Journal From Raven

My name, Raven. My home, Azarath. These are my innermost thoughts STAY OUT OR ELSE! That means you Beast Boy! Most think I'm weird and creepy, but if you really knew me you wouldn't. Robin, Cyborg, Beast Boy, not even Starfire get me. The only ones who got me were Blackfire, and Malchior and they turned out to be evil. I also liked a guy named Ashley Purdy, until Jinx stole him (how unfair he liked me more). Even my father thinks I'm destined for evil. If you really truly knew me you would understand. It all started when I was only 2, I was chasing after the worlds prettiest glorfdack. (My planets butterflies.) When all of a sudden it hits me (by which I mean the emperor's cane). He screams at me for wrecking the town. I try to apologies and ask how I did it, but as a child it all comes out in tears.

He yells at his servants to silence me when all of a sudden he lifts off the ground and flies, crashing into his castle. His guards come at me from all directions. I'm scared, but even as a baby I know better than to fight against the emperor's orders.

By the time I get to prison my mom, Metrion, is sitting there looking worried. While my dad, Trigon, is sitting there looking proud. He says to me " You are sure to grow up to be an evil con-corer of the worlds."

Suddenly the emperor walks in. He yells " off with her head for raising this demon child," pointing at my mother. Then, they take her away, as my father laughs " demon child indeed."

Next thing I know I'm in jail, motherless. "It was all my fault", I think. You see from the day I was born I was told that I was to be the end of the world. I am starting to see this is true.

As I enter the jail someone says "I hear a newbie lets give him the Initiation". Next thing I know I see an ugly big kid approaching me, his face lit up by a taser. I'm scared, but I'm able to squeeze out, in my best big girl voice, " who you callin' him."

He stopped, Then he said " hey looks like we got ourselves a little pipsqueak, daycares that way; brat." They all laugh, I get so angry. Next thing I know, he is white as a ghost. I scream, black comes out of my eyes.

I let it all out and he flys into a wall. I look and there is a hole where I threw him. Next thing I know I'm one of them.

I start my villain training right away. By the time I'm 5 I'm best in my class at the Azarath Hive . The 2nd best who isn't near my level is my first love, Hex. ( who is now a girl named Jinx, you know).

He comes over to me to tell me "good job, maybe one day you'll be good as me" I now officially love him and hate him. " if you are better than me, " I said " then why do I have a better grade than you"

" Because" he says " they don't want to hurt a weak baby girls feelings" then he pushes me down.

I catch the eye of Ashley Purdy (He controls emotions) and he looks angry, so I get so angry I turn into a demon I've never seen before. Hex runs away crying as I chase after him yelling "who's a weak little girl now"

That night I had no idea what had happened but I no longer liked him and enjoyed seeing him pee his pants, so I hired men to hack into the Hives security cameras. I take all the pictures of it and hang them around the school. The next morning he is kicked out for making the Hive look bad.

You know what I actually feel bad for him, so I found a way to get him back in the school. I read every book on magic in the library, and I found a way to disguise him.

He saw me coming " oh are you up to another way to humiliate me" he said. " no" I say " I found a way to get you back into the Hive."

His face lit up at those words. " oh I love you, I love you , I love you," He said " hey after this you wanna go out?" I laughed, "I'd love to" he smiled " yay." Then I kissed him. He gave me a disgusted look "ewe get away cootie breath." I say "oh you fart faced, barf breath" we laughed at each other

I start the spell when he starts turning into a she. She yells at me that I did the spell wrong, and I try my best to fix it but I can't.

She yells "you did this on purpose you meanie face" I start to cry "nuh uh, jerk face. I was going to name you Jinx, but that's a boy's name you should be called ugly" I wish I never tried to help her.

We never did go on that date. Now we are still enemies and she prefers to pretend we never met before this. She did take the name Jinx though.

We work as a team ignoring each other, I'm learning to use anger to fight GG's.

This all changed when I was 9. I was upset I just found out my dad remarried to a girl named arella. I was letting out my anger by destroying the town, when all of a sudden a freak dressed like a bat and an ugly 8 year old kid in red, beat me.

Those horrible GG's killed my partner and my one and only friend Zinthos. I was devastated suddenly I fell to the ground unable to speak or move.

The kid put handcuffs on me then said "I think we killed her Batman" then the freak said "Robin, you have to learn. Part of being a hero is defeating, sometimes killing, villains."

Suddenly as I rose I turned into the demon my enemies had nightmares about. "Don't you realize you didn't kill ME you destroyed the one and only thing I had left to care about, my best friend, and for that you shall pay!"

"Don't you realize WE didn't kill him YOUR rampage did," said Robin. I cried and cried till I couldn't cry anymore.

Then I found myself in a calm room. I tried to leave, but I was surrounded by men in robes. "We will teach you to control you powers" they say. "I can control my power" I say. They laugh then take me into a room.

They tell me they know all about me. They tell me to sit with my legs crossed levitating and recite Azarath (where I'm from), Metrion (my first loss), and Zinthos (my last loss)

Now I've finished my training with the Monks of Azarath, but I still don't feel complete. They tell me it's my mission now to tell what is right and what is wrong. I know what I must do.

I go knock on the almighty emperors door. As his servant answers the door, they recognize this fully mature 13 year old in blue as the more joyful then Starfire/ dangerous 2 year old in pink who broke out of jail in years past.

As she prepares to scream I stop her "I'm here to apologize, I've seen the errors of my ways. I've come to offer myself as... the emperors slave for a year" She shows a smile and laughs "if you say so."

As we enter I start to give up on that idea. We enter the room he is in to see him trowing knives at a picture... OF ME.

As I turn to leave its too late, he saw me. "What is the meaning of this? Off with her head for making a fool of me," he said.

" No your greatness I've come to apologize. It's my birthday and I bring a gift to you I'll be your slave from this day to my next birthday."

He smiles "you have no idea how long I've waited to get my hands on you." I stand there showing no emotion (not even the fear that overcame me).

"For your birthday fire all my workers then we can play a little party game called pin the tail on the villain." The next year was hard, but I keep telling myself "I'm paying the price for Zinthos"

I was so happy when it was over, but he told me "I have two last requests for you"

I agreed to listen even though my year was over "first rehire all my workers with a pay cut. Second go kill yourself." I go ahead and agree to the first but not the second .

He then tells me "fine but after this you are to leave and never return" I agree to that

I find another planet, one where I can hide in the shadows, never to be seen again.

Or so I thought, until a crazed

Tamaranian or, as my dad and stepmom Arella call them, troq (meaning nothing) destroyed the town.

So now at 16 I'm a teen Titan. I try to be a good guy but I really know what is in store for the future.

But at least I'm on a team with the Tamaranian, an overgrown toy robot, a green guy who tells really funny jokes, and the freak in tights who killed Zinthos.

P.S. i had the most wonderful dream last night where me and BB kissed!

Awe, you think I'm funny and dream about me, I'm telling robin you called him a freak in tights and you used to be a bad guy who fought him and batman. Oh and that you called Starfire an overgrown toy robot. Oh oh and that you called cyborg a troq.

P.S. BB was here

I'd like to point out BB WAS

here!