My name is Isabella McCarty-Swan. I am happily married to Emmett McCarty, we've been together for eight years but we've only been married for two years. Emmett is an Army Soldier since he was 18. As you can see, I am an army wife and it is very difficult. Every time he leaves it kills me more than the last leave. He tells me he will always come back to me, but I can't help and worry. Every time I see him come back, at the airport, waiting for me to pick him up, I always let out a breath I didnt know I was holding. I always feel lonely when he leaves, yea we have a dog but it's just not the same, well until now. I found out today that I will have something of him when he leaves. All I have to do is tell him before he leaves in a week.
Monday:
"Baby do you know where I left my shirt?" Emmett yelled from the bedroom. I was too into my thoughts that I didn't pay attention to him, all I could think about was that we were going to be parents. We have been married for two years but we haven't really talked about having a baby but I'm actually glad we are. All I'm worrying about is how was I going to tell him.
"Baby are you okay?" He asked sounding worried.
"Uh yea I'm fine." I answered, coming out of my thoughts.
"Baby if this is about me leaving in a week, don't worry about it like I always say, I'll be back. I will always come back to you." He said kissing me.
"Yeah I know sweetheart."I said touching his face. "It just sucks you know?"
"I know but we still have seven days left, how about you and me take it over there." He pointed towards the bedroom.
"Hmm no I can't, I have to go do some things." I said.
"What? What in the world could be more important than sleeping your man!" he said. Our baby I thought but I just laughed at the expression on his face, it was priceless.
"Oh what we do is far from sleeping but I want to spend time with you out of the bedroom."
"Well in the bedroom you can spend time with me as well." He said wiggling his eyebrows. I sighed starting to get serious.
"You know what I mean Emmett." He sighed too. " Yeah I know and I get you, I want to spend time with you too, man I'm gone for too long, but we'll do what you want to do, I really don't want to argue with you, I want to make the best of these few more days left."
"Thanks baby." I said giving him a kiss.
"But we are gonna have sex this week right?" He said worried.
"Of course, after all I still want to "sleep" my man." I said air quoting his words and laughing.
"Mmmmm you better cause a man being away for a long time from his women really gets him sexually frustrated."
"Yeah I think I know." I said remembering past experiences and the last time which was two months ago when he came back.
"Thinking about it aren't you?" he said laughing.
"No!" I lied. "Well I got to go, I'll see you."
"Wait! Where are you going?" He asked.
"I'm sorry I can't tell you."
"You're cheating on me aren't you? Oh I knew me being away would come to this." He said and he actually sounded serious.
"WHAT? NO! Of course not...I love you baby from the day I met you; you have completely ruined all men for me. I couldn't even think of cheating, I'm not like that." I explained.
"I know baby. It's just that I'm paranoid I guess I mean I am away for long periods of time, I would understand if you did cheat." He said sadly.
"Emmett, look at me, I accepted you knowing you were in the army, I married you knowing you would be leaving every so often, I accepted you for what you are, yes I get lonely but it's okay cause I know you will come back." I said tears filling my eyes.
"I know baby and I'm very grateful I met you." He said.
"How about we talk about this later, I have to go, and I'll be back in about an hour, okay?"
"Okay baby, I love you." He said.
"I love you too, Bye" I said giving him a kiss and out the door before he said anything else.
I hate keeping secrets from him but this is one I can't tell him but show him instead. That's why I'm going to the mall to go buy some baby clothes and a shirt for him. It'll be his going away present.
Maybe I'll tell him tomorrow.
When I got to the mall, I went to find the baby store. The worker asked if I needed help and I said yes that I was looking for an "Number one dad" shirt. After minutes of looking, she found it. I didn't think it would be here but it was and also his exact size. I bought a blue and pink gift paper, the shirt and a green newborn shirt. Then I was on my way home but not before stopping to get a new pregnancy test since I threw the one I found out on away. I just hoped he wasn't there and he actually wasn't. He left a note on the door saying he went to visit Edward. Good thing because I wanted to wrap the clothing and take the test. Once I took it and it indeed said pregnant, I wrapped it along with the clothes and found a good hiding place for it. After I went to the living room. I decided to sit and watch some TV. I was flipping through the channels when something caught my eye. It was a show about bringing the baby home. It's a show about how the parents get ready for the baby, the part when she goes into labor, when they bring the baby home and how they live with him there.
While watching this show I couldn't help but put my hand on my stomach lovingly. I wonder how along I am. Emmett's been home for a month and a half, no wait he's been home for two months. Then I'm guessing I got pregnant when he got here, meaning I'm a month pregnant. Hmm I think I should make an appointment for Thursday. I should call before he gets here. I went to the bedroom and got my gynecologist's card and dialed her number
"Hello,Doctor Masen speaking how can I help you?"
"Hi, it's Bella I would like to schedule an appointment with you."
"Oh hi Bella lets see, when would you like the appointment?"
"I was thinking maybe Thursday at 2pm if that's good?"
"Yes that is good Bella and can I ask what the visit is for?"
"Sure thing, I just found out I'm pregnant and I want to confirm how far along I am."
"Oh thats such great news Bella. I'll see you Thursday at 2pm."
" Thank you see you soon. bye." I said and hung up. Well this means I have to tell Emmett tomorrow.
"Baby, Bella are you home?" I heard Emmett yell.
"Yes I'm up in the bedroom" I responded. I heard the door close and Emmett coming upstairs.
"How long have you been home?" I heard Emmett ask as he entered the room.
"Not long, twenty minutes I think." I said standing up from where I was sitting and went to him. He came to me too and hugged me.
"Why didn't you call me? You know I don't like it when you're alone in this house."
"Really Emmett?" I asked. "I'm always alone in this house well except for the dog but I wanted you to spend time with Edward before you leave for like five months."
"That's true but you're my wife and I want to spend more time with you instead." He said.
"But Emmett you never know if you'll come back, you need family time." I said.
"Bella please don't start, I know I'm not going to die, I know I can survive this, I've been doing it since I was eighteen, I'm 26 now I've been in the army for 8 years, I have only gotten hurt twice, but they were minor injuries…." I interrupted him and pulled away.
"Yeah minor injuries Emmett, they could have been worst."
"Bella,I was only 19 when my first injury happen then at 20 I had my other one. I was young and didnt know crap." He argued. "I'm not going to die, I'm not...I know how to protect myself."
I didn't even know what else to say so all I did was break down crying and falling to my knees. Damn hormones I'm so dramatic lately. I'm not even that far along into my pregnancy and I already have bad hormones. I thought.
"Baby, please don't cry." He said falling to his knees in front of me.
"I can't help it, I hate that you leave and that you're gone for months, I'm always worried something might have happened to you. I get letters from you every so often but it's not the same as having you here with me." I sobbed.
"Baby, baby look at me." He said pulling my head up. "I know how hurtful this is, it kills me too I never stop thinking of you, you're always on my mind sweetie." He said. "I'm going to talk to my recruiter."(A.n I don't know anything about the army so idk if this is what they are called) "About what?" I said hoping he wasn't going to say what I think he's going to say.
"About leaving the army, I've served for 8 years, I've done enough." No I can't let him get out of the army because of me; it's been in his family since his great-grandfather.
"No Emmett you can't get out, you just can't."
"Bella, I've been thinking about it for a while. I think it's time, my dad only served for 7 years, my grandfather for 10 years and then my great-grandfather for 12 years, we all didn't serve a long time except for my great-grandfather. My father served 7 and I have served 8 I think it's time. Bella we've been married for 2 years and I was only here to celebrate the second anniversary. I missed our first anniversary, baby, the first, the most important and all because of that stupid war. It's been 2 years, I want a family now, I've wanted one since we started dating but I kept my mouth shut since I knew it was way too soon but now 2 years into our marriage, I want a family with kids, my own kids. I know you're my family now but I want a baby involved." He explained.
Oh Emmett if only you knew that was already coming true. I have made my decision; Emmett will know tomorrow he's going to become a daddy.