Shooting Star

Chapter 1: What the hell did I do?

How could she do this to me? How could she kiss Puck? She suppose to love me. She isn't suppose to kiss anybody but me. She isn't suppose to make me feel this way. She suppose to love me and not kiss Puck. I hate her. But I don't I love her. How can I still love her after what she did to me? She is just as bad as Quinn. Sure Quinn slept with Puck then lied about it but Rachel isn't suppose to be like Quinn. Rachel is suppose to be my Rachel. She isn't suppose to kiss other people. I am so mad at her. How can she do this to me? I can't take my eyes off of her because I still love her.

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She walks right down the hall. She doesn't even look at me. She suppose to begging for me to forgive her but she isn't. She suppose to want me back but she doesn't. She doesn't even look at me during Glee. She doesn't even turn to pass back the papers in Spanish. Its like I never matter to her. I probably never did she would go and kiss Puck. I need to stop hurting over her. I need to stop thinking about her. I need to move on. I can't move on when I still want to be with her. Why do I want to be with her? I hate her.

Its at Santana's New Years party when I see her and Puck standing in a corner talking. She is laughing loudly at whatever he said. It it hurts so bad to know that he is making her laugh like I use to. I don't see how she even ended up at this party. She should be home alone crying her eyes out about what she did to me. But she's not. She's her laughing with Puck and acting like her and Santana are best friends. Which doesn't make sense because they should hate each other. But I notice ever since we broke up she and Santana have been like best friends. I hate it because this is all Santana's fault she told Rachel and then Rachel went to Puck. Then I left her standing in a hall way crying. Its five minutes to the countdown when I see her walk out the back door to Santana's back porch. I can't stop myself from following her. I have to make sure she doesn't kiss Puck at midnight. I slide the door open and walk out. She is looking at stars with her hands resting on the railing. When I slide the door close she looks down then back up at the sky. I walk up behind her so close that I can smell her perfume. Vanilla. She always smells like vanilla. But her hair always smells like strawberries. I know she knows I am there because she won't turn around. She freezes when I put my hand on her shoulder. She looks back at the ground. She turns and gives me a small smile.

"Hi Finn." Two words. The first two words since You said you never break up with me. That day in the hall when she said that to me killed me.

"Hey Rach having fun tonight?" She starts to play with her necklace. I never saw it before so it must be new.

"Yeah San really knows how to throw a party." I nod and she still plays with her necklace in between her fingers.

"Yeah its a good party but I couldn't help but notice you and Puck talking a lot are you guys together?" She lets go of her necklace and looks over my shoulder back to the party.

"Um its getting cold out her and its almost midnight so I should go back inside. Bye Finn." She tries to walk by me but I grab her arm and pull her back.

"So who are you gonna kiss at midnight Rach? Is it gonna be Puck since you don't mind kissing him." She tries to pull her arm away but I don't let go. I just hold tighter. "Even when you do have a boyfriend." I let my anger get the best on me. I see the hurtful look on her face.

"Finn can you let go of my arm?"

"No."

"Finn I just wanna go back inside."

"No."

"Finn what do you want?"

"I wanna know why I wasn't good enough?"

"I didn't mean to hurt you."

The chants inside the house get loud.

"Five!"

"I loved you Rach."

"Four!"

"I don't know what you want from me."

"Three!"

"I want you to hurt like I am."

"Two!"

"I..."

"One! Happy New Year!"

Before I can stop myself I crash my lips on hers. I forget everything that happened and I just think of how I love her. That is until she pushes me away.

"Finn stop."

"No Rach I want you." I lean down to kiss her again my she turns her face away and I end up kissing her cheek. "What wrong do you not love me?" I see a tear roll down her cheek.

"I..."

"What do you love him? I bet you do don't you. Thats why you kissed him isn't it."

"Finn stop."

"I can't believe I am still in love with someone who doesn't even care about me anymore."

"Finn I care about you. I hurt you and I will never forgive myself for that. I just go through anymore pain with you. I can't let my heart get broken by you again. I...you shouldn't either Finn." With that she walked back into the party.

I walk to were she was once standing and look up at the sky and I see a shooting star.

"I wish I never broke Rachel Berry's heart."