Pick up the Pieces of My Broken Heart

Post new moon Bella is 21 years old and thinking of the past…(she hasn't been changed yet because she agreed to go to college first. Bare with me I know it

Bpov

Song second opening to bleach Theme song an Helena by MCR and Iris Goo Goo dolls

Past

The sickness overwhelmed me and all of a sudden I couldn't breath. At home alone I nearly gasped in each breath I was trapped in my room without the phone, which I had left to charge on the receiver. I crawled through the door and down the steps. Every sickening motion was agonizing and cruel. My body trembled from the effort my heart slowed. Every heartbeat was a pain. After all Victoria had tried to cut it out of me but apparently her power was to receive memories by touch and the memories of her wretched James were a pain.
The door slammed open Emmett bulky frame strode through the doorframe and he picked me up and cradled me in his arms. The vampire attack had sent him railing. He shook and if he were capable of tears they would reveal how he felt. He couldn't take me to the hospital. Yet Carlisle wasn't in reach. In a last ditch effort he whipped out his cell phone and dialed Carlisle's phone number at such a speed that my eyes only saw blur.

If I thought I knew pain I didn't. Edward was away so was Charlie. So were all the Cullens except one Emmett. The phone was finally in my hands after what seemed like an eternity. I had the Cullens on speed dial. Moment's pass and the phone rang and rang. Just when I was about to lose all hope Emmett's voice sounded through the phone line and I had never felt more joyful in my life. I whispered what I thought would be my last words "Emmett I'm dying Victoria was here save me" Then the dark took me.

When I woke up in the morgue and a light figure hovered above me I gasped. The electric blue eyes stared straight into mine. A deep voice penetrated the silence that was laced in tension. " You are special to us Isabella. The Cullens have left. You were dead for about a day in fact you kind of still are." I looked down then my body still lay upon the cold unwelcoming slab of metal. I stared for what seemed like an eternity. Refusing to believe the proof that lay in front of me. His thick booming voice shoot through the room. "You are special to me so I'm offering a unique chance. I'm your guardian angel. I have the power to turn you into an angel that can reside on earth. But you have to decide quickly. Your body is being released to Charlie."

This was all so oxygen consuming to take in. (excuse the pun.) I stared unseeing through the wall then I turned to the body that had contained my soul/spirit. I had made my decision so I turned to the heavenly figure before me. " So what is the catch?"

Present day

I "woke up" to find a hazy brilliant light blocking my view of the figure before me. She sang a sallow song but her voice was so elegant and luscious like wind chimes and feathers so soft. The beautiful voice stopped so suddenly that an eerie silence replaced it. The wind howled outside whipping the tree branches to and fro. This sounded like the clip clap of wet flip-flops on a hot dry sidewalk. The moonlight shone through my bedroom window and the figure disappeared this only meant one thing! Duty calls (You would think they would do this at a decent hour.) so I teleported up to the big guy.

"Trix" I screeched unpleasantly. Still grouchy from being interrupted. Trix just glared at me finally her face softened.

"Isabella you look absolutely stunning and happy at the fact that you had to drag yourself up here." She put a hand to her fore head mockingly. Now it was my turn to send daggers her way. She just chuckled "Oh I'm shaking in my boots."(She's barefoot)

This lightened my mood somewhat. Trix was a funny angel to be around she was like the angel of death plus she had been human once. She had jet-black hair a tattoo on her tailbone and her shoulder (ALL ANGELS HAVE THIS IT IS CALLED THE MARK AND IT APPEARS WHEN THE ANGEL IS IN BATTLE) and deep brown eyes identical to mine. If not for the hair and common sense anyone could have sworn we were twins. She had died during world war two because she was polish. Life and the after life had not dwindled her spunk and her humor. She didn't think about of her past and neither did I when I could avoid it anyways.

I lived in la push Jacob was the only person who knew besides the pack I couldn't let any human eyes lay upon me when I transformed but if they did they would immediately forget. I couldn't see Charlie or mom. They had attended my funeral. My body was damaged but when I became an angel and went through the long painful transformation. (About a month.) Every day I had regrets about my human life but I never thought of him or any of the family. Pain consumed me. I had watched Charlie from within the cloak of the woods. The shadows hid me well plus some of my powers helped. Even if he had caught sight of me the spell would have wiped his memory of me.

His eyes held no light. He didn't laugh. He went from work to home and he hardly ate. Billy and friends from the office called but Charlie didn't answer the phone. He mumbled to himself and he talked to himself blaming himself and Edward for what had happened. He had almost killed the drunk driver who had run the red light. He almost lost his job. I couldn't bare it so I went to La push seeking the comfort of Jacob my best friend. I told him everything except the part about the Impasse. He couldn't believe it just as I couldn't believe it at first. I never thought of Charlie from that point on. My heart had shattered into a billion pieces. I was a shadow of my former self.

A booming voice broke through my reverie. " Isabella how thoughtful of you to join us and right on time to." Tristin taps his foot. I'm always late. He was the one who saved me and I thanked him usually. He had fallen in love with me. I thought of him as potential boyfriend but more pressing matters were at hand. I could still do most of the things I did when I was human my never failing faith that vampires had souls didn't waver.

"So what is wrong with the big bad world today? I asked bluntly. He looked like he didn't want to say. Just as I was about to force it out of him he spoke " It's that vegetarian vampire family." Now this certainly made me turn serious and he just stretched the silence longer. Unlike Trix, Paige, and me he had never been human but he sure could act like it. He was a guardian as well as one of the many angels who made sure their charges crossed over.

Suddenly I couldn't take it anymore. "What about that vegetarian vampire family" I asked exasperated.

He just starred at me. That's when I broke down. I teleported to Jacob's not even thinking. Billy wasn't an exception to the spell although he knew about the mystical world or things considered to mystical he was still only human so was Emily. As far as they knew I was six feet under. Jacob sat in his room. Apparently Billy had gone to drag Charlie out for a fishing trip. I cringed.

Jacob looked surprised and tired. He hated the fact that I wasn't human anymore. He hated the fact I could sneak up on him. He still thought about me with love and lust and it didn't bother me often. He started rambling on about how I shouldn't pop in like that but we knew I couldn't just use the front door. In midsentence he suddenly stopped finally noticing my face which usually revealed nothing now revealed I was angry and close to tears.

Jacob got up and hugged me tight his arms providing security and calm which is what I was in desperate need of. Then a loud crack resounded through out the house. Tristin was behind me in a heartbeat. I whirled on him angry once more. Jacob who didn't appreciate the way Tristin felt towards me still appreciated him for saving me partially was silent.

He grabbed my face in his hands and looked into my eyes, which dazzled me all the same. " Listen to me. Isabella Marie Swann If you don't want to be stripped of your powers you will listen." I looked into his eyes and sighed in a great big huff.

Tristin's booming voice was like feathers once more and I relaxed. " They are here because they believe what the rest of the world believes you are dead." I just starred at him. Millions of thoughts raced through my mind. Choices, decisions could make or break what happened to you in the future.

The sun was setting behind his shoulder twilight my time of choice. Not day but not night in way either. It was a time where my decision could affect the human race. I just knew Edward could snap and do something really stupid.

My eyes turn red at the gnawing pain within me. " I'm going. I cock my head Jacob no need to worry. Tristin just let me do this alone." I whispered because I needed to. I am a shadow and it is about time I've come to terms with reality. Then without warning I teleported.

Upon my grave was inscribed here lies Isabella Marie Swan. Taken from this life so suddenly ripped from the world at such a young age. She was a kindhearted friend. She was a loving daughter. She was truly an angel who walked on earth. Looking upon your own grave gives you the creepiest of feelings like you are out of your body but in it at the same time. It was like watching a play and being on stage at the same time as the doomed lead character.

The rain poured down on me, as the shadows of night grew longer. In the distance I heard the car coming down the road. Patiently I waited with the disguise of the forest shielding me at best.

Then I heard car doors slam with the force of a hurricane. They were here.