disclaimer //////

I do not own these wonderful characters etc. but Stephenie Meyer does.

This story begins New Moon, p. 363, but Jacob passed the phone - so many little decissions with a huge impact. Enjoy

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The shrill ring of the phone made us both jump, but it did not break his focus. He took his hand from under my chin and reached over me to grab the receiver, but still held my face securely with the hand against my cheek. His dark eyes did not free mine. I was too muddled to react, even to take advantage of the distraction.

"Swan residence, one second please" Jacob said in his husky tone and passed the phone to me.

"Hello?" was all i could say, because Jacobs eyes were still locked with mine.

"Bella, " it was only a whisper but i instantly knew who it was.

I broke the eye contact with Jacob and sank to the kitchen floor. I could feel my heart beating to its limits, it might stop now. How often i wished to hear that velvet voice again.

Now that this dream became reality, i was unable to say another word.

A pause, then the angels' voice continued.

"Bella, i am so glad to hear your voice. That you are alive. I need to see you. Soon."

Tears were now dripping with lightning speed. I couldn't stop them, i felt like i started to bleed inside.

I wasn't able to say something. I felt this emptiness in my head. Everything went silent, only my sobbs were clearly audible.

"Please stop crying. Bella, listen to me, i will come to your place tomorrow. I know that Charly will be staying at the Clearwaters most of the day.

Please be there. I am sorry this is all happening right now."

I could feel Jacobs warm hand on my shoulder, it was trembling a little.

Then I heard a silent click on my left ear. Disconnected.

Why is he doing that to me? I just don't understand it! A big sob escaping my soul and there were Jacobs eyes again to catch me.

Empitness. i had to think, to decide, but it was all to fast for me.

"Bella!" i heard Alice scream, she run into the kitchen, clutching her hand to her nose.

"He..."

"I know," i cut her off. "I know, he is coming to Forks. He just called." I was lucky i had my voice back, thanks to the warmth that was spreading from Jacobs hand.

Everything was twirling and dancing in my head, i wanted both to stay now. My two best friends. But i know that wasn't possible. Those stupid decissions all the time were freaking me out!

"Bella," Jacob finally spoke, "do you want me to come back tomorrow?"

I didn't know what to respond. I didn't know anything right now. I looked into Alice' eyes, then back to Jacob. underneath his mask i could feel the warmth i needed so desperately.

"Yes. But you have to promise me something."

"Anything"

"Don't say a single word. I need you as a friend tomorrow. You too, Alice. Please. Why does he want to speak to me? Why now? Why? I do not understand."

With the head resting between my knees i waited for them to speak.

After an awakward pause Alice broke the thick silence that fell over the kitchen when i heard his voice for the first time since the day in the forrest. Not counting the delusions of course.

"I honestly don't know dear. Don't you worry, it will all work out somehow. Believe me. Well, ahem, Bella, i am sorry to say that now, but ... , i really need to..."

One look into her eyes told me everything she didn't want to say in front of a werewolf.

"Its ok, Jacob is here."

"Thank you. And Black, behave. I will be back in 2 hours, take care!"

I heard a dark grumbling from Jacobs direction and she was gone with the twinkling of an eye.

"Shall i..." he began, but i knew he could feel that i wanted him to stay. His other hand wandered back under my chin to pull up my face.

The tears were still running down my cheeks, his warm hand traced down their path.

"I... Jake, i don't know..." i started hyperventilating, now the shock was coming fast.

"Shh it's ok Bella. I am there, forever. Let's go over to the couch, i am sure it's more comfortable than this could floor", and without waiting for my response, he lifted me up to carry me. i felt so thankful for everything he gave me.

It felt like this short phone call ripped away everything that Jake had repaired. Now i had to start thinking.

It will be a decission that would change everything.

There was no right or wrong anymore.

For the first time, i thought about myself and what i wanted.

But what was that?

Instead of placing me on the couch, Jacob held me tight to his chest and placed himself on the couch.

"Listen" he said.

I was confused, but i knew what he meant. So i rested my ear on his chest. His heartbeat was like a lullaby.

My thoughts, still dancing, began to slow down.

"How do you do that?" my question was answered by that wonderful smile which i thought was lost for good.

///// authors note

i know its very short, but i want to see if you like the idea before i write more.

my head is full of ideas, and i am sorry to say that i like this drama-triangle thing - i think it will continue for a while, but i clearly prefer Bella and Jacob to be together. so you are prepared. lots of twists waiting ahead if you want me to rock on.

i am still looking for a english native speaker to beta read my stuff. i know i am bad with all those grammar and bla. words. yes. vocabulary, thats what you call it. i hope you have fun, though. let me know 3