Book One
Renesmee
Renesmee's Point of View
Prologue
It had been nine long years since I had seen him.
My wolf.
My reason for living.
My Jacob.
My sun.
Chapter One
I was never good at first impressions. Or in this case, my second
I sat in the passenger seat of Edward's Volvo with my heart pounding as we passed the sign that said
Welcome to Forks
Population: 619
The weather was cold and rainy. I tried to keep my head from spinning. I haven't been in Forks for 9 years. I closed my eyes and remembered the day I left. I was only physically eight or nine.
I remember hugging Charlie goodbye with misty eyes. I turned to Jacob; his face was traumatized, broken, and devastated. I walked over to him holding his hand and leading him to the car. "Come on Jakey. Come sit with me!" he shook his head slowly. "Stop being silly Jakey!" I giggled. Bella interjected. "Sweetheart, Jacob needs to stay." Then I remember screaming and crying.
I winced at the memory. Edward pulled into Charlie's driveway. Slowly I got out of the car. Edward patted my back and said, "It's going to be okay. Just calm down. It's Charlie.
Bella got out of her Ferrari and joined Edward. The rest of the Cullens were going to unpack. Knowing them they would be done by the time we were back.
Shortly after Bella knocked the door swung open. Charlie looked just the same, but his hair looked a little grey.
He hugged Bella and shook Edwards hand. Then he made his way to me. His jaw fell and his eyes widened. His gasp echoed through the eerily quiet room. I shifted on my feet uncomfortably my eyes darting back and forth. I could hear his heart race. I awkwardly walked up to him and hugged him. We stayed like that for a few minutes. Charlie caught us up on everything that had happened in Fork for the past few years. It wasn't much because Forks is a small town and nothing much happens. Then he talked about how much Jacob had missed me. He told us the move had been hard on him and Jake never fully recovered from it. I felt my fluttering heart start to race and I tried to swallow the lump in my throat.
After a while we said goodbye to Charlie and left. I just wasn't in the mood to have my mind reading father analyze my thoughts in such a time of panic; so I hopped in my mom's car and we sped off to the house.
As we pulled into the driveway I saw a figure walking up to the house. I couldn't see through the rain. I put the hood up of my black sweatshirt and slowly got out. The person was obviously a man. His skin was a warm caramel and he was obviously very, very tall. Suddenly his head spun around and his eyes met mine.
Jacob.
My Jacob….
This wasn't exactly how I expected to see him. I expected an epic emotional and perfect storybook moment, but no. My prince charming stood there in only a worn out pair of cut off jeans. His eyes were wide and his jaw was to the floor. And I didn't care. It made my life all the better just to look into his eyes after years and years of not seeing him. In some ways it felt like an eternity, but in others it felt like just yesterday.
I had the same look on my face that Jake had on his, my jaw was slack and I stared at him, barely blinking. The person who meant the world to me was less then 50 feet away and I stood there frozen like a dumbass. Suddenly Jacob ran up to me crushing me against his warm body and he threw his arms around me and lifted me a few inches off the ground. I didn't realize I was crying until Jake wiped the tears away.
I nuzzled my face into his chest. He kept his arms wrapped around me and kissed the top of my head. After about 10 minutes of crying I realized how much of a bad impression I made. I don't want to be some sappy, whiny, crybaby teenage girl who he has to deal with. I broke away from Jacob's grasp and wiped furiously at my eyes.
"Sorry" I mumble and stare at the ground. I stuffed my hands into the pockets my black sweatshirt. I sulked back inside with my cheeks burning with embarrassment. It took everything in me not to run back into Jacobs's arms. Every bone in my body was screaming at me to run back to him. Damn it what is wrong with me? I mentally rolled my eyes at myself. I saw in the corner of my eye Jacob walking toward my dad. As soon as I got back I did the one thing that calms me down the most. I almost ran to the beautiful piano in the room across from the grand foyer. The beautiful stained glass windows of the Cullen crest were dark from the clouds. I found myself absentmindedly playing Pachelbel's Canon in D major. It used to make me cry, it was such a sad pretty song.
I suddenly got the strange feeling that I was being watched. Me being weird and paranoid I got up and turned around, I saw Jacob; his tall frame was leaned against the doorframe. I was so shocked I nearly tripped over the piano bench.
I'm really making an amazing impression on him…
He ran over to me apologizing "Shit, Ness I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to scare you. You just sounded really good, and I wanted to listen. I didn't mean to impose."
"IMPOSE," I blurted out. "Jacob it's ME. I've known you for my whole life." Where the hell did that come from? Ugh, why can't I just keep my freaking mouth shut…
We both stood there awkwardly. "I missed you," he said. "More then you know Nessie. Ever since you left I've been depressed. For the first few weeks I wouldn't eat or sleep. I would just stay in my wolf form running. Hoping I would see you at every turn I made. But I didn't see you. I've been depressed for 9 years. Seeing you all of a sudden was like BAM. Everything fixed itself. My world became light again Ness. You're like my sun."
I could've sworn that he was tearing up. I definitely was. I stared right into his eyes. The look in his eyes really was unbelievable; it was like a blind man seeing the sun for the first time. It almost felt like things were back to normal.
Almost.