my stomach full
my eyes red
you r blood dripping from my chin
the scent so sweet
it makes me sick
full of horror & regret
the taste of you r last thoughts
the call of you r blood
the screams that rip from you r throat
you are afraid of me
u promised you would never b
but i promised not to do this
so i guess the blame is evenly split
blood streaming
people screaming
im dripping
you r dying
my stomach is filling
you r heart is stopping
the crowd is watching
its sum trick
it has to b
everyone knows me
my name
my age
my friends
everyone knows
but no one knows
i kill with one look
i dont drink from a brook
the blood in a body
still warm & bloody
the murderers bed
the monsters head
the teeth
the eyes
all are showing
all are mine
blood is like water
refreshing & filling
blood is like the sun
warm & cancer giving
blood is my lifeline
in a literal sense
blood is a wall
i wish it were a fence
it separates me
it pulls me apart
it pains me to kill
a still beating heart
the spring in you r step
the twinkle in you r eye
the smile on you r face
make me ask why
you know the secret
you know the pain
you no you wont ever b human again
you say it doesnt matter
you say it never will
i know the real you
the pain will over fill
laughter & sunshine
are all very good
but so are the screams in my neighborhood
it all disappears
in a slight quiet manner
& no one remembers the rest of the hour
the blood they saw
is just red paint
the body they saw was part of sum elaborate prank
the news just lies
or else wed b dead
turn that thing off
before it goes thru you r head
wandering
watching
seeing it all
the love
the hate
the things not seen
i see it all
i know it all
the names
the gods
the reasons y
im wandering , lost
but i know all
my skin is cold
but i still feel
i feel what i would
what i really should
i feel fright
i feel love
i feel the warmth of the sun
i feel the nice crisp air
i see the snow
i no what i should feel
i feel but i dont recognize
i dont recognize the face in the mirror
i dont recognize the faces i love
i have forgotten
i will remember
i will remember the love i felt
i will remember the hell i was in
i will remember what i feel
I will remember what ive known
in the darkness
of the night
its the one thing
we do right
find the blood
find a life
watch it run
scream with fright
in the darkness
of the night
circles circles
everywhere i see
dancing in front of my eyes
to a delightful melody
black & blue they dance
yellow & red they dance
but when i try to see
they block out my entire view
to the ringing of the bell
i make my way to hell
but before i leave
i have to say fare well
you watch me scream
you watch me cry
but you never
wipe my eyes dry
but you never
understand why
im tired
of my life
im tired
of fighting
im going to die
not today
not tomorrow
i dont care anymore
im going to lay on the shore
maybe find a gun
maybe find a knife
im going to finally let go
im going to finally stop pretending
im going to tell you everything
my words will be in my blood
my words will speak right to you r heart
my words will go on long after im gone
im the reason
the reason kids hate the dark
the reason adults hate the unknown
the reason for the screams in the dark
the reason for the unknown deaths
the reason why life has to end
the reason why nothing changes
the reason for you
the excuses made
the things proven wrong
im the reasons for the bumps in the dark
my stomach full
my eyes red
you r blood so sweet
it makes me sick
full of horror & regret
the taste of you r thoughts
the call of you r blood
the screams that rip from you r throat
you are afraid of me
you promised you would never be
but I promised not to do this
so I guess the blame is evenly split
the screams of the night are because of me
my kind my mind
my forgetfulness
the blood that drips from my chin is because of you
you r heart
you r blush
you r love of me
the screams in my her are from you
you r fright
you r death
my love of you
the death you face is because of me
my lust
my love
my search for blood
you r heart stops beating
you stop bleeding
my stomach is filled
but my heart is emptied
falling
from the stars
falling
down the hole
I open my eyes
To my normal life
I open my eyes
To home
Landing so painfully
I open my eyes
To life
Ive fallen from the top
Ive fallen like a rock
I don't want to get up
I don't want to face the world
I just want to sit here & let everything go
I want to keep falling
Its really quite relaxing
Cradled in the arms of air
Drifting softly from here to there
I continue falling thru the air
How ironic it is
When I'm starting to cry
When I want to die
The happiest song
The brightest rhyme
The radio can play
Is on for the first time today
How ironic it is
When im having a wonderful day
When I want to go out to play
The rain is pouring down
It feels like the world will drown
When after months of being sunny
It rains for the first time this year
I want to feel
I want to cry
I need to feel
Or I will die
Close my eyes
Against the burning
Smile as I go
Away from my yearning
Laughing as I am eaten
By the sun's greed
For the first time since birth
I'm finally freed
Blood dripping to the floor
I look at you & scream
I cant take it anymore
The tears I've shed
The blood I've bled
Im never going back to before
& I cant take it anymore
Words im writing
Screaming out
Tears im crying
Never running out
Im screaming
I want to be free
Im crying
I want to be me
Im dying
Im finally free
Im finally free
Im finally me
I can finally be
I can finally scream
I can finally cry
I can finally die
Smiling surface
Like glitter glued on
Rotten inside
Like a tooth gone bad
The storm is contained
Gathering force
The longer its kept
The more it gets worse
The surface unharmed
The storm deep inside
I don't want to be here
When its finally time
Quiet silent noise
Loud deafening silence
A sad smile
Some happy tears
All make sense
In a strange kind of way
Noise with no meaning
Silence screaming what should be there
A smile that you can give only when you 're about to cry
Tears that overflow when you cant say how much you care
Making sense to me
But I am not everyone
I care not for the noise
I yearn to break the silence
I smile to fool you - while wanting you to know
Screams in the air
life falling short
love falling through the air
disappearing from the sight of all
the end of my life
the end of my love
the end of the world around me
there is a blanket over my head
covering the rest of the world
making me believe you
until the blanket was removed
u left me unprepared to face the world
u left me unprepared to face my life
u left me ... a lost little girl alone in the world
the ground has turned to water
drowning in the air
the rest of the world is fine
I'm not standing any more
u tool the ground beneath me
u took the air from my lungs
now you left me here to die
u left me here to rot
I can't open my mouth without you putting words in
I don't say anything & you take it the wrong way
words mean nothing music is sound
emptiness is whole the ground is the air
upside down world upside down thoughts
no one understands no one gives it a second thought
Damn the world
the words that won't come out
the twists of life
the burn of hell
the joy of death
the poison of life
the heat that won't leave
the cold that won't come
the courage that fades
the love that leaves
the death that stays forever
my breath stuck in my throat
my life running from my veins
my eyes feeling frozen
my heart feeling broken
my blood disappearing down the drain
my life streaming out of the window
my personality being buried
my world crumbling all around me
the life and the love and the world are all coming to an end
I'm singing a song that no one hears
I'm laughing a laugh that no one likes
I'm living a life that no one knows about
I'm feeling a love that no one wants
I'm crying tears that no one sees
I'm following a path that isn't there
I'm falling through air that I have inhaled
I'm a no one
I'm an everybody
I'm just on the outside of the door that won't open
no one knows I'm here
no one knows I'm gone
no one misses me
no one hears my cries
the world is empty for me
the world is full of death
lying is horrible
the truth is worse
the music is the words
the songs are the meaning
the end is the beginning
the beginning is the end
what was there is gone
what was here is there
the world makes no sense
the words are empty
love is an illusion
hate is just the same
the end is here
the world is gone
if you know what I mean then you to are gone
the pain of life drowns me
the joy of death scares me
the end of the world seems to happen every day
my words clog my throat
my tears go unseen
my screams are useless
the world is so far away
light is just a dream
dark is just a form of light
my pain is seen as joy
my joy isn't seen
love is just there
death is too
no one knows me
no one cares
I m alone with my pain as a gag
love is a pain
pain is just joy
nothing is normal
nothing is right
the world is empty
the world is bright
my chest is constricted
my pain is barely contained
seeing him there
seeing him empty
the world seems to end
the end seems so near
life isn't happy
death isn't safe
the world seems to hate me
the sky seems to cry
the joy of the sun stills my eyes
I form the screams in the night
I make the love in the light
I'm the cause of all the death
I'm the lonely one in the sky
I love the life of mine
I love the life of you rs
I'm the emptiness that everyone sees
I'm the pain that everyone feels
I'm the hate the lives in you r heart
I'm the blankness in the sky at dark
the love of life is mine
the fear of death is mine
the hate in the world is all I see
the fear of me is all I hear
the scent of death is in the air
the love of all is disappeared
look at me & see my pain
listen to me & here my thoughts out loud
touch my skin & feel my pain
try to understand and fall way down
trapped in my life
tied to my death
cut from my love
pain in my heart
hate in my head
you took him
you killed him
you ended my life when you ended his
I'm happy in a passive way
just barely noticed but that's enough for me
the pain is just barely showing
just enough for me to see
you are just barely here
probably going after you r new girl
the ground is just barely under my feet
just enough for me to stand
my life is just barely beginning
just enough for me to wish it was over
the story ends
real life begins
the lullabies stop
the nightmares begin
the song is scary
it is the real world
no one is here
they all left me here to die in my sleep
my pain won't end
or let me go
my happiness is gone
you took it when you left
now you want me to b happy
with what you left behind
with what you lied about
with the end just beginning
& the beginning at its end
my pain wants to b freed
my heart it wants to die
my love has left
my joy has run away
the end feels near
& the end sounds nice
the pain will leave & the hurt will cease
my life will end & you rs will continue
I will b happy
& so will you
u don't no me
u don't want me
I will leave & you won't even know I was there
the song I sing is not for you
the song I sing is just for me
for all we used to b
for all we used to feel
the power we felt when we were together
the joy we shared
the pain I have
the whispers you here are the words breaking free
the beginning and end are all the same
the words never change
the voices are all the same
my song isn't silent
it's just no one hears
the joy of the moment is covered in tears
the song that I sing is for all the times
the times we had
the tears I cried
all combine to make my words
the tears on the page fill in the blanks
the pain you gave is all that's left
of us
of you
that's all my song
that's all my words
that's all I can say any more
everywhere I look
I only see what you took
u took my joy
u gave me pain
now you don't care
now you don't want it
now on one knows me
now no one cares
u killed me with that one final glare
now I'm just a ghost
following the patterns of my other life
the life that you entered
the life that you took
u wanted me just so you could say
I had her she wanted me
I broke her apart
that's all I hear from you
that's all you ever say
the end of my story
is at the end of the day
you see my eyes
u see my pain
u no it was you r fault
u know what the problem is
you r the problem
you 're the cause
you 're the 1 that took my life
you r the 1 that took my will
you r the 1 that made the day turn to night
you r the one that took the light
I lie to you because you lied to me
u said I was special
I say that I'm fine
u said you were lonely
I say that I'm not
u lied through you r teeth
u broke my heart
now my lying is making you tear
that's ok you won't get any pity here
I cared once
& so did you
but the times have changed
& the story is new
the words are different
the friends the same
y don't we try to go back again
when we didn't know
when we didn't care
when the prince of gold was the prince of hell
the gate was open
the river was full
the fun was just starting
the beginning was all we knew
the start was so happy
the end just despaired
we wanted to stay there
we wanted to lose
now we know the difference
now we know the cost
the life we had
& the life we lost
there is a wall between us
there is no in
we are separated
never to begin again
the end is all we ever saw
the joy was gone before we knew the start
we are for ever separate
for ever gone
the world we live in forces us to move on
the life I had is just the same
the life I want is different as night & day
the love I felt is gone away
I know no more of what to say ...
the end was here & gone away
no one knows me
no one listens
if they look at me they think I'm pretty
if they hear me they think I'm smart
but that's what they think
they don't know my heart
no one knows me
no one cares
the end is bitter
the sweetness sparse
the story goes sour
the end not what you want
life is a story no one wants a part of
we are all characters
the writer is god
the end is invisible
the start isn't there
the sound of the music is just an illusion
the joy of life is just what we want
the end is all we will ever no
... & we don't even know that
the end is uncertain
the start is just dumb
the season is changing
the story is ending .
Where we will go no one know
the end is calling us
the beginning is long gone
My tears are streaming
my heart is frozen
u killed my joy
u kills my life
the end is started
the story is ending
the love is gone
the magic show over
I feel so tired
I feel so lonely
I'm here with my heart
it isn't unbroken
it wore & torn
its comfy & warm
its nice & used
u cant break it any smaller
it won't grow any larger
its stuck the way it is
its fine for now
but just stay away
come any closer & ill fade away
I feel like I'm going the wrong way
on a one way street
no one wants to help me
no one wants to see
I'm having all the fun
playing dancing with the cars
o I'm just so crazy
I just to cute to doubt
I'm conceited to my core
not like that's sum thing you helped me with
u wanted me broken you made me stronger
u have killed me yet
the story still has to end
life still has to change
death is still coming to us all
the sky is dark
the water is deep
today is the day
I will leave
perfection isn't real
u want me to be prefect
u want me to be pretty
u want me to be smart
u don't know what's goes for you
u don't know what I want
I just want to lie in the sun
I just want to be with my friends
I just want to be myself
I just don't want to fit in
Love is light
love is gone
light is forsaken
love is forbidden
the love is gone
the light ran away
now you no my every day
the joy of the moment is soured by you
u aren't supposed to b here
I thought I told you no
I miss you forever
with all of my heart
but you can't stay here
u no y
the end of the story
the end of my life
u wanted to destroy me
u wanted me gone
u didn't succeed
I know the truth
u plans always fail
the end always comes
the story is told
the characters dead
the monsters all vanquished
the living all dead
the love is buried
the deed is done
the need for a hero is dead like the son
no one is here now
no one will be
the noise of the dead is all that haunts me
I lost the key to the outside
now I can't leave here
the places I want to go
the dreams I want to have
the fallings I want to feel
its all you r fault
u chased me in
u closed the doors
u set the pin in tight
the only thing for me to do
is not put up a fight
u closed my heart
u locked me up
u & you r uncaring ways
tore my heart to bits
& threw them down the drain
My eyes wide open I jump after you
I had no idea what else to do
the ground came & sucked me up
the floor started to rise
the joy of the moment came from my death
the death that you destroyed
u turned you r back to me
but you 're the one that stabbed me in the back
I'm no back stabber
I'm just stuck with all of them
my friends don't care
my family doesn't notice
you r the one that trips me up
you r the one that broke you r promise
the time that we shared
the friends that we made
they all look to you now
u took my love & ground it up
& spit it out again
u took what I gave you ...
& then you took more again
u never gave anything back
u never gave me a second thought
u saw my pain
& you laughed
the differences that I face is faced by everyone
the end of the story is the end of the fall
the joy of the moment
the size of the drop
all add up to the end & the fight we fought
u took my heart & made a mould
u gave me 1 you faked
the end result ...
I'm gone to rot
under the land that's under you r feet
u walk on my grave
& threw the street
I'm just a little stepping stone
I'm just another bump
the joy I had
the joy you faked
u still have my heart
I have the 1 of stone
u froze me & took my very last breath
my tears run down my face
mixing with the rain
falling from the sky
you r just another guy
I lie to myself
my body shaking with my tears
the tears stain my paper as I write my last goodbye
I'm going to fall
I'm going to be free
from the pain you gave me
from this life of pain
from this meaningless joy
my story is going to end
goodbyes last forever
the strength always gone
our bodies decay
our mind grow large
the end of a life is the end of a story
the end of a story is our goodbye
the sadness is there
the strength has deserted us
like an army in war
like a mother to child
the last thing I think is my last goodbye
y r you leaving
my life has grown still
my heart has been frozen
& my love has gone still
the end has come for him
the joy has left my soul
the emptiness is all I have left
of you & me
My heart is pounding in my chest
my breath is quickly leaving my lungs
the feelings I have
r the kind I can't hide
the gum I chew I think of as you
the floor I stomp on is you r face
the wall I hit is you r lovely body
the tears I cry wash away you r memory
the screams I let loose clear my mind
the way I forgive you reminds me I hate u
the darkness is coming for me
the last thoughts of my life are coming soon
the last moments are approaching fast
the end of my life will b here at last
it follows me every were
the heartache
the pain
the emptiness in my chest
everything you gave me
everything you changed about me
everything you wanted you took
everything you hated you changed
that's y I hate you now
that's y I hated you then
u want the world to fall to you r feet
that's y I'm not getting back together
that's y we broke apart
my feelings are hidden now
now that up showed me the problem
the problem with showing them
I told you the truth
u used me buzz of it
the journey is over
the sun is going down
the night is fast approaching
the twilight is already gone
u twist my words to say what you want them to
u take my silence to mean a yes
the rest of the world is made of cardboard
they can't hurt you
u can destroy them with a look
I'm not like that so I left
I'm feeling better already
with you all broken apart
with you r words just too gooey to b the truth
that's were I left you
that's were you stay
as my tears poor down my face
as my family prepares for my funeral
as the words leave you r mouth
u no you r wrong
u no you made the mistake
u no that you just put the nail in my coffin
but you don't no
u don't no my love to the fullest
u don't no the songs I sing in my head
u don't no y I love you so much
u don't no me that well
we were just floating around and around in the world
we were a mistake ...
as you just said
my questions will never b answered
I will always miss you
u died happy
u died in you r sleep
at least that's a good thing
but I'm selfish
I still want you here
I wish you could tell me what I want to no
life was good for you
but it killed you
that's the truth for us all
no is just a word
the word I always use with you
u don't understand it
u use it on me when I ask for you to go away
now I won't come back or let you in
my eyes are closing
my life is fading
u no you 're the reason
u know that the whole thing is you r fault
u no tour the cause
u didn't know that I didn't tell any1
u didn't no you were the only 1 that new
& no you 're the 1 that has to tell them the hole story
I'm sorry for you but that is all
U want me to b happy?
since when
all you 've ever said to me
is that I'm not all that pretty
u want me to still love you
u don't love me back
u don't want to love me
u just want to have me
u wont you cant
that's all I'm going to say
my tears mean nothing to you
my words don't stop you leaving
my life is different now
my family all loves you
you r family hates my guts
u don't really want me around do you
ill just leave
I'll just go away
u wouldn't miss me
u wouldn't care
that's y I'm leaving
that's y I'm gone
I feel like a rock
surrounded by bees
moving so slow
with every1 running around
the world moves by
i stay here
they force me forward
they push me along
im just at the edge
im barely keeping up
the blood rushing to my head
again and again
the pounding in my ears
booming me awake
to tired to close my eyes
to bored to sleep
u wanted me
u told me that as you left
u swore wen we first met
that you would stay forever
u lied
u new it then
u new you would leave
u new you would hurt me
the pain stopped
just to start again
i saw you
after you left
my tear stains still on ur jacket
pick her up and kiss her
like you never did me
i annoy you to no end
u just hate my guts
but wen asked if
u want me to go away
u say no
and y ...
b cuz you cant imagine life without me
u think ive been here always
thats how i want it
thas how it will b
the people around me
they dont no the real me
the people around me
don't care that they don't
the people around me
think im fine
the people around me
add to my demise
i feel it on my tounge
the love bursting in my torso
the taste grinding in
the feel of it on my tounge
the heat in my belly
hot chocolate
im here
& not just for you
im in love
with every1
im mad
this is all for you
im po'd
u lied to me
im fine with every1
except u
the wind blowing
the grass growing
the sky above
all remind me of you
of sitting in the grass with you
looking at the sky
the wind blowing my hair in ur face
it makes me remember wat i miss
wat we had
wat you destroyed
love is gone
fear is back
fear of the world
fear of the feelings
fear of getting hurt
fear of you
fear of the unknown
poor little girl
lost in herself
the world pushing her away
life making her move before shes ok
no one seems to care
u dont c the 1s standing there
trying to cheer you up
trying to make you smile
trying to keep ur head above the water of life
my pain becomes anger
the anger makes me punch sumthing
i picture it with ur face
but i soon start to cry
u make me wanna die
u take my pain & twist it around on me
i was ready to kill
i wanted to kill you
but you made me remember
u made me forget
i remember my old joy
i forget the reason for my anger
until you leave me again
jump in the air
spin all around
let go of ur emotions
in 1 swift motion
let go of me
free my soul
u tied me down
u wont let me up
theres no one to set me free
jsut you standing over me
the sun is warm and bright, i can not see it
the birds chirp softly, i can not hear them,
the roses bloom, i canot smell them
I am not dead, I am just reborn
my breathing fast
hart on double time
head pounding
feet hurting
running from little kids
im growing up
& ur afraid
u dont no wat to do with you now
im leaving
ur staying
soon you will to
for now good bye
& no ill miss you to
my family says i love you
my friends say well never forget you
my heart says good by to you
my mind cant rap my head around it
u wanna help me
kill me
die
go away
set up a gaurd
let me go
set me free
im caged here
im suffering
put me out of my misery
just b cuz ur here doesnt meen a thing
my dad is here
my sister is here
my brother is here
they were invited
u were not
get out of my life
get out of my house
leave my world
leave my haunts
my heart you have
my love you dont
my circle
sadness becomes anger wen bottled up
anger becomes hate wen bottled up
hate becomes pain wen bottled up
pain becomes sadness wen bottled up
each step lasts a different amount of time
& we all go through each step all through life
... stopping you is like stopping the rain
like stopping the end from approaching
stopping the wind from blowing
stopping people from dying
no one can truely do it
wat i do
did i mess with you
did i hurt you on purpose
did you break
did you bruise
did you cry
did you die
i didnt kill you
i didnt hurt you
i wasnt the only 1
u hurt me
u screamed at me
u left me
u misunderstood me
its ur fault
laughing hurts
crying sucks
dying is horrible
pain is a b*$#%
the way you laugh
makes me cry
the way you cry
makes me laugh
the way you hit
makes me screem
the way you screem
makes me hit u
illusions can b true
the things you believe may b an illusion
the dreams you have that seem so fake
they can b as true as the sun n the sky
u can fight ur dreams or stand up & sing
just take a deep breath & calm down
we love you to ur core
screams rip out of my throat
tears run down my cheeks
pain swells in my chest
words fall off my tounge
i loved you & left me
i hated you & you noticed me
i cry & you ignore me
ur all my pain & joy rapped into 1
wat i felt has changed
u made them
i loved you
now i dont
thas all i have to say
im me
im wat im supposed to b
i no im not the only one
im no others have felt this way
but it fels so unique
it feels like im alone
it feels like im surrounded by people that dont care
the pounding in my head
the heartbeat in my chest
the tears in my eyes
all combine & remind
im human
u cant control me
u didnt no
u thought that i was in ur control
maybe i liked you
maybe i wanted you to like me
maybe i was trying to make you proud
well im tired of it
im just gonna b me
im just gonna do wat i want to
im just gonna have fun
im just gonna leave you to urself
im just gonna b by myself
im not a robot
im me
u cant type in ur little intrructions
and expect me to follow them
im not you
u cant stop that
i dont want to b you
i just want to b wat i m
ur not gonna stop me
my eyes heavy
my heart in the gutter
head head falling down
u just want me to do wat you want me to
how fair is that y do you do that to me
i like the music i like
i like the boys i like
i just want to be how i want
i just want you to leave me alone
cramped in my space
i wanna get out of this place
u no you hate me
u dont no wat im gonna b
im different then you
its making you blue
u no im not you
u no im just me
theres a difference in us
theres space between us
the difference is clear
im getting out of here
pain made me heartless
haveing you neer is poison
loveng you is worse
this place is horrible
any where else is worse
im in the best place for me
it isnt very good at all
im helping you so i dont become like you
i dont like you
i dont wanna b like that
im different
im special
im all together me
u cant stop that
u cant say no
u cant say that im the bad 1
u cant say ur perfect
u cant say that the love you had was true
thats y we are different
my love is so true
im a nice little girl
with siblings to spare
with friends that dont act like it
& problems all around
my problems are serious
my friends are not
my fun is just starting
& now its gotta stop
ur questions are so hard to answer
u dont like anything i say
so if i speak from the heart
u hate that
& if i rite it down before you hate that
just make up ur mind about me
i will live to break ur conceptions
im more different then you think
im wierd
im crazy
im obnoxious
im care free
im fun
& ull never understand that
my words they come
but not how i meen them
thats y ur so mad
a misunderstanding
u wanted me to say sum thing
i said it
but it sounded rong
the words i want to say
pound on my head until i let them out
but wen i do that they come out rogn
ur making me like that
ur taking my mind
like dora & spongebob
ur trying to brain wash the kids of today
u tied me here
hoping i wouldnt learn
i no of the outside
i no of love
i no that ur doing wat you think is right
but stop
im different then wen you 1st saw me
im cjanged & im stuck
u hold me here
u clipped my wings
i will fly off
i will b free
u changed my life
with ur pessimism
i hate you now b cuz of that
u hate life
b cuz you will die
i hate death
b cuz i no wat its like to live
that cant combine
that cant connect
we are to different for that
if ur immortal
do you have life
it hurts to think that those that want immortality
might die b cuz they have no death
it puts to rest all my dreams
that immortality might b real
my heart feels so free
u act ike ur carrying a mountian
my love isnt heavy
& you accepted the job anyway
u could have said no
but ur not like that
to people i c
dont no me
im different then the me in there minds
we all have a picture in our minds
of people we no
mine doesnt match wat most people think
everything is falling apart
my worlds colapsing
my family doesnt understand
the rain falls just for me
it hides my tears
the sun shines just to piss me off
it does that often here
all the fights
all the arguements
all make my sky fall in around me
the things i new
the truths i saw
all mean nothint now
everything means nothing now
im saving you from ur mistakes
keeping you from the end
the story is worth it
just wait & c
the truth is good
the lies you tell urself are for you to no
im keeping them from poisoning you
im keeping you here
the blood of a passerby running down my mouth
im crying b cuz there onliy crime was trying to help
i was going to b a good vamp
i was going to help ... not hurt
look at me now
my vitcems body drying out
& i cant stop myself from feeding
the drip
it calls me
the taste
it seduces me
the scream
it warns me
the crime
it sickens me
the fact that it was i
makes sense
y cant i stop me
after all im in control
if only i could always b in control
the way i feel is like poison or drug incuced
i cant fit in
i cant blend in
im different
& im screaming it from the roof tops
u cant change me
u cant b the one controlling me
... but plz help me b different from wat i m now
u wanted me to hurt
but the truth is i dont care
i was waiting for this
i have wanted this
im free from you now
u think i need saving
ur teh one in the straight jacket
im fine out here on the outside
ur locked in & you cant get out
im just the person i want to b
im the way i m
u cant stop that
there is nothing you can do
just get a clue
i dont love u
i just want to b alone
i just want to have my space
i just want to b able to sneeze without 50 people saying bless you
i just want to feel the breeze on my face
i just want to walk bare foot in the sand
i want to b the me that i m
not the me that you have locked up in ur head
im not like that
im a person
im an individual
im just fine the way i m
im the only person that can control me
u only wish that you can
there is only 1 thing that you can do
just suck it up & b a man
u no wat i can do
there is only me
the colors
the sounds
its like ive just been born
everything is new to me
everything is the same as before
im seeing with new eyes
the faces im used to
the people i love
the light
& the darkness in life
its over welming to me
it feels like iv been born anew
the problem with you is you think theres no problem
i could b drowning to death
& you would think that im just trying a new swim
the jokes on you now
im pretending to b perfect & you think thats every things fine
wat you dont no is that im commiting suicide inside
im killing my self
im killing you
u think that im ok
... the problem is u
ur changing me
just by being in the room
im transforming
right before ur eyes
the path is forming for you & i
the world is watching
the world doesnt care
im here listening to everything you say
u say the most horrible things about me
im not that way
im not that dumb
im smart enough
im strong enough
the world is burnign
the sky is on fire
the water of the sea is boiling
the things i no are going to disappear
my throat constricting
my body turning against me
the air i breath isnt enough
i cant get enough
my chest is like sum 1s sitting on it
my eyes feel like they are going to pop out
is it just me or should i panic now
i wish i was like all those cutters
showing my scars to the world
my scars are hidden
even from me
alll i can do is feel them
i cant heal them
i cant stop the pain they cause me
i can just try to deal & b afraid the rest of the time
the things ive faced cant b seen
the love i felt has disappeared
the life i had is nowhere neer
but im still with you here
wat is my dream
the person i want to b
im so different to my thoughts
i cant reconize my dreams
r the things i think real
r they just like that
idk me any more
idk the past
shiny things
floating in the air
shiny things
try to catch my eye
shiny thing
... that rnt really there
the world is a fish bowl
the sky is a plate
the sun is a light bulb
people are pets
nothing is here
no air
no light
no dark
no death
floating
swimming
motion
all are gone
nothing is here
the life that is in me
the things that i think
the song in my head
the love that i have
they all must exist
they all must b here
i just dont no where here might b
ive lost me
ive lost my life
ive lost my soul
ive lost everything
nothing is the same
nothing has changed
i miss not noing
my heart
my soul
my life
my love
my friends
my family
my house
my place
u took them
u are going to give them back now
trapped in this world of anothers making
the place i thought i new
the life i lived
was all pretend
the world i new has broken down
the things i took for granted now make sense
the world has fallen & ive fallen from the fence
i didnt care
i didnt no
i didnt have a chance to go
the life i new the world i lived in
all is fake
all isnt real
alone is a sad word
one that no one really noes
the things they think about it
make it feel so old
lonely & afraid
in the middle of the night
the word visits me
the world leaves my mind
the word itself is harmless
but me give it its own meening
thats y i dont ever read
the dictonary
teh dreams i had
they cause me pain
they all had you in them
but thats not how life is now
we are different then i had imagined
we are changed & we are free
of expectations
of each other
of teh world & of our parents
but that doesnt meen that we are fine
trouble starts behind the line
the line we drew wen we first met
the thing that has kept us together
yet all i no is that weve both changed
so wat is left of my reality
killing myself feels fun
hanging in the sun with it burning me up
the air in my lungs burn but it still feels good
the darkness in my soul is shrieking
scared for its life
it should b
i dont want to b bad
i just want to b me
i just want to sit in the sun
as it burns me
my skin is frozen
the life within me
is dead
the soul i had is missing
the love i felt has run away
u have taken every thing away
the heat of my heart
the life i had with you is over
so my life is over
i want to b with you
i want to love you with my whole heart
u just wont let me
the things i feel
u make disappear
thats teh truth of every thing i no
the life i had is changed
the love i felt is gone
the flame in my heart has been put out
now i no that i dont have to b with you
now i no that you will always leave me
the life i had has changed & now i m giving you the bill
u wont help me so y should i help you ?
that is all i have to say to you but ...
i still feel you in my chest
i still feel you come around
i still have you in my mind
but thats about to change ...
im gone from this world now & thats the way that you wantedi tso ...
o well
my laughter is gone
my skin is pale
the blood in you calls me
the taste of it is so sweet
the salt & teh iron
the rust & the skin
the things you liked about me
u killed
im not me anymore
im changed
u changed me
u promised not to
now my blood runs down ur chin
my heart is going to stop beating
all b cuz you decided
vampires are the only way to go
the world all around me
the sky up above
all seem to b making fun of us
the dust in the air
the screams that we share
the blood on our tonges
the light from above
all are coming
all are disappearing
the sky of the morning has come to get us
the dark surrounding me
the fright pushing me on
i no i cant get away
i just no that i have to try
the story is ending
the life i had is still going on
the lies i live
the love i had
all are coming out
all are in the air
all are seen
all i no is disappearing
all i no is that nothing makes sense
all i no is that you no me better then me
ur paridise & mine are different
we all want different things
the joy of the season is lost on sum beings
paridise & love
all have different meanings
but 1 thing i no
we all want a piece
my stomache full
my eyes red
you r blood dripping from my chin
the scent so sweet
it makes me sick
full of horror & regret
the taste of you r last thoughts
the call of you r blood
the screams that rip from ur throat
you are afraid of me
u promised you would never b
but i promised not to do this
so i guess the blame is evenly split
the screams of teh night are b cuz of me
my kind
my mind
my forgetfullness
the blood that drips from my chin is b cuz of you
you r heart
ur blush
ur love of me
the screams inmy heart are from you
ur fright
ur death
ur captivating smile
the death you face is b cuz of me
my lust
my love
my search for blood
ur heart stops beating
u stop bleeding
my stomache is filled
but my heart is emptied
blood streaming
people screeming
im dripping
ur dieing
my stomache is filling
ur heart is stopping
the crowd is watching
its sum trick
it has to b
every1 nos me
my name
my age
my friends
every1 nos
but no one nos
i kill with one look
i dont drink from a brook
the blood in a body
still warm & bloody
the murderers bed
the monsters head
the teeth
the eyes
all are showing
all are mine
blood is like water
refreshing & filling
blood is like the sun
warm & cancer giving
blood is my lifeline
in a literal sense
blood is a wall
i wish it were a fence
it separates me
it pulls me apart
it pains me to kill
a still beating heart
the spring in ur step
the twinkle in ur eye
the smile on ur face
make me ask y
u no the secret
u no the pain
u no you wont ever b human again
u say it doesnt matter
u say it never will
i no the real you
the pain will over fill
laughter & sunshine
r all very good
but so are the screams in my nieghboor hood
it all disappears
in a slight quiet manner
& no 1 remembers the rest of the hour
the blood they saw
is just red paint
the body they saw was part of sum elabrate prank
the news just lies
or else wed b ded
turn that thing off
before it goes thro ur head
wandering
watching
seeing it all
the love
the hate
the things not seen
i c it all
i no it all
the names
the gods
the reasons y
im wandering , lost
but i no all
my skin is cold
but i still feel
i feel wat i wood
wat i reely shood
i feel fright
i feel love
i feel the warmth of the sun
i feel th enice crisp air
i see the snow
i no wat i should feel
i feel but i dont reconize
i dont reconize the face in the mirror
i dont reconize the faces i love
i have forgotten
i will remember
i will remember the love i felt
i will remember the hell i was in
i will remember wat i feel
iwill remember wat ive non
the people that think they no me
why cant they no me
the thoughts i think
rnt like they think i do
i look so preppy
i act so preppy
but i think emo thoughts
with blood dripping from my body
it confuses them
it stops them from talking to me
it keeps them from my reach
should they b afraid
should they run
i dont think so
but they clearly do
im eating
my food slipping down my throat
feeling each move it makes
the twists & turns
the places it burns
i loose track of it around my still heart
i try once again to here the sound
it once controlled my life
i was once its prisoner
now i cant remember the sound
i can just feel my food going down
getting compressed
smaller & smaller
i need all the nutrition i can get
blood only does so much for me
it stops the thirst
but not the pain like chocolate does
u were happy about the end
u did it urself
i wouldnt have but...
u just new the right words to say
the way you think
it tells me y
... you hate the world
u wanted it to end
but ...
ur a coward
u couldnt do it urself
so you got me to do it
now im killing myself
now the end has come for you
but it will never find me
no matter wat i want
memories fleeting ... fleeing
memories of you ... of me
memories of happy times
mad times
sad times
bad times
running out of my head
im trying to keep them in
there all i have left
but there they go
running away
fleeing the scene
fighting to b the first to go
u took me
u broke me
u love my pain
i hate you
i need you
i just want to c you go
we dont work
we dont match
we just get hurt the more we try
just let go
just go away
i love to feel pain
it tells me wat i feel is real
the things that happen
the people i meet
the pain keeps it real
instead of a illusion
my mind loves to play
it tricks me all the time
it tells me what I c hasn't happened yet
the car coming on
the sirens in the air
the pain I feel keeps it real
i cant go fast enough
i cant move
i cant b free
ur killing me
just a few seconds more
quietly killing me
ur love is suffacating me
ur overbaring
ur not the hole wide world
let me go
let me live
no one wants to here my thoughts
no one wants me here
no one likes me
im the black sheep
im the one everyone loves to hate
im just like that ...
thats just the way i m
my bodys rotting
decomposing
has been since the day i was born
but that wont get me down
i just live my life
i just do my own thing
if im gonna die
im gonna die happy
im gonna die with a smile on my face
im gonna die with my life fulfilled
if i die i die
if i live i live
i wont b controled
i wont b sad
ill just b me
ill just b happy
ill just b wat i want to b
u cant say anything bad about that
the black of sleep wrappes me up
but its grip slipps
i can c
i can hear
im afraid
the light is coming
the tunnle is burning
flames & bangs
& im still gripped by sleep
im dying
im going to b free
but all freedom costs
the light comes
the alarm rings
i will never remember how my dreams end
just the heat & the flames
& the screams from heaven
& the world the isnt there anymore
the blood draining from ur body
dripping down my chin
soaking into the ground
im watching the life draining from ur body
i cant feel any sorrow for you
all i no ... is its starting to snow
covering up ur body
hiding the scene
the blood has frozen
theres no more mud
the animals are starting tocome
they dont no the show has just begun
u were just the appitizer
just another body ...
lost in these woods
im in pain
thats wat tells me everything is real
the blood that pores from my wounds
the wounds that you gave me
ur killing me
u thirst for more
my blood feeds you
ur thirst keeps you alive
it works both ways
u dont want me to die
u just want me in pain
piece by piece
drop by drop
the end will come
my heart is broken
but there is no more pain
i do not feel
i cant complain
i would rather b rapped up like this
in this unfeeling uncaring body
then b out there with my heart still raw
still feeling every drop you took
i would rather that i have met you
then that i go on without love in my life
because anything is better then b ing alone
at least now i no
life isnt always so empty
u just need to figure out how to fill it
id rather fall then stay with you
the abyse calls with its open heart
it swallows me
with more compassion then you showed to me
it has no mind
it has no touch
it keeps to itself & doesnt ask for much
with ur eyes that search & hands that wander
it makes me wonder
if i was bleeding to death on the floor of ur car
would you get ur mind off the way it stains
if you cut my throat & i bled on you
would you try to stop the crimson flood
u wouldnt
u cant
u dont care
u never will
my pain wont go away
even with you gone
i thought that if you werent there that things would b fine
but i dont think thats gonna happen
nothing will b the same
uve changed my whole life
& you dont no it
i cant go back to wat i was
so ill just look forward to wat i have
i have everything i want
i have wat i need
i just miss ur smile
i just miss you
... can you come back now?
i dont no
i dont no much
i dont no wat i should no
i dont no if i should care
im just here
im just passing by
im just standing in the rain
so people dont c me cry
no 1 noes
no 1 cares
no 1 loves
we just pretend to feel
but i wont do that any more
im just gonna say wat i need
im just gonna do wat i do
im just gonna b free
im just gonna leave
the sky isnt the limit
thats just the name
the world outside is just as far
the world of space is just as big
im gonna aim high
im gonna go far
im just counting the ways
im just counting the cost
i dont no who i am
i dont no wat i am
i have no past
i have no emotions
at least i didnt
then i met you
u make me feel
u make me listen
u make me believe
u give me hope
i dont want any fake memories
i want you here with me
u tell me wat i need to hear
u tell me that you need me
so im telling you this
i dont care about my past
i dont care about the future
i just no that ull b there
like the waves that crash on the ocean
ur so far
ur so close
i no ur there
i can feel ur breath
but we cant b
but you dont no me
the air is holding me here
the ground is swallowing me up
im disappearing into the very reality i hate
it keeps me together
it tears me apart
im just falling apart here
falling & ripping
the earth keeps moving
forcing us apart
keeping us here
falling & ripping
fate keeps joking
keeping us close
forcing us to hide
falling & ripping
life will end
the body is falling
the future is ripping apart
color & swirls
rainbows & curls
blood & gore
screams & horror
life running by
time streaming by
leaving me behind
how can you look so pretty & b so sad
how could the world hurt ur smile wen its backed by steel
how can you live wen love is ur only meal
how can you b so satisfied with the screams in the air
how do you deal with the injustities of the wheel
the world kicks you down
the world doesnt care
the love isnt real
its all ur fault
ur in control of the steer
u think ill come back
u think i want to
im just standing here
ur the one taht left
u let me fall
u killed my hope
i dont give a dam
lets just split
my heart in ur eye
u try to fly
my fortress is strong
it will not fall
& is teh point
if wen you win its gone
u just c a lil bit
there is no big picture yet
it isnt here
it never was
now ur sucked into the jaws
of love that kills
of hate that binds
of the poison we seek
of watever its called
my heart
my mind
they dont work any more
ever since you shut that door
u locked me out
ur all shut in
ur hurting us both
but wats a lil pain
neither will win
since lifes just for a short lil while
we will both die
we will both just leave
but wat will we leave
wat is the point if you dont make a mark
just smile on through
just believe that its true
we will both leave
but my life was more worthwhile
passing through the world
with my eyes sewn close
every1 can c
but no 1 will help me
i stumble through the dark
but now im stuck ....
u cant always get back up
i miss my family
i miss my life
i want to b lil
i want to b free
i want to fly above the clouds
i want to b just me
but every1s gone
& nothings the same
the noise in the house
the people i here
all over the country
or just next door
is some one that feels
just like this lil girl
i dont want to smile anymore
i tired of trying
i just want to cry
if i keep it in anymore i no i will die
i try as hard as i can
i try not to cry
but sumtimes thats the only thing
the only way to go
i cant always run
i cant always hide
so i might as well cry
so im not done with life
i cry wen i have to
i smile wen i dont
there is no way to stop me
there is no way i wont
thats the way i deal with the world outside
face it with a smile
& smile wide
face life with a laugh
cry with a friend
it the only chance you get
try to do this right
try to do ur share
i just hope that theres sumone
that loves us up there
im drowning in the change
u brought it all on me
u made me so happy
now im drowning in wat used to b
life just isnt fair
wen people like you think like that
u took my heart & crushed it
now i come running at the drop of ur hat
i think that you will give me back
wat it was you took
but now i no you wont
& i dont no were else to look
all i no is my love for you
that sum people made me forget
the things they told me
the things that i now regret
the thign i remember through it all
thing thing i cant forget
i will love you
with my last dying breath
watching the rain hitting the ground
the water washing away the sins
they just pile up in the gutters
like garbage does in otehr cities
it takes wat we try to forget
& gives us the way
to let go of how we feel
& let the tears just fall from the sky
love creates life
the world is all formed from love
the pain we go through
it will always b there
but we just gotta keep going & live
so that the world will live on our love for each other
fate is real
but so is life
fate is that you will die
life is the choices you make between the end
the people you meet
the live you live
the things you find funny
the cant b determined by fate
fate is just that life has to end
life is all thats in between
love & happiness
hate & pain
life is good & bad
fate just says that life has to end
closer & closer
im not running any more
im not scared you can come
life is leaving
thats wat it does
death is trying to catch up
it will eat me up
but im not afraid anymore
with one lil touch
with the barest pressure
the life ends
the screams begin
bang bang bang
screams surround
more shots
the life of so many end
just with one lil touch
the bangs ring out again
bang bang bang
more lives gone
just one crazy person
ending the storys of so many people
who gave you the right
dancing in the rain
water mixing with my tears
i no wat this will do to you
the smile that you fake
the tears that ur crying
show wat the future holds
i try to walk
i fall behind
i try to talk
no one hears
i cry so loud
no one sees my tears
im just hanging on
im about to fall
just let me go
just set me free
i cant say wat i want
i cant do wat i want
i cant think my thoughts through
i just go on through
i just keep staying behind
i dont understand the world
i just go along with it ....
they make the choice
u are just there
twisting ur words so no one will care
meening keeps changing
from person to person
just try as hard as you can
all fate can say is that you die
u control ur life
life is wat you do
life is wat you r
life is the story that you rite
life is the way you r
life must end
life must start
the world must turn
the moon must phase
but all in between is up to u
echo echo
changing changing
with each lil bit
echo & change
echo & change
over & over
again & again
my heart is beating
thump thump thump
my life is draining from my body
glop glop glop
the air is wizzing by with no one to hear it
whoosh whoosh whoosh
emptyness surrounds me
the sky is falling down
again & again the story plays out
& again & again the same end
i cant party like those other people
i cant laugh like those other people
i cant b like those other people
i cant c wat they c
i cant get wat they get
i dotn no wat i should do
im so happy im with you
no one really understands
no one really trys to stand
im trying to get up
im trying to rise above
im falling
& everyones pulling me down
c the face in the mirror
c the me i wish to b
so calm & cool
so good for you
so the person i want to b
c the face i have
c the one i am
so wild & free
so good for me
i wanna b both of me
i wanna b the me i wanna b
with out losing the me i am
the only other person i c is the other me
the one i love
the one i hate
the one taht makes me appreciate the me i m
the one in the mirror
the one that everyone sees
the one thats not really me
just the person i like to pretend to b
im a slob
im a hog
i dont like to share
i hate to go day by day liek this
but o well
no one else will listen to the thoughts i like to think
no one else will believe the things i say
shes the only one i love
the other me
i love you for you
so you dont have to
i love me for you
so you dont have to
im fine living just like this
im fine with my world like this
but but but
i no thats not you
i no that you have ur own things to do
i no that you have you own feelings
just trust me
u are fine just the way you r
u are fien with me right here
i will always love you
u rnt the only one in the world
& i no i love u
pain makes us stronger
love makes us whole
sadness shows us wat were missing
hate colors the world
im in the worlds embrace
the hold that wont let go
even if i try
even if i die
memories will b there
songs will have been sung
the world would have nown
i was here
i m gone
everybody dies
we are all alone
we barely touch anothers life
& then they are gone
sadness riegns over us all
seeping into our bones
the lives weve seen
the hearts weve touched
everythign weve seen
so far away
so close to me
close enough to touch
but never together
life just pulls us apart
life isnt fair
ties together by our love
torn apart by the rest of the world
the hate us
we love us
we just want to b together
y cant the just c
y cant they just let us b
... i just want to b you & me
life & death have no more meaning
im just here
im just stuck
never changing
never moving
the mountain stuck on my chest
compressing me
killing me
but i can never die
i dont no me any more
the things i thought i knew
the things i loved with all of my heart
im changing
im forgetting everything important
i cant remember any more
i cant forget the things
i cant keep them in my mind
im scaring myslef
im poisoning everything i touch
i wish i new who i was
i wish the world would stop spinning
i wish life would make sense
i wish things could b normal
i wish i could take back wat i said
i wish that i could b you nger
i wish i could start over
i wish
we came here for different reasons
we stay to b the same
we want to fit in
we all have sumtihng in common
we all no wats going on
none of us are supposed to no
so we just cum here to forget the world
smashing & mixing
together & apart
broken & whole
all the world has lost its mind
one lil thing & it all goes pop
now swirls are dancing & stars are singing
im just following along like the world is like it was
the forever rest is coming
the foever rest is here
ive wanted it for so long
now i can sleep without any fear
the heavens will fall
the heavens will burn
the skys the limit for those with wings
the skys the farthest they will reach
pounding
smashing
grinding
only i can here the noise
its inside my head
its giving me pain
the tears fall down
an outlet to the pain
i dance in the rain
i scream wen i wake up
but im just being who i m
im not pretending to b the nice lil prep
im not pretending to b the goth girl
im just doing wat i do
& im not the wierd one
im not the one who cares if people laugh
im not the one who pretending
the blood falls like rain
the sky is forever stained
the wind holds our screams
the sun burns our dreams
the world doesnt no
life has changed its mind
now i want to die
just leave behind the world
just separate myself
just b free from wats expected of me
time runs by without bing watched
the tock of ur heart
the tick of the clock
again & again
without bing heard
time flutters by like a humming bird
we are together
we are lost in the world outside
we dont have a way to get id
but we no we wont hide
were just gonna put up with it
let it b
change wen we need to
& encourage you & me
we wont stay lost
well get inside
the doors wont close
& leave us behind
my thoughts drive me mad
wen they see you so sad
so guilty & happy
full of its all my fault thoughts
i can taste the sorrow in my throat
i can feel that you dont blame me
i can see that you dont care
but i still feel that way
i cant stay away
i cant stay with you
im poison to the air you breath
im poison to myself
just sadness is left
just the end to live thru
everything is so heavy
i cant go on any more
my eyes just want to close
my heart just wont hit the ground
the pain is overwhelming
the life i have is ending
the ending is just beginning
time tastes bitter
& kills us all
the sickness no one can cure
we swim in the tides
we live in the currents
we go on & on forever
& we end just as fast
im stuck in the maybes of the world
the if onlys of a girl
the screams of the dying
the fear of the living
im stuck in the ment to bes
the supposed to bes
the way i think it should b
the story im in wont meet its end
the things i no dont care
bitter & sweet
all wrapped in a treat
its burns ur tounge
& fills ur tum tum
its goes down ur throat
& makes its own lil moat
just one & ur done
& ur vitim is gone
the bark of the tree
is so sweet to me
as cinnomon clouds my head
i go to bed
& sleep with the morning sun
im standing all alone
in the middle of the crowd
people that dont no me looking down there nose
they dont no
they shouldnt judge
they will anyway
its the story of everyone
not everyone will see wat you show
not everyone will care
not everyone will like you
you shouldn't really care
nothing is everywere
nothing is sumting
nothing is the place we go wen we sleep
nothing is were we put things we dont want to keep
nothing is a thing we have
nothing is a place we go
nothing is everywere
life isnt like a circle
life is a spiral
growing smaller & smaller
shrinking each day
just pretend for me
that ur happy
just pretend for me
that you dont no
just pretend for me
that life will go on
just pretend
that you will always love me
just pretend
that you body is ur soul
just pretend
that you will change
just pretend
that you will b
forever with me
the tears i cry i never seen
the things i seen are never there
my heads on backwards
my brain needs replacing
life isnt fair
death isnt near
the end is farther then i thought
the start isnt in my line of sight
im stuck in the middle of the everyday
im held in place& i dont no y
im just going to hide away from you
im just going to b free for a while
im just going to b me
im just going to drop my smile
im bright & happy & as hyper as can b
but inside my chest sadness reigns over me
it crushes all my dreams
it makes me do things i shouldnt
like starting a fight
like ignorign my friends
like being so different from the real me
it crushes down on me
this weight that i cant see
its tearing me apart & ill never b
as happy as i seem
im stuck with the past & the scars i have
the pain that they came with
& the memories they hold
the scraped knees of a kid just learnign to walk
& the knowledge that you didnt care
the scars on my heart will never heal
just like the scars you never saw
the pain you caused me
the tears you couldnt c
u caused me to lose so much
& ur back again just to say goodbye
the rain outside comes as a happy thing
no one really notices it
its washing away the sin put there
its washing away the thoughts soaked in
it comes down softer then my tears
its just falling from the sky with nothing to do
it washes away the meaning of my tears
it says that nobody really cares
but i cry harder then wen you were there
staring at the sky asking god to let you die
& now ur gone & the rain washes away the only proof i had left
that you were by my side
the past i dont no
the things i cant remember
the way you say my name
it says we have sumting special
it says we had sumting nice
but i dont no any more
i cant remember ur face
i dont no wats going on
i just feel so alone
away from my lief
far away from me
lives the one that meens the most
the story is one of love
the end is one of death
it always ends the same
the stars keep there orbits
the history that repeats will never end
my past is holding me back
my past keeps me scared
my past holds me were i m
my past wont disappear
my past makes the future clear
my past tells me wat to do
my past tells me wat i feel
my past keeps me from you
my past continues to b my every day
i try so hard to make you c
i try so hard to help you on ur way
but you wont listen to me
u dont here a word i say
i try to tell wat to do
u say that you dont have to
i try to keep you from the day
u just say ur going to play
stay away from the light
u thrive in the night
the darkness is in you
but you dont listen
u just want to leave
u just want to feel
u just dont really care
the emptiness kills us off
one by one
drip by drip
we kill ourselves
with just one lick
it takes control
& beats us dead
while it takes control of our head
the angels in ur life go unnoticed
the world is held in heavens arms but no one cares
again and again
we are saved from ourselfs
again and again we kill ourselfs
the world ends each & every day
& we all kill it in our own way
the tears of angels fall from the sky
the end of the world is stopped by one guy
hes dead its said
but the world doesnt care
just as long as its still there
the darkness is shineing
the light is fadeing
softly leaving the world behind
scare of our minds
we drive it away
wen we ask it to stay
with the knifes we hold in our fists
the darkness is coming
& taking ur soul
the thoughts in ur head
tell us more then you no
the pain you feel isnt unique
so put ur head done & just try to sleep
life will go on
love is still here
hell is wat awaits you
if you continue on here
uv gone away
& i feel the pain
uve always felt this way
no ing the secret isnt the best
no ing the reasons dont always make sense
im all alone
im done with this game
im just wondering if you thought the same
my stomache full
my eyes red
you r blood dripping from my chin
the scent so sweet
it makes me sick
full of horror & regret
the taste of you r last thoughts
the call of you r blood
the screams that rip from ur throat
you are afraid of me
u promised you would never b
but i promised not to do this
so i guess the blame is evenly split
blood streaming
people screeming
im dripping
ur dieing
my stomache is filling
ur heart is stopping
the crowd is watching
its sum trick
it has to b
every1 nos me
my name
my age
my friends
every1 nos
but no one nos
i kill with one look
i dont drink from a brook
the blood in a body
still warm & bloody
the murderers bed
the monsters head
the teeth
the eyes
all are showing
all are mine
blood is like water
refreshing & filling
blood is like the sun
warm & cancer giving
blood is my lifeline
in a literal sense
blood is a wall
i wish it were a fence
it separates me
it pulls me apart
it pains me to kill
a still beating heart
the spring in ur step
the twinkle in ur eye
the smile on ur face
make me ask y
u no the secret
u no the pain
u no you wont ever b human again
u say it doesnt matter
u say it never will
i no the real you
the pain will over fill
laughter & sunshine
r all very good
but so are the screams in my nieghboor hood
it all disappears
in a slight quiet manner
& no 1 remembers the rest of the hour
the blood they saw
is just red paint
the body they saw was part of sum elabrate prank
the news just lies
or else wed b ded
turn that thing off
before it goes thro ur head
wandering
watching
seeing it all
the love
the hate
the things not seen
i c it all
i no it all
the names
the gods
the reasons y
im wandering , lost
but i no all
my skin is cold
but i still feel
I feel wat i wood
wat i reely shood
I feel fright
I feel love
I feel the warmth of the sun
I feel th enice crisp air
I see the snow
I no wat i should feel
I feel but i dont reconize
I dont reconize the face in the mirror
I dont reconize the faces I love
I have forgotten
I will remember
I will remember the love I felt
I will remember the hell I was in
I will remember wat i feel
I will remember wat ive known