hey!!! This is my first Twilight fanfic so all suggestions, comments, and/or general ideas would be much appreciated, so PLEASE REVIEW!!!! This is my version of New Moon when Edward is rescued in Italy. Warning: Not for Team Edward fans!!!:D
Chapter 1- Not the Same
B POV
I lay curled up in Edward's cold stone arms, not believing that he was back and that he really loved me. Something didn't feel the same as it had last time though.
When he kissed me, his cold lips and cold body made me long for warmth. Ice didn't give me the same feeling it did before, now I was all for fire.
I missed Jacob. Thinking about Jacob made the hole in my chest ache. I realized I loved him. And I wanted to make him happy. Realizing I loved him had took me having the person I had thought I wanted most in this world back, and then discovering he wasn't the person I wanted. I trusted Jacob far more than I trusted Edward. Edward had left me once, and he could always do it again soon. Jacob would never leave me.
The next thing I knew I was awake, screaming in my sleep, Edward was comforting me. I struggled against him and finally managed to get free. I was suddenly very cold, and although it was summer, I reached under my bed to get my heavy winter blanket.
When I awoke Edward was giving me a strange, pained look. I quickly realized I was sweating and got up for a shower.
E POV
It felt so good to be holding Bella again. I loved her so much, and I had just caused her more pain by trying to what was best for her. I was a terrible person. She seemed different, I thought maybe because she was afraid I would leave her again. I would never cause her pain again, I swore to myself. It hurt me too much to see her in pain.
She fell asleep eventually. I missed watching her sleep, she looked so peaceful and beautiful. Every moment I was away this was how I imagined her. After a few hours, she started screaming. I was worried, I had never heard her scream like this before. I wondered what she could be dreaming that would cause her so much anguish. For what must have been the millionth time I wished I could see inside her head. I held her close to me, smoothing her hair and whispering in her ear until the screaming stopped. I felt another twinge of regret at the thought of it was me that caused her to scram in her sleep. I never should have left her.
Suddenly I felt her trying to move away from me, I let her go. She rolled as far away from me as possible and reached under her bed for her heavy winter blanket. It was the middle of summer in Forks, about as warm as it got in this town. She curled up and fell back asleep quickly. I wondered if maybe she just wasn't used to me anymore, wasn't used to how cold I was. I saw her mumble something. I listened as she started saying, "Jacob," over and over again in her sleep.
The only Jacob I had ever heard Bella talk about was Jacob Black, from La Push, the boy who had told her what I was. Maybe her and Jacob had gotten closer over my absence. I felt an urge of jealousy. Besides her parents, I was the only one who's name had been spoken in her sleep. Now this new boy was suddenly tied with me.
Then I heard her say four words that crushed my imaginary heart. I was sure that if tears could flow from my eyes they would've been. "Jacob I love you." Bella whispered. I had told her to move on. This was entirely my fault, and I was just going to have to live with the consequences. That didn't stop me from wanting to go rip Jacob Black into pieces for loving my Bella. I couldn't exactly blame him for loving her though. I mean, who wouldn't want to love her. She was beautiful, selfless, and many other amazing things. It hurt knowing she loved someone else.
If I had been stupid to leave her, I had been stupid to walk back here and not even consider the possibility that she moved on.
"I won't ever leave you Jacob, not ever." Bella whispered. Pain tore through me. Bella was going to leave me. For Jacob Black, a normal boy, just like I had originally planned. I tried to make myself see the benefits of this. Bella would have a normal life, with a normal boy. She could grow up and have children and love Charlie and Renee. This was what was best for her. My attempt to want the best for her, even if I wasn't in that picture, wasn't working. I very selfishly wanted her to love me instead. She had no idea how hard it was for me to be away from her. I was just going to have to let her go, I decided painfully. Fear and pain and sorrow exploded through me.
I would watch her though. I wasn't allowed in La Push anymore, but what could they possibly do? There were no more werewolves there. I would just remain hidden to watch her and make sure she was being treated right. If I couldn't be with her, I wouldn't be away from her. She meant the world to me, and if she would choose him, I would let her go. I would comfort and busy myself with the thought that if she ever needed me that I would be there for her.
I saw her awaking. She was sweating inside her blankets, I had thought she would've taken them off when she warmed up but they remained wrapped around her the entire time. That had surprised me, I couldn't understand why she was doing that.
She looked at me quickly and said, " I need a human moment."
I nodded my head, thinking that maybe I could say just something that would make her stay with me forever.
I decided against it.