Pausing
at her door he rapped softly. She didn't hear him, above the music
she never did. Turning the knob he crossed the thresh-hold to find
her at her piano, just where he knew she'd be, fingers flitting
expertly across the keys. There the Doctor stood, in quiet
contemplation of her room. It had changed over time, since she first
arrived, another book case had been added and the walls were covered
in posters of paintings and various bands or solo artists. Some from
times before, others from time to come. It had her scent now, the
smell of her deodorants, something only he could smell that marked
her distinctly as human and something else that again only he could
smell that marked more specifically as Rose. It intoxicated him at
times. She had made it hers, this room, not only through decoration
but just by living in it. He could feel her here even when she was
out, as if the very atoms that constitute the walls had absorbed the
essence of her. And he knew that when it came time for her to leave
him, no companion after her would ever be aloud to enter it.
Quietly, as not to disturb, he made his way to her bed and sat. He
remembered the very fist time he'd heard her play. Passing through
her room in much the same manner as he just had he had placed himself
on the side of her bed and lost himself in her music. He had heard
the song she was playing that very day on a cd she'd bought and he
hadn't found it all that good. But, as he heard her move through the
notes as if she meant every one of them he felt that both his hearts
might implode with it's beauty. When he came back to reality he found
himself laying back against the bed where he had sat, rose laying at
his side. "I must have looked like that, I think." She had
said. "When I first heard my Nan play. She'd been diagnosed with
lung cancer about three weeks before." She smiled sadly in
thought, "When she saw how hard I had fallen for the piano she
made it her mission to teach me as much as humanly possible before
she died."
He loved listening to her play, sitting
there back towards him he loved to hear her empty her heart into the
instrument, defenses down. Sometimes, if he listened intently enough,
he thought he could see into her soul, and what he saw there was
nothing short of beauteous. Her kindness, her selflessness everything
about her. He had felt love for every one of his long term
companions, but it was always a friendship love. It was during these
peaceful respites from time, as he listened to her play, that he felt
closest to her of all and he knew with no amount of uncertainty that
he not only loved her, but was in love with her. The word 'love'
itself, in fact, seemed to fall short as far as he was concerned.
Standing, he crossed the distance to her and as he did so felt the
certainty dawn on him in both it's glory and it's promise of
loneliness for the future. He would never love anybody as much, or in
quite the same way as he loved her. His hearts grew heavy with the
need to touch her.
Approaching he saw that her eyes were
closed. He knew they would be. Tonight she was alternating between
two pieces she had once told him were by a man named Micheal Nyman.
They were from the soundtrack to a movie called 'The Piano'. It had
been an impulse buy from an audio/visual entertainment store named JB
HI-FI in Australia during a brief stop in the year 2007. 'The Heart
Asks Pleasure First' and 'The Sacrifice' quickly becoming her
favourites. She knows them by heart.
He stood, a man torn,
and watched her fingers move. He was her protector. He took her on as
a companion and in doing so made a silent promise to her mother that
he would protect her. Not just from death, but from some thing else.
As strange as it may sound he was also supposed to be the protector
of her virtue and how was he supposed to do that when he was one of
the most immediate threats to it. He wanted so much to protect her
but god did he want to touch her. Every time she hugged him he wanted
to never let go, he wanted to enfold her deeper still into himself so
that they could never be separated. He wanted to kiss her and, yes,
he wanted to make love to her. He wanted to do these things because
that's what those in love do with each other but he didn't want
things to change. What if she didn't love him back. He was terrified
of the thought that she would one day discover his feelings for her
and leave him thinking that he was, after all, just a pervert 900
year old alien that liked them young.
Young. There's
another reason why you shouldn't be here, in this room. You're about
eight hundred and eighty years her senior. Without his consent
his hand traveled forward. All he could do was watch as it found her
hair, his fingers moving lovingly through it's silk. He was amazed as
she continued to play then lent back into him seeking out his touch,
her head resting against his stomach. His nerves played with their
electricity at the points of contact, traveling up his spine and
around his brain to imprint her on his mind. His hands slid over her
shoulder blades and down her back as he went down on both knees
behind her, his forehead settled against her back, his arms circled
around her waist holding her.
They stayed this way for a
while, she alternating between her two favorite piano pieces, pouring
her happiness into each note and he behind her trying to memorise the
feel of her and soaking her in through her music. The last few notes
of 'The Sacrifice' echoed through the room and their bodies alike.
Sitting still in their silence she took a hand, kissing his palm and
lies it above her heart, he can feel the effect his touch has and i
thrills him to know that she feels the same.
"Everything
I can do", He started, "Go swimming on a water planet, hike
alien forests, fight alien wars and save planets, I could do
anything, and my most favorite thing to do in the entire universe,
Rose Tyler, is listen to you play."
She turned then,
lifting her legs over the piano stool settling one on either side of
him. Taking his face in her hands she lay his head on her breast,
loving the feel of his hands on her waist as they pulled her body
into to his.
"All the things I could do with you",
she replied, "Swim with you on that water planet, trek with you
through that forest, fight that war and save that planet, we could do
anything, and my most favorite thing to do in the entire universe,
Doctor, Is play for you."
