Okay so i hope you all like it, i just had some spare time and was listening to music and when i heard this song i got inspired so here it is, the completely over-done Dimitri left Rose for Tasha. I highly recommend listening to the song as you read because it means so much more if you hear it instead of read it. The song is "you lost me" by Christina Aguilera. Oh and since Dimitri took Tasha's offer for some reason Mason stayed alive, not really sure of the reason but he did.

I couldn't believe it, he left, he actually left. He never even told me goodbye, all I got was a typed letter under my door formally saying that Dimitri was no longer going to be my mentor. The only way I knew that it was from him and not Alberta was that it said dear Roza.

It had been a month since we left the ski lodge and Lissa, Eddie, and Mason took turns coming to my room and trying to comfort me. I told all of them about me and Dimtri after he left so that they would know why I was so distraught. Mason finally understood why I couldn't be with him and we seemed even closer because of it, he was now the best friend I had next to Lissa. And of course once I told Lissa she told Christian, so now he knew too, and he was also an important part of my healing process due to the fact that he was where I put all of my anger, verbally anyway, and he knew not to take it personally, plus he could give it as good as he could take it. But they weren't the only ones who knew about mine and Dimitri's relationship. The incredibly annoying Adrian Ivashkov knew about it as well, and he followed us back from the ski lodge for some unknown reason, but once you got past all of the drinking and smoking and snarky comments he was a pretty decent guy and never failed to get me to laugh, even when I was on the verge of tears.

I had been going to my classes, and that was it, I woke up, kicked the shit out of a punching bag in the gym, went to class and then went back to my room. I couldn't even run laps because my mind would always go to Dimitri. But it had been a month, and even though I was no where near getting over Dimitri I was getting better at my mask that I now almost always kept firmly in place saying that I was still the same Rose only better. But it was just that, a mask, because inside I was dying, my heart had shattered into a million pieces and the only one who could fix it was the one who broke it and I knew that was never going to happen.

It was just nearing curfew when I heard a knock at the door. I got up off of my bed and slowly walked over to the door. I opened it and saw Lissa's smiling face, I couldn't help but smile back.
"There it is!" she came in the room and I turned to look at her.
"There what is?" she looked at me like I was an idiot
"That smile! The one that makes every man on the planet want you even before you talk."
"Especially before you talk." Christian said walking in behind Lissa through the still open door. I groaned
"Lissa, couldn't you leave the dog at home this time?"
"No, he wanted to come." she told me.
"Just make sure you keep him on a short leash, I don't want him peeing on the carpet." Christian shot me a death glare and I smiled again. Only when my friends were here was I able to somewhat forget about Dimitri, but it was all of the other hours of the day and night that I just couldn't help but think about him.
"You know I always do." she said with a smirk.
"We're going out tomorrow Rose" Lissa looked at me trying to see my reaction.
"Well I hope you guys have fun, I'll be fine." I told her.
"You're right you will be fine, because you're coming with us." I groaned as I looked at her to see if she was serious.
"Yes I'm serious Rose" it almost seemed like she read my thoughts but I knew she didn't because the bond only went one way. I groaned again and went and sat on my bed.

"It's this really cool karaoke bar that just opened up a couple of miles from here, I already got permission from Kirova for you, me, Christain, Eddie, Mason, and Adrian to go, so you're going, no ifs ands or buts about it, oh yeah, and you're going to sing, we all are." she looked to Christian and he smiled but when she looked away he pretended to shoot himself. I laughed and felt better that I wasn't the only one going against my will. Like I said Lissa kept him on a tight leash, and me too I guess.
"Okay fine, I'll go, on one condition, Christian has to sing single ladies." I smirked.
"Done, Lissa jumped up from the bed and we shook on it, then she gave me a hug. Over her shoulder I stuck my tongue out at Christian and he did the same.
"I'm so glad your coming Rose. You really need to get out if this dorm." they both walked out of my room and back to the moroi dorms and it was after curfew, but if they ran into anyone I had no doubt Lissa would just compel them, that he'd been the routine since I had gone on my downward spiral due to the Russian.

I went to bed soon after and couldn't help but dream about Him. I had vowed not to call him by his name because I thought it gave him more respect than he deserved.

I woke up the next morning and did my regular routine, but since it was Saturday, and we were going to the bar, after my shower I went over to Lissa's dorm. I made sure my mask was firmly in place before i opened the door. Everyone was already there when I got there, even the guardians that were going to go with us, and the looks I got were priceless.

I was wearing a short Jean miniskirt, a lacey red tank-top and black stilettos.
"Where do you hide your stake in that out fit Rose?" Mason asked me, and he was the only guy there not giving me googly eyes.
"Wouldn't you like to know." I walked over to him and he put his arm around my shoulders and Eddie did the same on the other side.
"Well are we ready to go or not?" I asked, and the guardians seemed to snap out of there daze and started to head for the door.

We got there in under half an hour and were seated at a table ordering food. There were people up already singing Karaoke and none of them were as good as I was going to be, of that I knew. Adrian was the first brave soul out of our group to go, although I don't think it was bravery, as much as him just being drunk. He sang I'm yours by Jason Maraz the whole time looking at this poor girl in the front row who looked like she was about to faint.

I was looking around and when I looked in the back corner my heart sunk down to my toes. The Russian was sitting in the back corner with Tasha. I really didn't have anything against Tasha, she just offered him the job, but He accepted it. I wanted to run out of the bar, hell I wanted to run the whole way to the academy, I just wanted to get as far away from him as possible. But before I could move Lissa was pushing me on stage. I could tell she hadn't notice Him yet, or else she wouldn't have made me go up there, but I was too shocked to do anything but get on stage.

I walked over to the DJ making a split second decision to change my song, originally I was going to do girls just wanna have fun, but right now I wanted to do anything but have fun. Instead I told him to play "you lost me" by Christina Aguilera.

I walked up to the microphone and Dimitri still hadn't noticed me yet, but he was going to. The music started and I swayed back and forth, I belted the first few notes, and was pleasantly surprised to hear that my voice had that same raspy tone that Christina Aguilera had that made you wonder how such big notes could come out of such a small girl. Dimitri's head immediately snapped around and or eyes locked, but I continued to sing meaning every word of it. (Turn on the song now! its awesome!)

I am done, smoking gun
We've lost it all, the love is gone
She has won, now it's no fun
We've lost it all, the love is gone

And we had magic, and this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried, oh, how we cried
We lost ourselves, the love has died
And though we tried you can't deny
We're left as shells, we lost the fight

And we had magic, and this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself, oh

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry and we were sweet
But you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed, yeah
Babe, you lost me

I finished the song and then ran off of the stage, I grabbed my bag from the table and ran out the front doors, tears threatening to escape. I could feel Lissa's shock through the bond and then I felt it increase tenfold when she saw the Russian follow me outside. I cursed silently to myself and them I turned around to face him.

"Rose" that's all he said and that all it took, all of the walls that I had spent the last month putting up came crashing down. I could feel my already broken heart being thrown on the ground and grinded under the heel of the Russians shoes.
"What! What could you possibly want Dimitri?" I cried. "Did you come here to break my hear again, because let me tell you, that's not possible, it's shattered into so may pieces that there is no way you can hurt me any more then you already did." Complete shock came over his features before he put his guardian mask up.
"NO!" I screamed "Don't you dare do that to me, you aren't allowed to put your guardian mask on, maybe around everyone else but not around me, you owe me that much." I took a step towards him with each word i spoke. I saw shock again but this time he didn't try to hide it. Lissa came out of the bar and I looked at her
"Go back inside Lissa, I don't want you to have to see this."
"I just have to say one thing" she looked at me for permission and I just looked down at the ground. I thought she was going to tell me that this was stupid and that I should just go back inside and forget about it but when she was a couple feet away from us she turned to Dimitri.
"If I were you I would be very careful, because while you were out there doing God knows what with Tasha I was here, with Rose, picking up the pieces and trying to put back together the amazing girl that you broke, you, and you alone. And if she comes back with so much as one tear in her eyes because of you, you will wish you were never born." I had never heard Lissa talk like that before, it scared me, and it wasn't even directed at me. She looked at me and I gave her a small smile before she turned around and walked back into the restaurant. Then I turned back to Dimitri.
"What are you doing here?"I asked, my tone ice cold. He flinched a little when I said it but other than that had no reaction.
"Tasha wanted to come here, she said it had good food." he said, his voice small.
"Not here!" I yelled motioning with my hand to where wee were standing. "I mean only miles from the academy, what are you doing so close, the only reason I was able to survive the last month was because I thought that you were in an entire different state! But no, you just have to rub it in my face, the fact that you would rather have a family then be with me! What about my family Dimitri? Why don't I get to be happy!" he looked at me like I was his student and he was disappointed in me.
"YOU THINK I'M HAPPY!" He yelled. "Are you really that thick headed, Rose, leaving you was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my entire life, it broke my heart as much or more then it did yours. But I couldn't just come running back after what I did to you. I had to live with the mistake that I made, even if it was the worst mistake of my life, and all I wanted to do was run back into your arms. I couldn't stand to be away from you, and that's why I'm here, because even if I couldn't be with you I had to be near you! I had to know that you were safe." I could see tears in his eyes and the looked the same as the ones that were in mine.
"You're wrong" I said shaking my head "you could have come back, I would have taken you back with open arms and forgiven you with all my heart but instead you put me through a month of hell, and now, now I'm not sure I can forgive you Dimitri, you're going to have to live with another mistake. You should have known me better, but I guess we just weren't meant to be."
"Now you're wrong." he turned and walked away and the tears that I was holding back came falling down and when he was half way between me and the door I was able to choke out his name. He looked back at me and when I didn't do anything he turned the whole way around looking for an explanation. Instead I just ran towards him and jumped into his open arms. I looked into his eyes and saw relief wash over him, and then it was covered by overwhelming love. I crashed my lips against his and he did the same. I wrapped my legs tighter around his waist and he pushed my back up against the building.

The kiss was even better then the one the night of the lust charm, because it was all real, and all us. Our emotions were heightened but it wasn't do to a charm. I ran my hands through his hair and pulled his head closer. I just couldn't be close enough to him, I hadn't seen him in over a month and I was afraid that he would be taken away from me again. I heard the doors open and there was a gasp and then the door shut. I broke the kiss and looked over but whoever it was was gone. I looked back at Dimitri and he looked so happy he was just glowing, and no one could miss the love and affection in his eyes, and with that single look my shattered heart became whole again.

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