So, this is my first time writing General Danvers...
I hope you guys liked it.
After the finale, I couldn't help thinking (hoping...praying) that it was Astra on that pod...I know it probably isn't but... ah well! Anyways. Here we go.
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She'd decided to go to her father's grave, to ask his advice. After all, it's not every day that you fall in love with your adopted sister's alien aunt. The aunt you had killed to protect your new father figure. The aunt who had just come back to Earth, in a pod, alive.
Walking along the cemetery, through the familiar path, Alex kept thinking that this was silly.
He father was not dead.
Yet, she needed someone to talk to. She couldn't talk to Kara about being in love with her aunt. She wouldn't put Lucy in a position to keep secrets from Kara. Couldn't talk to Hank about being in love with her 'former' enemy. And her mother...hah. That left her father. She needed his strength and council right now. She couldn't have it. Not yet, anyways. So she would take comfort in this. As she had done in the past.
Reaching her father's empty grave, Alex knelt down in front of it. And she stared at the name there.
She gave humourless laugh. She was asking for advice...on her not dead father's grave about being in love with an alien that she'd killed, but was now alive, because apparently her funerary pod had taken her too close to the sun, which had apparently, healed her. What was wrong with her life?
Letting out another chuckle, Alex let herself sit down and crossed her legs, readying herself. It had been...a while since she'd been here. Things had been so chaotic lately that she hadn't been able to visit in a long time. And that was as good as place to start as any.
"Hey dad... I...I'm sorry it took me so long to get back. And I know that you're alive, but talking to you here helped me in the past, and well... I sort of need all the help I can get now." She pause and shook her head slightly. "Actually, I think it's ever better that you're not here right now...I can't imagine what you would say to this."
Alex paused a look at the clear blue sky above her for a while, before taking a deep breath.
"I'm in love with Astra." Alex breathed out.
It was the first time she had said it out loud, and she felt a shiver run down her spine. God...
"Who is Kara's aunt, by the way... Her mother's twin sister." Alex gulped. "And I may have... run a blade through her chest. Causing her to die... Or at least I thought she had. Apparently her pod went too close to the sun and it... healed her. Dad she's...alive." Alex paused. Her fingers started to play with the grass under them.
"She's alive, dad. And she doesn't hate me..." Alex closed her eyes, fingers still moving. "She doesn't hate me... how can she not hate me? Dad, I... I impaled her! I didn't hesitate. And she just..." Alex stopped and took a calming breath.
"Okay, from the start... " Alex ran her tongue across her lips, before she started talking again. "After J'onn and Kara found Astra in that pod, they called me to meet them at the DEO asap. It was empty at the time, Lucy had sent everyone home to celebrate our victory."
"By the way, you'd be please to know, I think, that Kara's dating. Her girlfriend is Major Lane, and don't worry, I know she's part of the army, and yes, her father is kinda crazy - though he did come through now...sort of -she's a very nice person. I'm surprised as well, I mean, she did get me arrested, but you know... she loves Kara. I can see it whenever I'm in their presence. And after the hug they gave each other the other day in front of everyone I think I'm not the only one..." Alex smiled, and then chuckled.
"Sorry...I guess I started to babble...guess I'm kinda nervous...which is stupid because I'm basically talking to myself here so...but yeah, Lucy is a great person." Alex took a deep breath. "Anyways, so when I got to the DEO ...
"J'onn, what's going on? What happened?" I asked as soon as I saw him, waiting for me in the entrance.
"I think it's best if you see for yourself, Alex." He said to me, a frown on his face, walking through the halls of the DEO with me hot on his heels. I mimicked his expression. What could have caused him to react this way?
"Where is Kara?" I asked, once we stopped, right in front of the infirmary. Without saying a word, he motioned to the doors. With a foreboding feeling, I opened the door and entered.
The first thing I took notice of was Kara's costume. The next, was a tall woman, sitting on the sun-bed. For one second, I didn't recognize her. Or maybe I did, but my mind didn't allow me to understand it completely until she turned her head to look at me, right in my eyes.
"A-Astra?" I stuttered, completely stunned. I'm sure my eyes had never been as wide as they had at that moment.
"Brave one." Was Astra's response, with a slight inclination of her head, but her eyes never left mine. I couldn't look away either. I had seen her die. I had...I had killed her myself.
"H-How...I..What...But..." I probably muttered a lot of nonsensical words in rapid succession, and Astra smirked. That damn smirk. That never failed to get my heart racing, though each time it seemed to be for a different reason.
Astra was alive. She was alive.
As Astra stood up, something in my body snapped and the years of training made me take as many steps back as possible in the little room, heart beating widely. My action seemed to freeze Astra, who just frowned at me.
But how else could I react? The woman I had k-killed was standing right in front of me. Smirking. Or she was at least.
"Alexandra?" Astra asked, and my full name pronounced by her made an involuntary (and unwanted) thrill spread through my body.
"W-What's going on here?" I asked, and I'm sure I had never stuttered so many times in such a short span of time before.
"Alex, it's okay. She's not gonna hurt you." Kara said, and I suddenly remembered she was there. Of course my little sister would know what I was thinking and would try to calm me down. But how was I supposed to calm down from this?
"She's afraid?" Astra said, her damn smirk replacing her confusion. "Shouldn't I be the one having to worry about turning my back on her, ever?" Even in my... state, I couldn't help but notice that there was no bite behind her words. Why was there no bite behind her words?
"What's going on here?!" I shouted, unable to help myself.
Astra straightened, expression serious and before Kara could say anything, she started. "My... funeral pod strayed too close to the yellow sun on its way back to Rao. I think we underestimated the healing powers of it, for I remember waking up to its immense shine." She said, walking back to the sun-bed to sit down, but her eyes still didn't leave mine. "The intensity almost left me blind, but I managed to turn away from it. I don't know how much time passed, but I could feel myself getting strong again, and as the intensity of the sun diminished, I dared to open my eyes. After a while, I managed to make the pod turn back to Earth. And well, here I am." Astra said, voice never wavering after the first two words. She told me her tale like a soldier reporting after a mission.
I gulped. My throat suddenly felt dry. Very dry, and I had to clear it twice before I could say anything.
"And...do you know of... I..." I started, but for all I wanted, I could not finish my thought.
"I told Aunt Astra of everything that happened while she was...away." Kara said, standing halfway between us, but out of eye line.
I couldn't take looking into those beautiful green eyes anymore, heart beating a mile per hour. I let my gaze drop. Drop to the place where not that long, I had put a bright, green blade through.
My wandering gaze did not go unnoticed by the other two occupants of the room, and it suddenly got a bit colder. My heart was still hammering in my chest, something which the Kryptonians (and probably J'onn) were probably keenly aware of, and I honestly didn't know what to say. At all.
The silence stretched for a while, my mind screaming for me to ask why wasn't Astra shooting lasers out of her eyes directly into my skull, but no words came out of my mouth. When the silence was about to get unbearable, Astra spoke again.
"Little one, would you leave us alone, for a moment?" The (former?) General's voice was calm, and soft. Surprisingly soft.
I'm sure Kara was looking at me, but my eyes had gone back to Astra's and I couldn't look away. She was alive. After a brief moment of hesitation, Kara left the room, the door closing softly behind her. And I found my words.
"Do you want to kill me?" I asked, and for a brief moment, Astra's eyes widened slightly, going back to normal not a second later.
"Why would I want to kill you, Brave one? As a soldier you did what you had to do. You protected your commanding officer and eliminated the threat. Without hesitation. It showed great skill on your part." She said, voice completely honest, and I could feel my forehead frowning more with each word uttered.
"But I... Astra, I k-" I started, but couldn't finish. There I was, standing in front of the woman that I impaled not that long ago and she was complimenting my skills as an agent. .fuck.
Before I could open my mouth to say exactly that (or try to, at least... my mind was not exactly in tune with my mouth that day), Astra interrupted me.
"I meant what I said Alexandra. You did what you had to do in order to protect those you care for. In order to accomplish your mission. You went against a Kryptonian, a being much stronger and faster than you, with no regards to your own safety, and you were victorious. There is a reason I call 'Brave One', Alexandra." She said, and instead of calming me, her soft tone made me exasperated. Though I'm sure that, if I wasn't so distressed though, I'd have blushed.
"I was not brave, I went behind your back..." I managed to say, but that seemed to amuse her.
"Well, I did say I'd not be turning my back on you for a while. That doesn't change the fact th-" Whatever else she was gonna say didn't matter, because I suddenly had found my voice.
"I KILLED YOU! I RAN YOU THROUGH WITH A BLADE!" I shouted at her with all the strength I could muster. I felt dizzy and put my hand on the bed to steady myself.
Her only reaction was to continue stare at me, while I panted after my outburst. After I had almost recovered, she took a step closer to me and I closed my eyes, lowering my head. Waiting for what, I did not know, but it was not what came. A hand on my chin, forced it up, and as I opened my eyes, I was staring straight into hers. Very close to me.
"I know." She said, and I could feel her breath on my face.
I started to feel a burning behind my eyes. A burning that was usually reserved for when I was afraid I'd hurt Kara. Or that I'd lose her. I would not let my tears flow, however.
"T-Then why?" I asked in a low voice.
"I meant what I said, Alexandra." She said, voice just as low as mine. Her hand didn't leave my chin; her grip was soft. "I had a lot of time to think in the pod." Her expression seemed pensive, but her touch remained steady. "Myriad... it was not a solution. And I am glad you and my niece stopped it. Stopped Non and... the others." She said.
"Admitting you were wrong, General?" I said then, before I could stop myself. Astra's voice and touch had calmed me. I could hear the sincerity in her tone. It took me back to the time when she'd been locked in the DEO. When I'd gone to see her a few times.
Before I could regret what I'd said, her smirk was back.
"Not a 'General' anymore, agent." She said, before her smirk dimmed a little. "But yes. It was a mistake. But I haven't given up on saving this planet. I'll just...talk to my niece, and maybe you..." She said that part as a question and I couldn't help but nod - as much as Astra's hand allowed me. "To find better ways to go about it." She finished, her hand leaving my chin to have a finger running along my left cheekbone, just like the first time we'd met.
"I'd...be glad to help." I said then. It was all I could say. The woman I had killed was back. She didn't hate me. She wanted my help. And by god, I'd give it to her. My heart was still running widely, but for a very different reason than before. My eyes involuntarily glanced to her lips, and when they looked back up, hers were just focusing on mine again.
"I'm glad." She whispered. And then it happened. What sealed what I thought was attraction as something more. She didn't kiss me on the lips, no. She kissed me, lightly, on the way between my lips and right cheek. Her approach had been slow enough that I could have moved if I wanted to, her hand was no longer keeping me in place. But I didn't want to.
The moment her lips touched my skin, my eyes closed. And I tried to memorise the feeling.
"And I'm gushing, ain't I?" Alex laughed and shook her head. "God, I'm glad you can't hear me, actually."
"So, after that we reunited with Kara, and discussed some plans. It was decided Astra would stay at my place, since we weren't going to lock her in the DEO and Kara...well, she had Lucy. She deserved her privacy. Lucy was a bit surprised (to say the least), but trusted me and Kara on our judgment. Their meeting was quite funny, actually. I could tell that Astra was trying to intimidate Lucy, but it didn't really work. She has a lot of confidence and strong will. Then again, she was raised by a military father."
"So... to wrap it up, for the past two weeks Astra has been living at my place. We... developed a good routine. It was easy actually. Astra's actually been trying. Though I did have to convince her against running for president at one point..." Alex laughed. That had been quite something. "Nothing more...intense happened. Not since that first day, but... it has been nice. Very nice."
Alex let her shoulders sag. It had actually felt good to take it off her chest. To say it all out loud. Very good. She closed her eyes and relaxed. Now that everything was out there, she just had to figure out what to do with it. Or... not to do.
"Brave One," A voice, a very familiar voice said behind her. Alex froze. She was not expecting anyone to find her here, especially after they'd discovered that her father had not died.
Hesitantly, she opened her eyes, turned around and saw the person who was present in all her thoughts lately.
"Astra..." Alex breathed out more than said it. Of course it'd be her. Murphy's law didn't care about humans and aliens. Or maybe it just really liked Alex. "What are you doing here?"
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This will, probably, have one more chapter! Do write a comment to let me know what you think =)