DISCLAIMER: I don't own them...if I did I would do terrible things to them... but I'll stop there I don't want to give too much away!

WARNING: This is Yoai love and will have some boy on boy mentionings and lots of gay love..if you don't like it SUCK IT AND LEAVE!!

Rated M for Language and maybe some boy on boy. (.)

Matt's head felt like it was exploding as he squinted attempting to focus all the light that was streaming into the room. He touched his soft blonde locks only to feel moisture. He looked at his hands to see crimson coating his fingers. He tried to sit up, feeling oddly cold and increasingly dizzy, panicking as the he spun, the little room swimming in his eyes as he reached out to grab the something to catch him as he felt himself falling, slipping into the blackness that threatened to envelop him.

Footsteps scurried from his room and disappeared down the stairs of his complex and he knew he was alone. Alone and wounded. He thought for sure he was going to die there as he lay bleeding on his floor. Tears filled his crystal blue eyes as he thought of Tai, their sleep over last night where he fell asleep in his arms safe and warm. It was so cold. He was chilled to the bone. Where was his Tai. He didn't want to die without saying goodbye to his best friend, his lover.

All of a sudden out of no where he felt someone grip him firmly, holding on to him, protecting him and he felt warm as he closed his eyes to quiet the churning in his stomach that accompanied the dizzy feeling. He heard his name being yelled, muffled in a panicked voice coming from above him. He opened his eyes and through the mist of the morning light, he saw an angel before closing his eyes and letting the darkness take over.

Taichi Yagami paced the floor waiting for news from the Doctor on news about Yamato. Tears fell freely from his cocoa colored eyes as he walked the corridor next to his room for the 52nd time in a half hour wringing his hands impatiently. His sister Hikari was curled up like a kitten sleeping on Matt's little brother Takeru, or TK as the digidestined grew up calling him, as he watched her through crystal blue eyes that mirrored his brother's with a tear stained smile, obviously grateful for her presence and Tai wondered if he would ever get to hold Matt again, the way TK was holding his sister. Guilt racked his face as he punched the wall nearest to him, angry and defeated.

'if I had just stayed with him today instead of going to that soccer meet none of this would have happened... he wouldn't be...' a groan of pain, not from the throbbing in his hand, he was oblivious to that, but from the sorrow and grief that had filled his soul, weighing him down. A soft hand fell on his shoulder and he turned to face the Honey colored eyes that stared at him with concern.

"Tai you can't blame yourself. There was no way you knew that an over zealous fanatic was going to break into his apartment and try to hurt him. It's better that you weren't there. If you had been you might have been hurt too. At least you were safe and able to save him and bring him to the hospital in time.." Sora reasoned with the goggle-headed leader as he stared at his sneakers. If he hadn't left his cleats under Matt's bed he would have never gone back and found him. It was lucky, but he couldn't help thinking...

'If I hadn't left at all maybe I would have been able to fight whoever it was. I mean they had a gun but I could have fought them and maybe they would have shot me instead of my poor Yama.' Tai's head raced as all these thoughts swam in his head but he just nodded to Sora, not wanting to worry her any more than she already was. Her relationship with Matt had been short lived in Middle School but their friendship had flourished from that, Sora's easy going personality simply accepting he was gay and taking him in as another girlfriend...the only person happier was Mimi, declaring now she had a new shopping buddy, Sora more interested in Soccer than shopping. So now in High School they were all just as close as the had been in the digital world and Tai coming out had been just as easy, his friends simply accepting him. After all he hadn't changed at all, still loving sports and hating sappy movies, the only thing that had changed was... he'd fallen in love with his best friend...who happened to be a guy.

Even his parents, though upset that they would never get a grandchild from him, told him they had seen the way he used to look at Matt and could tell from the age of 11 that he and Matt were meant to be. Tai had just hugged them both and told them not to worry, Kari and TK would give them more than enough grand babies when they were older. Everyone laughed but Kari and TK who just blushed furiously.

Tai sighed as the memories flooded his mind, sobbing again he fell to the ground. Sora simply sat next to him and took his hand as they sat there and waited...it was all they could do.

The clicking of heels came running down the hall way at an alarmingly high speed. Tai who had dozed off looked at his clock wondering how long they had been there. An hour and a Half. He wondered what was taking the doctors so long? The sound got closer and Tai knew exactly who it was without looking up.

"hey Meems, thanks for coming" Tai said to the pair of hot pink heels that stood in front of him. He looked up and smiled gratefully. the Digidestined came together no matter what and apparently she had been on a date, taking in the tight pink sundress that hugged her swimsuit model figure perfectly and the matching pink clutch.

"don't be silly. it's Matt. He's like a sister to me" Mimi joked hoping to get a smile from Tai. When all he could muster was a half hearted chuckle, Mimi's face became very somber.

"Yamato is more than a friend. He is Family. We are all Family. As soon as I got the text, Joe and I left the restaurant immediately, we would have been here sooner but we stopped to pick up Izz." Mimi said in a soothing but determined voice. "Matt will be fine. He just needs us here for him. and we will be."

Tai stood up on shaky feet and hugged her, staring her Eye to Eye, the heels helping make it easy.

"Thank you. you have no Idea how glad We both are to have you guys as friends." he sobbed as he hugged her affectionately.

"It's no problem, any of us here would stop what we doing in a heartbeat for aonther digidestined. The younger ones have been notified and Dai's parents are bringing them shortly, and Joe is parking the car. He and izzy should be here..." before she could finish her sentence her cell phone rang.

"Sorry" Mimi replied sheepishly as she anwered her glittery pink cell. "Emergency still...no they still haven't said anything that I know of, they're keeping us in the dark... only his parents they're in there now...Okay...okay... yeah 3rd floor. Love you too...see you in 5" shutting the phone Mimi turned to inform the others. "That was Joe. He'll be here in 5 minutes. He is doing his pre-med here so he's gonna talk to his mentor the chairman of the Hospital and see if we can be informed every hour on the hour even though we're not family" she informed.

Tai sighed. "Thank you guys so much. If only I could go see him. If I could tell I love him, I could fix this, make him wake up..." Tai choked on a sob as He Mimi and Sora hugged each other, Takeru watching from his seat with Kari still curled on his lap, greatful his brother had such good friends and such a caring boyfriend.

Joe and Izzy walked up to the others, Mimi pulling Joe and Izzy into the hug, and they stood like that for what felt like hours and just prayed.

The Chairman had pulled through and although no one but family was allowed to see him the digidestined were informed every hour on their friend's condition and TK, being Matt's brother was allowed in every half hour for 10 minutes to see him.

"The hole in Ishida Yamato's head was caused by a bullet grazing his temple. while it missed his head he lost a severe amount of blood, being so close to his main artery and he will probably be comatose until he is stabilized. We're moving him from Emergency to ICU tomorrow.Then you can see him. I would suggest going home and getting some sleep for school, and coming to visit him after" the doctor informed. They all thanked him for his assistance but they all knew that they weren't going anywhere until their friend came home safe with them. The school notified by the police of the incident and having already received notes from all the parents (some authentic some forged...) excused them from classes, except Joe who was older than the rest and in pre med, which was fine with him, allowing him to keep a closer eye on his childhood friend and fellow digidestined.

Each ot them taking turns to go home and shower and sleep and get a change of clothes and pickingk up any missed assignments only to return back to the hospital.

Except Tai. Kari made sure she bought him clothes and him mother bringing a Tupperware of food for him and all of his homework each time she dropped Kari off.

"I understand you're worried but you need to eat and do your homework Tai. I'm letting you and Kari miss school but I dont want you to fail. And Matt wouldn't want you to on his behalf either. You need to keep your strength up for him." his mom rationalized. As much as she loved and worried about her babies, she had finally come to terms with accepting that they were 16 and 18 respectively, and both wise beyond their years, and she had to let them make their own decisions. The most she could do now was help where she was needed. He belonged to Ishida Yamato now.

Sora returned from her break, wearing a pair of capris and a white tanktop with a giant yellow sunflower on it.Yama loved sunflowers. He smiled knowingly at her as she put her duffel bag down, smiling smally at him. She pulled out a bag from her duffel bag. It said Spencer's gifts on it. She removed a book from the bag and walked over to Tai, offering it to him.It was a notebook,black with the two symbols for Male ingraved in the cover with the Kanji for Love under it.

"I figured you could write letters to Matt in it, and read it to him while he's in ICU, then when he comes to he can read everything for himself and see how loved he really is." Sora looked up at him causing Tai to realize how much taller he was. It seemed like it had been just this summer that Sora towered over him during soccer and Matt used to poke his baby fat...but that had been four years ago, and now Sora was a beautiful lady, Joe was a future doctor, his baby sister had a serious boyfriend that everyone was sure she would marry, not that they didn't say that when she was 8..., Mimi was a knockout and Matt, Matt was a rockstar. And the light of his life.

'Please God, don't take my light away' Tai silently begged as he accepted the gift from Sora and embraced her.

Tai sat in the emergency room as they moved Yamato to ICU. His heart broke as he saw Matt on the gurney, pale from loss of blood, his eyes shut and his cheeks lifeless, a mask strapped to his face helping him breath. A bandage holding a heavy pack of gauze to his head covered his pale blonde hair, Even his hair looked lifeless, pale and matted with blood in some places, sharply contrasting the soft golden locks that never seemed to be out of place.

Tai pulled out his notebook Sora had given him and the ridiculous pink sparkly pen he'd gotten from Mimi and began to write.

My Darling Yama,

I fear for your life. I know you'll be okay, somehow you always manage to pull through, but I'm still scared. You look so lifeless and helpless, I feel like I've failed you. I'm your leader, your best friend, and your lover. I'm supposed to protect you and I've failed. I hope you can forgive me when you wake up. I need you so much. I've never been so scared and alone before. I've been here since yesterday waiting for you to open your eyes. Please open your eyes Yama. I need you. I'm lost without you.

Forever yours,

Chi.

The other chapters won't be nearly this long, and some might just be a letter entry, whatever strikes my fancy. Hopefully I can breathe life into a dying Fandom.

Love you all, to all the authors out there that updated, thank you.

To any fans that liked it, harass me to update, I forget, but I'm gonna try to do better with this one.

Sorry if there are typos I'm on notepad which means no spell check... (YIKES)

well read and review I'll start working on the next chapter!