Author Note: So this is kind of like a song-fic. Sooo yeah. The song is called Cancer and it's by My Chemical Romance. I suggest you listen to it. It would help you understand the story better. Don't worry it's an awesome song. Hope you like my story
Cancer
Kaoru POV:
I had to go to a doctor's appointment a couple days ago and they diagnosed me with cancer. They told me I had a couple years to live and there was no hope to save me with the condition I was in. I was devastated as were my parents. I begged them not to tell Hikaru. I want to tell him when the time is right. He's just not stable enough for that kind of news. I worry about him.
Turn away
If you could bring me a drink
Cause my lips are chapped and faded
"Hikaru time to get up or we'll be late for school", I yelled at him from the bathroom. "Fine fine fine let's go", he replied. When we got into the limo I saw him giving me this weird look like he knew something was up. I just turned away and looked out the window.
Call my aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me in all my favorite colors
My sisters and my brothers still
When we got to school he pulled me close. He had an arm around my shoulder and we started walking toward the building. You know I really worry how this will affect him. He can't really control his feelings very well. I hope he isn't to upset. I hope he'll handle this well. I hope he doesn't blame himself for this. But, I guess all I can really do is hope.
I will not kiss you
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
After awhile he started to notice my unusual behavior and he questioned me a lot. Eventually I made the decision to tell him.
Now turn away
Cause I'm awful just see
Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body
"Hey Hikaru I um want to tell you something", I stuttered out the words. "Are you finally going to tell what's been going on with you lately", he said with his hopeful eyes. God I love those eyes. I'll miss those.
All my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby I'm just soggy from the Kemo
"Hikaru I have cancer", I said quickly. He gave me that blank stare of his. "The doctors told me that I still have a good few years left in me. But they also said I have no hope in being cured. I'm sorry", I said filling the silence. God I feel so bad now. He's just staring at me with those eyes that are starting to from tears in them. I can't leave him I just can't. He'll be lost without me.
We're counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say goodbye today
I'd ask you to be true
Cause the hardest part of this is leaving you
"What? No! No, you've got to be kidding me. You've got to be fucking kidding me. This can't happen it just can't. What am I supposed to do without you? You're everything I have Kaoru. I go everywhere you go, Kaoru you can't leave me. I'm so useless I can't do anything for you. I can't do fucking anything", he shouted. He was lying on our bed, just a sobbing mess. And I watched him as he continued to rant on and on. I knew he would react this way I just knew it. I can't leave him. I just can't.
Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
Author Note: sorry it's so sad, but when I was in school today I was listening to my iPod and this song came on. And it just sort of inspired me to write this. Hope you liked it. Review please. Thanks.