Richelle Mead Owns Vampire Academy

A/N: I'm attempting to make these chapters pretty long. It was originally supposed to be a sad one-shot but i'll probably be a three-shot. :D

So Enjoy or Not?

Being with my Roza has been the best moments of my life.

She's the light to my darkness - my soulmate.

The only woman who has ever completed me, and understands things about me... even things that I don't recognize about myself.

Our love for each other is unbreakable, and it even seems like we're inseparable.

But i've been holding back - ignoring her at any chance I could.

I see the hurt growing in her and I even canceled our practices together.

There was only a week left before the Field Experience began.

No doubt in my mind that Rose won't fail. She's as skilled as an guardian that's been training for years.

It hurts me that I won't be there to see her pass the experience and see her graduate.

I'm leaving back to Baia, Russia.

It's not that I won't too but I know it's best for Roza.

With me around i'll destract her.

I'll protect her before I protect my charge.

I couldn't risk having another charge die and I wasn't there to protect them.

I sign and set my western book down on the table.

I was in the gym waiting for Roza.

The gym door opened and Rose smiled at me.

I almost smiled back. All I wanted to do was shower her in kisses and tell her to forgive me and tell her how much I love her.

My heart squeeze knowing i'll regret what I was about to do next.

I got up from my chair when she was standing infront of me.

"What's wrong?" Rose's voice was filled with concern.

I looked away from her signing, "It's just...us."

She raised her eyebrows, "What?"
My eyes locked with her's, "Rose, we can't keep going on like this it won't work out."

Her eyes widened and tears were filling them. It took all my control not to wipe them away.

"What are you talking about?" She grabbed my arms and looked at me desperatly, "Dimitri...plea-"

I shook my head and stepped away from her, "We can't be together we're too different. It'll never work out."

I could see the mixed emotions of confusion, hurt, and anger in her eyes.

I began walking away from her, "Goodbye Roza."

I left the gym like nothing happened going back to my room.

My body felt numb and I forced myself to keep leaving and not turn back when I heard Rose's cries.

I grabbed my suitcases and went to Kirova's office.

She was surprised to see me and looked at my bags then back up at me. "Vacation?" She guessed.

I've been at this academy for five years but haven't left since after Ivan's death two years ago.

I shook my head, "I'm resigning from here...i'm going to be a guardian at the Russian Court."

Kirova nodded but asked no more questions.

After I got my last paycheck a guardian took me to the airport. I knew him but never spoke to him. Before I got out the van he asked me something,

"Dimitri I know we've never talked, but I can see somethings killing you inside."

"It's just..." I shook my head I couldn't tell him or no one about Rose.

He nodded and then left.

And it's been three years since...