Dear mom.
Hey folks! I have realised that I have weird obessions with letters ;) and after watching Glee I wanted to read a letter from Kurt to his (dead) mom describing his life but I couldn't find any so I thought I would write one. Hope you will all like it. I do not own anything.
Dear mom,
It's nearly been ten years since you've gone away and not a single day passes by without me missing you. I would have given anything to see you again, to watch you help me dress up and to watch you tear up as you see me on my wedding day. Before Blaine's suprise dad talked to me about your relationship. He told me you that you met him when you were 22 and that you got married only six months after. All that talk really helped me mom. But I wished you were there along with him. Dad keeps saying that I am strong like you, but sometimes I wonder if I really am. There were many times when I wished I was with you up there. Sometimes I lie down in your old dresser just to breath in your smell, to feel your comfort. Without dad I wouldn't have been able to go through it all. He was the only link that kept me attached to the real world. I often saw him cry and break his own heart and I could do nothing but watch as he tried to reassemble his life. He still keeps your brush on the holder by the sink. Even after so many years he is not over you. He calls you 'the love of his life' even after Caroline. She is an amzing person and remindes me of you. I am sure you would've loved her.
Life was hard when I found out I was gay sometimes all I wanted to do was lie down close my eyes and never open them again but I lived through each day with the help of my friends. They supported me in every decision that I took and were always there for me. They are my second family. Last Christmas dad came to New York as a suprise to me and Rachel along with some gifts and the christmas tree, he talked about the first christmas after you were gone of how he forgot to buy a tree until he saw me hang the ornaments on the window shade and how I smiled for the first time when he came home with a Christmas tree.
I've spent far too long pretending you are alive mom, now I've come to accept the truth. The truth about life about how the world turns and we turn with it but I know that you will be smiling down on me and guiding me in every way possible. I felt my life was over when I saw you being lowered into the ground instead it taught me that every journey comes to an end. Life is a journey too and I need to accept that it will end one way or another. I am going to live through each day with a hope that the next day is going to be better and I am sure I can do it now that I found love, life seems easier. This year I am going to start fresh and live a life I will always remember.
I miss you mom. Thank you for all that you've done. Merry Christmas and a happy new year.
Love,
Kurt.
" It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big things, but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of prayers to get me through
And there is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed " -Backstreer Boys (The Perfect Fan)
I would like to dedicated this to my human sized skinny teddy bear, Pheonix who introduced Glee to me.
Anyway please review. :)