First Jily oneshot! Hope you'll like it :)

"Fuck you." I spit out.

He smirks and puts his hand on the wall, next to my head.

"There's just one person I want to fuck and it's you, Evans."

I take a sharp breath.

Don't let him get you, Lily. Don't give him what he wants.

I hate him. I hate him. I hate him. I love him... No! I hate him. I despise him with all my heart.

Some people say that love is almost the same thing as love. They're wrong.

I hate Potter and I will never love him! I hate his arrogant personnality, I hate his satisfied smirk, I hate his stupid jokes and pranks. I hate him!

"C'mon Evans, you know you want me."

I snort.

Like I would ever.

"I hate you!" I scream.

Why am I screaming? I can't let him get to me.

"Love is the same thing as hate."

I would have already left if I wasn't cornered. Stupid Potter.

"Let me go, Potter. Now."

"Not before you accept the fact, love."

"What fact?"

"That you love me. You want me."

"In your dreams."

"It already is. Now, I want it for real."

He comes closer until his body is pressed against mine.

I whine.

I hate him for making me feel like this. I hate him for making me feel vulnerable. I hate him for making me feel this angry. I hate him for making me feel like I was the only girl in the world for him.

I lose my guard, shocked.

Where did that come from?

He's just playing with me. When I'll give him what he wants and let him take me, he'll leave me for another girl. Another challenge.

I can't let him get me. I just can't. I have to stay strong.

And if I have to use this hate to stay strong, I will do it. I won't let him win.

"Go find another girl to play with." I spat angrily.

His eyes flash with anger.

"You think I'm just some Playboy? That I'm just using you? Fuck you, Evans! I hate you!"

"Likewise."

"I'm not finished! I hate you for making me feel like this! I hate you for thinking I'm just some Playboy who just uses girls! I hate you for making me fall in love with you! I hate you for breaking my heart each times you reject me and, even if you do that, I still come back, loving you more and more!"

He breathes heavily, exhausted after blurting out the truth.

I don't know who started it, but I'm suddenly pressed between the wall and Potter, his lips on mine. We're kissing each other like there's no tomorrow, fiercely and passionately.

Hate, love, all of this is mixing up in our kiss.

That's not what I planned.

I hate him with all my might but I can't stop myself for loving him. And now, I know it's the same for him.

He hates me as much as I love him.

I hate him as much as he loves me.

We break the kiss, breathing heavily, like if we just had run a marathon. I look up to his eyes. His beautiful hazel eyes. I can see the hate in them but I can see love too.

We can't suppress this love anymore. He understood that quicker than me.

I hate him for being this clever.

I love him for being intelligent.

"I hate you." I whisper.

"I love you too." he breathes out.

Maybe love is really the same thing as hate.

My first Jily oneshot!

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