Hey so, there's only one fact changed in this chapter, that a loyal reader *cough* MyPatronusIsEmberdawn *cough* Pointed out, and this means they'll have figured it out. So, have fun finding the change!

Dear Mark,

I know this will probably be lost in your fan mail, which is why I sent it. I want to get something off my chest, but if you ever saw this, I'd die of embarrassment. So, from thousands of miles away, here is a confession.

I love you, and have for a few years now. It may seem like not such a big deal, as you don't know who's writing this, but you'd flip if you found out.

I found out about your YouTube channel four years ago. I stayed up all night, watching a guy scream at every little jump scare that happened. That was way back when you were playing Amnesia. I immediately subscribed, realizing that you were fairly small compared to others on the site.

I watched your channel grow, and was excited for each and every upload. I finally found the courage to put everything I have into YouTube. I never expected for it to grow to where it is now, but I think that it's because you're my inspiration, my motivation to never give up.

A year after I found you, you contacted me. I was so excited, I squealed for five minutes straight. You wanted to do a collab, and I immediately agreed, even though I had a larger fan base than you at that time. (I still do!) I couldn't wait to talk to you directly!

You were so much fun, and I felt happy for weeks afterwards. We started collabing more often. I even met you in person at multiple conventions, doing a panel or two together. (More recently.)

And that's when my feelings started being more than platonic. At first, I thought it was just me being a fanboy filled with admiration. It took awhile for me to realize what I felt for you, and what it meant about myself. I realized that I loved you about half a year after our first video together. This realization startled me, as I had gone through my whole life thinking I was straight. I went through a period of denial, full of random girls coming and going from my bedroom.

Then there was a girl who was amazing. I won't tell you her name, but you would know who I was talking about if you knew who I was. She burrowed deep into my life, and stays there to this day. I feel a horrible guilt though, as every time I see a happy couple, I imagine it could be you and me, not her and me. I love her to pieces, but her love is more of a protective one, and that's why we aren't married, even when we've been dating for a couple years now. That's why I'm writing this letter, to hopefully release some of this guilt weighing down my heart.

And, if you ever find this letter, buried in your fan mail, know that I love you with all my heart.

Signed,

A fan, a friend, an admirer, and a hopeless romantic.