Disclaimer: I don't have proof that Phan is a thing
(..but that doesn't stop me from hoping it is :D)
have fun reading 3
Trigger warning: none

"At least I didn't drop out of university!"

As soon as I said that, I wanted to take it back. The hurt and disappointed look in Dan's face was breaking my heart.

He walked away without turning around again, and only seconds later I heard the door of his room slam shut. With a sight I sat down on the sofa.

I knew that I had gone too far, but I had just been so angry. Dan and I had been fighting about something really unnecessary and he was acting so childish, which in turn made me even angrier.

Still, mentioning his unsuccessful law study was inexcusable. I remembered vividly how stressed Dan had been because of this, and how hard it had been for him to accept the fact that he had to quit college. His existential crises were something one shouldn't take lightly.

And I didn't, to be honest. I was extremely worried whenever he was having one. The two of us fighting didn't exactly help, either. With a sight I got up from the couch and walked over to his room to apologize to him.

"Dan?"

No answer.

"Dan, I know you're in there. Please, can I come in?"

"Yeah, whatever."

He sounded as if he was crying. Alerted, I opened the door and stepped inside. And I had been right. Dan was sitting on his bed, knees pulled up to his face, hugging his legs. Tears were streaming down his face. When he saw me, he tried to wipe them away angrily.

"Dan, I... I'm sorry. Look, I shouldn't have said that. This was unacceptable from me."

"Unacceptable", he murmured, half-heartedly imitating Lemongrab from Adventure Time.

But it didn't convince me. Dan was still angry. So I sat on the bed next to him and put my hands on his shoulders, turning him towards me.

"Listen to me, okay? I'm so, so sorry. It was stupid and really immature to even mention it. Who cares if you graduated or not? You have millions of fans who love you. And so do I. Please don't be mad at me anymore."

I looked at Dan with puppy eyes, and eventually, his face lit up a bit. His pretty brown eyes found mine and he pressed our lips together lightly.

"I'm not mad. I was just...down. It hurt when you said that. But it's okay. I'm okay now."

"Good", I whispered.

When I looked into his eyes I knew he was telling the truth. But I swore to myself to never hurt him like this again. I loved Dan more than I could even say, and I never, ever wanted to lose him.

"Can we just stay here and cuddle for the rest of the day until we fall asleep?"

"Of course we can, Dan. I'm going to make us tea, okay?"