It's probably a bad idea to start a new story but at the minute i'm really stuck with "She's a Genius"

I hope you like it.

disclaimer: i don't own skins

Effy

I've got a secret, they're all fucking mad.

For about 14 years I said nothing, I didn't feel the need to speak to people, to connect, you learn so much more about people by observing them. I learnt that people fuck you up. I learnt that love specifically fucked you up. Why would you want to chain yourself to one person when all it causes is pain.

"Why don't you speak Effy?" She was the only person that ever asked me why. Most people just ignored it, accepted it. People began to think it was normal, because for me it was. I was quiet.

You don't have to speak to communicate with people, eye contact, facial expressions, sign language. So much more can be said through silence. No-one else seemed to understand that.

I watched my brother interact with his friends and multiple fucks. He played games with people. He played games with his best friend but all that stopped when he got hit by a bus. I remember that, I remember watching it happen. The one person that I loved let me down, He left me, became a shadow of who he used to be.

"Sometimes I think you're the only person that Tony really cares about." If he cared about me why would he do something so stupid! Everything changed after that, I looked after him. I read to him when he had nightmares, it made him feel better, helped him to sleep. But that is wrong. He should read to me, he should be the one protecting me from the monsters.

I constantly fix people's soap operas, its easy to put other people back together. To make them realise what they've done, and how to fix it.

I watched my parents break. I watched them self destruct. And still I stayed pretty much silent, only talking to the people who really mattered.

Emotion, "it's everywhere. Conceptual."

I met people, they pretended to love me, they pretended to care about me, but the only person that did fucked off and in a way died. Tony wasn't the same, I care about him, I love him, but he isn't the Tony I used to look up to. But even a bus couldn't stop him from working me out.

"I see right through you, Effy Stonem."

I've always had secrets, other people's secrets. Mainly secrets that they themselves didn't realise that they had. So I helped them to notice, I helped them to open up.

I'm mysterious. I'm a ticking time bomb.

I'm thinking about carrying this on, and showing Effy's thoughts throughout series 3 and 4 on all the other characters.

I will carry on with "She's A Genius" too but this is just an idea I had that I really wanted to do.

Thanks for reading :) Review please.