A/N: Hey folks! Okay, so this is the first fanfic I have ever written in my whole life and I know its bad. So please bear with me because this is only the prologue to a 3 part POV that I have planned, or in the process of planning… ^ ^; So don't kill me if it takes a little while to get them out to all of you. Oh and the Digimon aren't in this fic, or the other three... Sorry. Hope you'll like it! Now that's all taken care of, on we go…
Will It Ever Be?
I swear that I have just broken a record. I had walked an entire day without letting so much as a word of protest slip through my lips. Naturally, my feet hurt like crazy, and the humid air stuck my loose hair to my face but that only made me more determined to stay quiet.
Unfortunately, I had lost my precious cowboy hat in a sudden sandstorm and I just wanted to break into tears. The hat was so special to me.
This hat held a memory that I had treasured for years. It was the only object that held hope for something that'll never be. And just like that, it was gone. Slipped right through my fingers. Just like him… But even though unshed tears glistened in my eyes, I didn't let so much as a whimper get out.
Tai had announced that we should set up camp as the first stars made its presence know. It sparkled dimly as if they could be extinguished any second. That's how I felt. But despite that I had to put up a cheery front.
Good ol' Mimi. The girl who was obsessed about shopping and anything in the colour pink. The girl who whines every 10 minutes with complaints of how much her feet hurt or how sweaty she was.
But that wasn't the real me at all. Nobody knows the real me at all. Everyone only knows the façade I put up. Even he doesn't know the real me. He never will either. After all, he just thinks that I am an annoying ditz.
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Presently, we were sitting around a campfire that Izzy had built. I was plenty surprised that Izzy took time from his research about this other dimension that Gennai told us about yesterday, to actually start a fire and cook us quite a delicious meal of fried fish and stir fried fruits. Even Izzy wanted a break from all of this and I couldn't blame him one bit.
He must feel so pressured, being the group genius and computer expert. Being the one to issue forth information in a heart beat. I admired Izzy for that. His ability to not let anything bother him and hold him back. If I were him, I would have cracked under the pressure in a week. A bitter laugh echoed inside me at the last thought and I shuddered slightly.
'Change has even me in its firm grasp,' I thought regretfully.
I blew an unruly strand of my hair in an irritated fashion and let out a silent sigh, which a pleasant breeze blew away carelessly, unaware of the utter unhappiness of its source.
The fire crackled as it fed on the twigs and branches that Joe, along with the munchkins of the group, TK and Kari had collected earlier. Now, Matt absent-mindedly fed the fire more spare branches and twigs, until it could have almost been a bonfire. Before it blazed up any further, I heard Tai laugh and I raised my head. I saw the other DigiDestined looking up, rather curious and interested.
"Yeesh Matt. Don't you think the fire already has enough wood? Oh are you just planning to set the whole forest on fire? You do know that your precious hair will be charred into crisps, if you go any closer."
"Huh?" Matt questioned, startled by Tai's comment. As he turned towards the fire, he realized he was an inch away from the brilliant flames. With that realization, he jumped up rather clumsily and tripped over a hidden rock. With a dull thump, he landed, and he awkwardly lay sprawled on the ground.
" Are you okay, Matt?" TK asked worriedly, as he rushed to his brother's side.
"I guess so," Matt murmured, a bit startled.
He stood up a bit shakily and rubbed his head, "Though I would have been better if this little incident hadn't happened," he added a little ruefully.
"Tripping and clumsiness is in Joe's department and even Joe hasn't done that in days," Tai said jokingly.
"Yeah, even I didn't…Hey!" Joe called out indignantly.
" Just kidding Joe. Lighten up!" Tai replied, laughing hard.
"Boys," Sora muttered, shaking her head disapprovingly.
Even I couldn't help but let out a slight giggle. Soon after everyone joined, laughing until there was tears streaming down their cheeks. Everybody was glad to have relief from the tension that had surrounded us eight today.
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An hour later everyone was fast asleep in various spots around the campfire, excluding Tai. He was sitting on a convenient tree stump and lazily poking the fire with a nearby stick. Willing to stay awake, he blinked back sleepily and tried to muffle up a yawn. He had the first shift to stay on guard, and it would be at least two hours until Sora relieved him.
And what was I doing? Well I was innocently sleeping with the others. Oh that's what Tai thought at least. In reality, I was wide-awake, and as much as I tried to force myself to go to sleep, sleep wouldn't come. Scenes from the day bombarded me with intensity that I thought my mind wasn't even capable of doing.
'Great. Even "Slumber Land" holds a grudge against me. Does everyone and everything on this crummy universe just want to torture me?' I muttered angrily to myself.
Against my will, I opened my eyes a crack and my eyes wandered over to Tai. Sparks that leapt from the fire illuminated his face as he gazed into the blazing fire, with a particular look in his deep, chocolate brown eyes.
I studied his features closer, determined to figure out the hidden meaning behind those eyes of his. To me, it almost seemed one of confusion and pain.
'I wonder what's bothering him,' I thought worriedly as I gazed at him longer than was intended. As the fact made itself known in my mind, I closed my eyes quickly in embarrassment… and lost hope.
'No use crying over something that'll never be,' I thought sadly, choking back a sob and turned away from the fire… and him.
'No use crying over something that never had a chance.'
To be Continued...