I Am Matt

by Blake And Edge

I am Matt. It doesn't matter what happened to Mail Jeevas, he isn't me and I'm not him. I wasn't alive until I met Mello, but at the same time, I was never more dead. Fic based on how Matt became Matt and his relationship with Mello. Matt/Mello. Drugs.

1. Prologue

Title: I Am Matt

Prologue

Mail Jeevas was a sad little boy whose parents abandoned. Mail Jeevas was a pathetic waste of flesh and skin. He had no dreams and absolutely no aspirations. Mail Jeevas was a fucking fool, okay? A redheaded idiotic son of a gun! I am not Mail Jeevas. I swear to your fucking god that I am not.

Mail Jeevas was kind and sympathetic. He was found by an old guy called Quillish Wammy who brought him to an orphanage for incredibly gifted children. Mail Jeevas was too pathetic to make it on his own. His sympathy made him weak. He was way too fucking pathetic to make it all by himself at the age of 6. He needed to be directed to what he should do and who he should be. So, Mail Jeevas was groomed to be the next L, and Mail Jeevas did as he was told.

Mail Jeevas dragged himself from class to class doing fantastically well. He was always first, just like they wanted him to be. People always complimented him, so why the fuck did he feel so hollow? Why was he dissatisfied? Why the fuck was he so lonely? Why wasn't it good enough?

One day, a boy who had named himself Mello came to the Orphanage, just like Mail Jeevas had. The minute the blonde new boy spotted him, he walked up and all the loneliness was taken away. He took all of Mail Jeevas's doubts and thoughts and fears and beliefs and replaced them with something he knew. He took everything that made Mail Jeevas who he is and replaced it with a new being, a completely new entity. Mello called him Matt.

I am Matt.

Authors Note: Hi Guys! Edge here from the Blake and Edge team! Basically, this is another solofic for the Bledge team, making this a Edgefic (don't get it? Check out the profile lol) anyways I was trying to write a poem about this but I kept getting a bunch of ideas so I was kind of like "SCREW THIS SHIT!" and decided to make it an actual fanfic :3 I hoped you guys all enjoyed it, it was fun to write. I'll update with the new chapter as soon as I can :3

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