I hoped to find peace one day. My pilgrimage was over, and I wanted to return back to the fleet, back to my home world. Except I didn't want to leave you. You bought happiness into my life, something I had never felt before. I was young then, I didn't understand that those thoughts in my head were fuelled by hormones and love. Then, I saw you with Cerberus, and my heart broke into a million pieces. I thought that Cerberus hated aliens, and me being a alien, you'd hate me as well. Then I realised, that I'd love you anyway. You didn't have to love me back for me to love you, just you being alive made me smile. Then, you came back to me, and we were together again on the Normandy. I spent time in engineering, cause I couldn't face being next to you and not tell you how I felt. How I still feel. You came down and saw me everyday, and we spent so much time together. The night before the Omega four relay, we bonded, and I showed you my face for the first time. We were in love, and we destroyed the collectors together. When you were held by theAlliance, I cried nearly every day. I went back to the fleet, and tried to adapt to life without you, I couldn't. Every day, I saw your smile, heard you laugh, felt you next to me. Every night without you was like my soul being torn out. I became a general, I knew you'd be proud of me if you saw me. Then again, you came back. You united the geth and saved Rannoch, where you promised to build me a home, some promises aren't meant to be I guess. We saved millions of lives together, and shared all our secrets. You were the galaxies hero, yet you loved a lowly quarian. I used to pinch myself to check it was all real. I soon realised, I was pregnant. I never told you, a bad mistake on my part. You never knew, and I never told anyone. You raided the Illusive's mans base, and learnt the citadel was the catalyst, and that you had to destroy them. We were running when I was injured, I wanted to stay with you, you wouldn't let me. You promised you'd come back to me, and you said you loved me, that was the last time I ever saw you alive. You saved the whole world, controlling the reapers and stopping the killing. You had to give your life for this result. You always were a hero, and at that point you gave your life for the galaxy. Your sons been born, Named after you, of course. He stands with me as I write this, holding my hand. I will tell him about you in a few years, how his father was the bravest man alive and how you gave your life, I live with Liara now, though I feel we were all deeply affected losing you. I cry myself to sleep at night, but our son stays with me, keeping me close to you in a way. I can never move on from you Shepard, save me a place with you in heaven when I join you. I love you, and I will never stop it. I hope you can read this from heaven, and you are watching over me, guarding , Tali Zorah Vas Normandy. AUTHORS NOTE: Sorry about the no page gaps, this is written on my iPad, criticism is wanted and appreciated, don't make it to harsh please. Please review and pm me with your opinions, i love to hear your views. Maisie.