Prologue—
I do not believe in love. Why waste my time with an emotion that does not exist in this world? 'Love' is one of the many pointless feelings experienced by the pathetic group of lowlife humans who crave something to have and to hold. They believe in it simply because they think they'll find some sort of happiness; but they won't. There's always a letdown in the end, no matter the situation.
I would know … There was a point in time where even I had someone I loved and cared for more than anything in the world. By that standard alone, I used to be the epitome of what I mock today. I was once in love … but here I am today preaching that it does not exist. Why? I've long since realized that those sorts of feelings never amount to anything. I've given up on them completely. They're fruitless, and therefore pointless. There is no gain … no profit. No longer will I allow myself to be fooled by others. I have only ever 'loved' one, and I will never 'love' any other ever again.
Those days are over.
I guess I'm one of the only few who have actually realized that 'love' only gets you hurt. One moment you're as happy as can be and the next you're left abandoned and it all just shatters. You're left to fend on your own and mend the gruesome wounds mentally inflicted. What are you supposed to do then? You could move on and let yourself 'love' again … but then you're only setting yourself up to fall right back down again. It happens all the time, remember? So your only other option is to forget it altogether.
If 'love' was real, pain wouldn't exist. It really is as simple as that. If 'love' existed, everyone would be happy and content. If we could truly 'love' then there'd be no fighting. But I've experienced enough pain over the last few years to know that it's always present—looming over your shoulder … ready to strike any minute. There is no true happiness found in 'love' because there's no doubt that we feel pain.
'Love' does not exist.
(A/N): One of the things I really noticed about Disorient was the fact that people asked me for more. With the way I wrote things, I didn't really plan for a second chapter or a sequel. However, the requests were numerous enough for me to try to come up with an idea. This story is still heavily under construction, so I wouldn't expect any updates anytime soon (and it's not going to be written in first person...that just made it easier to start). So I hope you enjoy and look forward to it~!