Sad ramblings.
Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious.
It's not that I hate you.
If only I could hate you.
It's just that when I see you every fibre of my being starts to shiver and repulse.
Because when I see you the only thing I feel is hurt.
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Since you left everything feels out of control.
So in my own twisted way I'm demolishing everything I ever loved.
My friendships, my passions, my favourite things.
Just so I'm not the only thing around here that's broken.
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I'm waiting to feel better.
I'm trying to move on.
And people keep telling me that time will heal this feeling
But time isn't passing fast enough
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And I wish I knew when I became so dependent on you.
Because I'd take that day back in a heartbeat.
I'd never let someone that close again.
I'd never let you in
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So do whatever you want.
Kiss whoever you fucking want.
You couldn't break me anymore than you already have.
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I hate a lot of things in life but above all I hate that you still have a hold on me.
I hate that I still have to catch my breath when you walk into the room.
I hate that I still have butterflies.
I hate that it takes all of my strength not to break down when I see you flirting with Tori.
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It's not that I hate you
It's that I wish I could hate you.
But I only hate me when I'm near you.
I feel sick when I'm near you.
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I used to think you loved me.
I know now that you lied.
x x x