I Remember
I remeber feeling helpless. I could feel my feet and arms swaying with perfect unison. I feel the heartbeat in my chest. I see dead people lying around me, and me stomping ont heir remains with caring. I try and even twitch a finger, but it's no use. It's a living moving hell. You can't just close your eyes and get away. Your here. And there's nothing you can do about it. My only hope that Christina isn't awake or awre, and safe. I would die, to have her be ok. Maybe that's love. Maybe this is what love feels like. And I decide in this horrible depressing place with gunshots in the background, that I just decided I love her.
My depressing thoughts fade away, when I think of her. I remeber all the times she kissed me, and I think about our future. After all this is over, if it will be, that I'll tell her. And then, I turn directions. Me, the only group of any turns, and raises their gones. The two beside me fall to the ground motionless, and dead to the world. I run after wanting to stop myself in panic, but I can't do anything. I can't move if I needed too. Then I see the target. Tris. My friend. She looks wet and scared. But even now, she's beautiful. But I couldn't love a girl like her. I love Christina. Her eyes fill with terror and disbelief. I attempted to make a joke, but I remember I can't talk or control myself. Then my arm rises slowly, and aims the gun at her forhead. Her eyes flash panic, and she raises hers. I look into her eyes, and yell "Tris! NO! I'm not, it's not.." but I can't find the words, and if I did, I wouldn't be able to say them. I feel my grip tighten on the gun, and is about the press the trigger, but it takes all my might, and I won a tiny battle. I beat the simulation to kill my friend. I did it. But then I hear the trigger go off. And it's not mine. A single tear falls down Tris's face and I know what she did.
I would be angry at her, but whats the point? I'm already dead. I see the bullet circle towards me slowly. And I feel, like my insides are hanging out. The light catches he silver in the bullet, and I see my whole life. I remember everyting I didn't before. I see my first book, and me reading it at four. I remember me and my sister Cara exchanging maps, competiting to see who can memorize the most. I remember the guys at school who made fun of me at school, because they were smarter then me. But that seems so foolish now. I see me, and my family in a giant hug. I see Cara pick Erudite, and all my nervousness disapear right in front of my eyes. I remember being in class, and spotting Christina, for the first time. I remeber how her dark skin complemented her pretty eyes. I remember every detail of that day. I remember her in white and black. Then I see my friends back at Erudite, smiling and joking with me. I see my aptitude test and the test results 'Dauntless'. I remember the choosing ceremony, and remember the guilt that ate me alive that night. I remeber jumping off the building, taking all my courage. I remember my first time talking to Christina and Tris. I remember the times I learned how to fight, and carry a gun. I remember seeing all my fears in the matter of 15 minutes. I remember my last kiss with Christina. I remember her smile, and her perfect features.
And I feel the bullet hit me. And I remember my very last thought. I love you Christina.
Poor Will:'(. Ok thanks for reading! I have two r's dor you to remember. Review, and read my other stories. THANKS!