F o r e v e r
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Forever seem such short a time for people like me.
Being a ninja, I am born to a life of servitude, never really being able to live a life that is mine alone, yet, I utter not a complain. I have accepted my fate.
I live to protect, and one day I will die, for those I love…
…just like how those I love, died for me.
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He looked straight into my eyes, into my very soul, he whispered…
'I will always love you'
Forever,
Always…
what painful words.
It makes people think that there's no end to good things, that there will always be time.
It gives nothing but false hopes.
It gave me hope.
I took in his familiar scent, making me soft inside. I melted in his arms as he told me stories of what was to come, what was meant to be…
..Of how we were supposed to spend our 'forever' together.
'I love you too…'
I could only say it in my thoughts. I'm a coward.
Saying it out loud would've confirmed it and I thought of how it would make me a prisoner to my own feelings.
I thought loving could do nothing but make me weak, just like what it did to me when I loved the Hokage.
Foolish to compare my childhood love to him.
He was different.
He was not invulnerable like Naruto, neither was he full of laughter like Naruto.
In fact, he was nothing like Naruto.
We were a doomed couple from the start, and he knew that.
I knew that.
Yet he loved me.
He loved me for who I am; shy, useless, weak.
Ninjas protected their loved ones, and my identity and life had been stripped away from me the moment I failed to protect the one man I loved the most.
Now I'm nothing but full of regrets, anger.
But no tears.
I promised no one would see me cry but him. I'm keeping that promise, and now that he's gone, no more tears.
Now as I'm standing in front of his grave, I'm ashamed to say that I still do not have the courage to say my feelings out loud.
However it was not because I was afraid to admit my feelings…
I simply could not admit to myself that he was gone.
I took his words for granted, his touches, his kisses, his dreams of spending his eternity with me.
I took him for granted.
'Hatake Kakashi, I love you, forever.'
I am his, even after forever runs out.
I am his. Bleh, my stupid kaka/hina craze =.= keep the kaka/hina love goin' peeps. Usapple