Chapter 1- Heartbreak
*Alec's POV*
I never realized how many spiders were in my room. I spotted one by my bed, two on the wall, and five on the ceiling. One, two, three, four, five, six seven…
I heard a knock at my door. I slowly wiped away my tears and tried to keep my voice steady as I said, "Come in".
Isabelle stood hesitantly at the door. She cautiously came inside and sat down on my bed with me. "Are you okay Alec?" she whispered.
I shakily replied, "Yeah, of course." She didn't look convinced, but I didn't blame here. My eyes were red and my cheeks were splotchy, I had a pile of used tissues on my bedside table, and my shirtsleeve was drenched in tears. I looked terrible.
Isabelle nodded and said, "Well, if you're okay enough, you have a visitor."
"Is it Jace? Please don't let it be Jace. Whatever you do, don't let him in." I shook and scooted farther away from the door. Isabelle scootched closer and hugged me. I usually don't like hugs, but right now I could have honestly cared less.
"I know Jace broke your heart by declaring his love for Clary, but you shouldn't get so hung up over that. I'm sure that there are plenty of guys out there who would love you if you gave them a chance." I knew there was no chance of that, but I didn't want to pick a fight with her at this moment. I just turned away a sniffled into another tissue.
"Well, is it okay if I let him in?" Isabelle asked.
"Depends on who it is" I said.
She said, "Alec… it's Magnus."
*Magnus's POV*
I nervously waited outside Alec's door. Isabelle said that she would be out in a matter of minutes, but she'd already been in there for ten. I decided that Alec probably didn't want to see me, and I understood. So heart sinking, I turned away from the door, but right then Isabelle popped out and said, "He's ready to see you."
Isabelle had told me that Alec was in a bad shape, but I didn't think it would be THIS bad. Alec looked worse than I had ever seen him. He had a horrible bedhead, a blotchy face, and the pale, gaunt look that someone acquires after not eating for days. But he was still beautiful to me. I slowly walked over to his bed and sat down. I didn't get too close in case he was uncomfortable, but I sat closer than two strangers on a park bench would. I looked around his room. "Uh… nice room you have here" I said. I winced as soon as that came out. Way to make an impression, stupid. You go to see him when he's depressed and looks like he wants to jump off a cliff and all you can think to say is, nice room. Idiot. Thankfully, Alec didn't seem to notice or seem to care. He just turned around and looked at his wall. I looked at his beautiful black tattoos, swirling around his body in intricate patterns. So gorgeous, especially on him… Focus Magnus, focus. I sighed and decided to tell him what I knew. "Look, Isabelle already told me everything. I know that you're pretty pissed at Jace right now, and I understand how you feel, so, all I'm saying is, if you ever need anyone to talk to… I'm always here." I ended awkwardly. I kicked myself inwardly after saying that. I wasn't sure if I sounded like a friend or like a creepo stalker person. Well, it was the best I could come up with on the spur of the moment. I gave him a half smile and looked into his eyes, trying not to focus on the tears brimming in them. Great job, now you made him cry again. You should probably just leave before you make things worse.
I was planning to get up when I heard a whimper escape Alec's throat before he let out a full wail and slid into my arms. I held him tightly and breathed in his scent. He smelled wonderful, like… like a rainforest after a storm. We just sat there on the edge of his bed, me breathing in his scent and holding him tightly while he bawled and sniffled into my shirt. He let go after a while a dried his eyes once more before looking up at me and saying, "Thanks Magnus. That really does mean a lot to me. Thank you so much for being there for me."
I smiled and replied saying, "No problem. My apartment is always open if you need to get away from… well, if you need to get away."
I got up and walked out of the room, my hopes considerably higher than they had been when I first walked in. Maybe I hadn't made a complete fool of myself in front of the boy I loved.