Sinner's Story
I once knew happiness in my unpleasant past
I once knew love when they still took me as I was
I once felt belongingness; I knew where I belonged
I once knew the place
Where I could unashamedly sing my song
I once had beauty and glamour from head to toe
I once was respected; they had needn't bowed to show
I once had dignity; I once had unmatchable pride
I once had influence as a vehicle for life's ride
All these things and many more my brazen heart had known
All these disappeared when I suddenly became alone…
All at once I was made to walk
Unaccompanied through the streets
I was forced to kneel and cut my pride
And dance to different beats
I was made to live with what I could have
Forgetting honor and love
I was made to do what I never would've done
I was made to sell myself
If only family and friends hadn't gone
I would still have comfortably slept
But it was my own fault too
That I was miserably exposed
To the cruel world and harshness of life
I'd chosen to be my road
All I wanted was a reckless life
With no rules and none to keep them
In the course forgetting what
Are life's precious, priceless gems
In a week I had made more company
Than I could ever have had at home
But unlike the way if I was still there
Even with "friends" I was alone
There was a difference with the friends I knew
And the friends I continually met
The friends back home, they stayed forever
The others never lasted a breath
Maybe of course except for one
A man who once knew me…
I had seen him before so I knew that it was he
He was a quiet one who thought,
Not played and joined the rest
He was often the forgotten one
Though it was obvious he was the best
He was considered the lesser of his brother
Though I always thought him better than the other
He was a tall and attractive lad
With an eye that'd drive you mad
It seemed when I saw him he had run away
And like me, his friend, had become a stray
But when I spoke to him after a while
I learned that he had been forced to remove his smile
When I was yearning to get out of that place
He too was wishing he could do it someday
He was not happy with the way he was not wanted
And figured if he left he would not be hunted
Since it seemed to him, if I who was "loved" was quickly forgotten
What would they care about him, who they noticed who knew when
So he walked away to try his luck
At the outside world without turning back
He found he enjoyed it and would stay there forever
Not wanting to return to his loathed enemy-his brother
He was the only friend I knew
Who told to me the things that were true
So I trusted him with all my heart
Even if in years we were so much apart
But one day I learned he was purely evil
He was almost a match for the most feared devil
I didn't want to fall into any trap
He secretly might have set for my sap
So like before I left him without a trace
Not knowing where to, not knowing which place
I wandered around under the stars and the moon
Wishing I would find a new home soon
But with more doses of the world's harshness and cold
I knew what was the message to me was being told
I found the courage to return home disregarding shame
And somehow, someway clear my dirt-smeared name
Knowing already the lessons from what stupidity I've done
Knowing pleasure and adventure are so easily gone
I went back begging them for their mercy
Reminding them that once I was part of their family
But they shunned me and didn't want to hear me again
They said I was no longer welcome in their righteous den
Sadness and shock, grief and despair
Were all too obvious in my distressed stare
Still they rejected me, told me to go away
Of course I couldn't-there was no place to stay
All the happiness with them I had ever known
Had all vanished into the night
Only memories of the past were all that was left
Memories and nothing else were remaining in the light
Not knowing what to do, since they all seemed not to care
I could not fight; I gave in to the power of despair
But somewhere among their stone cold hearts
Rising through their stubborn mob
Was a young soul who understood my part
A brilliant angel who believed I deserved a new start
A new start to clean the sins of the past
A new life where I could treasure what really lasts
And encouraged by my savior's words
I unleashed my soul and told them all
In doing so, I was saved from the fall-
The decay all roses encounter when they simply refuse to wither
I humbled myself and regretted the past
I did what all sinners must
I asked forgiveness and they listened
The moment they understood
And so I was able to begin a new life
With a promised to only live in good
I left the pride, the beauty behind
Knowing what should be in mind
Happiness and joy do not depend on beauty
Glamour and influence wither
Only true love and a life of the righteous
Are the only things that matter
So now as I begin a new journey
With all that I've learned embedded in me
I hope to live better in this new life
Once more living in the shine of the light
No more coldness, only warmth
An eternal summer after the storm
No more hatred, no more cruelty
Only love and endless mercy
I raise my face to see the Everlasting
And I see the life before me
A life of happiness, a life of love
A life clothed in His eternal glory
I once knew happiness in my unpleasant past
I once knew love when they still took me as I was
I once felt belongingness; I knew where I belonged
I once knew the place
Where I could unashamedly sing my song
I once had beauty and glamour from head to toe
I once was respected; they had needn't bowed to show
I once had dignity; I once had unmatchable pride
I once had influence as a vehicle for life's ride
All these things and many more my brazen heart had known
All these disappeared when I suddenly became alone…
All at once I was made to walk
Unaccompanied through the streets
I was forced to kneel and cut my pride
And dance to different beats
I was made to live with what I could have
Forgetting honor and love
I was made to do what I never would've done
I was made to sell myself
If only family and friends hadn't gone
I would still have comfortably slept
But it was my own fault too
That I was miserably exposed
To the cruel world and harshness of life
I'd chosen to be my road
All I wanted was a reckless life
With no rules and none to keep them
In the course forgetting what
Are life's precious, priceless gems
In a week I had made more company
Than I could ever have had at home
But unlike the way if I was still there
Even with "friends" I was alone
There was a difference with the friends I knew
And the friends I continually met
The friends back home, they stayed forever
The others never lasted a breath
Maybe of course except for one
A man who once knew me…
I had seen him before so I knew that it was he
He was a quiet one who thought,
Not played and joined the rest
He was often the forgotten one
Though it was obvious he was the best
He was considered the lesser of his brother
Though I always thought him better than the other
He was a tall and attractive lad
With an eye that'd drive you mad
It seemed when I saw him he had run away
And like me, his friend, had become a stray
But when I spoke to him after a while
I learned that he had been forced to remove his smile
When I was yearning to get out of that place
He too was wishing he could do it someday
He was not happy with the way he was not wanted
And figured if he left he would not be hunted
Since it seemed to him, if I who was "loved" was quickly forgotten
What would they care about him, who they noticed who knew when
So he walked away to try his luck
At the outside world without turning back
He found he enjoyed it and would stay there forever
Not wanting to return to his loathed enemy-his brother
He was the only friend I knew
Who told to me the things that were true
So I trusted him with all my heart
Even if in years we were so much apart
But one day I learned he was purely evil
He was almost a match for the most feared devil
I didn't want to fall into any trap
He secretly might have set for my sap
So like before I left him without a trace
Not knowing where to, not knowing which place
I wandered around under the stars and the moon
Wishing I would find a new home soon
But with more doses of the world's harshness and cold
I knew what was the message to me was being told
I found the courage to return home disregarding shame
And somehow, someway clear my dirt-smeared name
Knowing already the lessons from what stupidity I've done
Knowing pleasure and adventure are so easily gone
I went back begging them for their mercy
Reminding them that once I was part of their family
But they shunned me and didn't want to hear me again
They said I was no longer welcome in their righteous den
Sadness and shock, grief and despair
Were all too obvious in my distressed stare
Still they rejected me, told me to go away
Of course I couldn't-there was no place to stay
All the happiness with them I had ever known
Had all vanished into the night
Only memories of the past were all that was left
Memories and nothing else were remaining in the light
Not knowing what to do, since they all seemed not to care
I could not fight; I gave in to the power of despair
But somewhere among their stone cold hearts
Rising through their stubborn mob
Was a young soul who understood my part
A brilliant angel who believed I deserved a new start
A new start to clean the sins of the past
A new life where I could treasure what really lasts
And encouraged by my savior's words
I unleashed my soul and told them all
In doing so, I was saved from the fall-
The decay all roses encounter when they simply refuse to wither
I humbled myself and regretted the past
I did what all sinners must
I asked forgiveness and they listened
The moment they understood
And so I was able to begin a new life
With a promised to only live in good
I left the pride, the beauty behind
Knowing what should be in mind
Happiness and joy do not depend on beauty
Glamour and influence wither
Only true love and a life of the righteous
Are the only things that matter
So now as I begin a new journey
With all that I've learned embedded in me
I hope to live better in this new life
Once more living in the shine of the light
No more coldness, only warmth
An eternal summer after the storm
No more hatred, no more cruelty
Only love and endless mercy
I raise my face to see the Everlasting
And I see the life before me
A life of happiness, a life of love
A life clothed in His eternal glory