by Sire's sensual voice.
I watched Sam out the corner of my eye.
And right then, I noticed just how similar Tobius and Sam really were. The familiar look of loss and anguish, the broken hearts that would never fully heal.
And, maybe, were never meant to.
I guess Sammy was feeling this a little more than me.
Who was I kidding?
A lot more.
Yeah, Jess loved him, no doubt would have become one of us some day, but the fact remained, Sammy blamed himself for her death.
Blamed himself for everything.
"Come upon different streets,
They're both the streets of shame,
Both dirty, both mean,
Yes, and the dream was just the same,
And I dreamed your dream for you, and now your dream is real.
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?
When you can fall for chains of silver,
You can fall for chains of gold,
You can fall for pretty strangers,
And the promises they hold.
You promised me everything,
You promised me thick and thin,
Now you just say 'oh Romeo, yeah, ya know I used to have a scene with him...
Juliet..."
I'd never seen Sire's face so expressive, so moved by the music.
Another one of your deals?
Yeah, that's pretty poignant, huh mom?
"There's a place for us...
When ya gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong...
Juliet..."
I sensed Sam's distress before I knew what he was doing.
"...I can't do everything, but I'd do anything for you...
Can't do anything 'cept be in love with you...
Then the kid was gone, out into the night, anger and sorrow forging a fiery blaze through his heart.
"I'll love you 'til I die..."
I stepped out under a crescent moon, and followed him just for a little while, to make sure he was safe, but turned back once I knew.
I heard The Lost one more time.
Then silence.
In the distance, voice drifting softly through the air vents of the bar, guitar still humming beautifully, Tobius was still murmuring...
"You an' me, babe.
How 'bout it?"
And yeah, I understood.
Sire was still singing his own Lost.
After four hundred years, he still missed her.
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Author's notes:
Just a brief one, to remind us all once again that Tobius' heart never truly healed, and he's right there along with Sam.
And Dean gets it...
He really gets it.
Song: Romeo and Juliet by Dire Straits.