This is the first story I've ever written. I'm sorry if there are mistakes in it, I'm still in high school and I'm from Holland

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Chapter 1

Kate Beckett was finishing the paperwork from their latest case.

Castle had decided to stay at the loft today, to do some writing. He had said they didn't need him for this one; it was quite an easy case. His book wasn't exactly close to finished, and he needed to make the deadline.

Castle.

When he had said he wouldn't come in today, Kate couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed.

"Kate, I love you... I love you Kate."

It just kept going through her mind. She never said something back. Hell, she didn't even tell him she remembered. And she wondered more often if she should.

When the bomb exploded that day in the bank, she really thought she had lost him, and the thought that he wouldn't know how she felt, had nearly torn her apart.

She needed him to know, but once she would have said it, it was out. She wouldn't be able to back down then. And if she was honest with herself, she wouldn't mind. This was what she wanted. She knew.

She wanted him to know. Needed him to know.

But it was just so damn hard. She wasn't exactly the type of person to open up. But she would, for him.

She decided she would just start with grabbing some coffee with him.

So she called him. Voicemail. Shoot. Of course, he was probably so absorbed in writing he didn't even hear his phone.

She just grabbed her stuff and a few minutes later, she was in her car, on her way to the loft.

She rode the elevator up to his loft. The elevator dinged and she stepped out. She noticed his door was ajar.

Crap, she didn't have a good feeling about this. When she got closer, she heard a noise. She immediately drew her gun and ran towards the door.

"Castle?"

When she had almost reached the door, it flew open and a guy ran out. Her gut clenched and she ran inside.

"Castle?"

"Rick? Come on, answer me!"

That's when she saw him. She nearly broke down. There he was, lying on the floor. There was a big knife beside him and blood was pooling out the wound. She ran towards him and quickly checked his pulse. Weak, but it was there. She sighed in relieve and then called 911.

"Castle, can you hear me?" She had to fight so hard to keep back her tears, but she wasn't going to cry. She needed to stay strong for him.

He slightly nodded. She put her hand on the wound. "You're gonna be okay, do you hear me? You're gonna be okay. Just stay with me."

She heard the sirens. His eyes started to close.

"No Castle… Rick, please, come on, don't do this to me. Don't leave me, please." She started to cry. "This is not happening, this is NOT happening" she thought. She wasn't going to lose him.

Then the paramedics came in.

"Step aside please, ma'am".

"I want to ride with him."

"I'm sorry, but that's not possible."

The one of the other paramedics came and asked: "Aren't you the cop who got shot at the funeral?"

She nodded.

"Well, if she has the same effect on him as he had on her, she might keep him with us just long enough to get him to the hospital" he said to the other guy. He nodded. "Fine."

She got in the back of the ambulance with him and held his hand. He was barely conscious. "Come on Rick, stay with me, okay? Just stay with me 'til we're there."

When they arrived at the hospital, she ran along as long as she could, until one of the paramedics stopped her.

"Sorry, but we need to take him in surgery. You can wait outside." And he ran into the OR.

She sank to her knees and broke down in sobs.

I hope you liked it! Please review, I'd like to know what you think about it.

I'll try to finish the next chapter a.s.a.p.

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