I'm writing this fanfic because I think the way everyone reacts when Oliver gets back isn't right. They should have known that Oliver has PTSD, or at least realize he must have changed. This is placed before Oliver attacks his mother, when she wakes him from a nightmare. Nightmares and flashbacks are in italics.

Chapter one returning home.

Oliver's POV

I'm on the Gambit again, I know it isn't real, but it feels real. It feels like it is all happening again. I hear the thunder and the crack, I yell for Sara as she is being pulled under. "No Sara, No!"

I feel something touching my back and act on instinct. I turn around and flip the person who touched me over, letting one hand come down on the throat. "Oliver," I hear someone screaming at me. It's Walter, I recognize the voice. Then I see it's my mother I have pinned down to the floor. I quickly release her and stumble back. " I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." I keep whispering. "It's alright sweetheart, you're home now." My mom says trying to calm me. "No mom it isn't," I reply calmly " I could have hurt you, or worse..."

I stand up and walk to the door with my head held low. I'm ashamed of what I did. "Oliver, where are you going?" My mother asks. "I'm going to the kitchen, to drink some water. It's not like I'm going to get more than a few hours sleep. But you should go back to sleep. I'll be fine." I say, and leave the room. I know that my mother will come after me.

"You should talk about it to someone. You shouldn't keep it all to yourself." She says walking up behind me. "I just don't talk about." I say sounding sad. She replies sharply:"Why not, why do refuse to talk about it?" I know I shouldn't say it, but I say it anyway. "Because you don't want to know, and I don't want to remember." For a while we don't say anything, both lost in our own thoughts. "I'm going back upstairs," I say and leave the kitchen.

2 days later, 9:30 in the morning.

I noticed the van outside and I know they are here because my mother called them. I can't believe my own mother is sending me to a ward because I don't want to talk about what happened.

I walk down the stairs towards my mother, who is standing in the corridor, talking to some guy in a suit. Probably the one who is going to take me to the ward. I spot three other guys is suits, who are standing near the exits.

"Mom, what are these people doing here?" I ask to see if my suspicions are right. "They are here to help you. You need help Oliver." She says it with a said smile on her face. I see one of the guys in suits raise a tranquilizer gun. I turn and knock they dart away with my hand. "Please, no drugs." I say, but I know it's to late as I feel an other dart hit my neck. I pull it out, but the drug is already working and everything goes black.

I'm in the life raft, I see my dad pull the gun out of his pocket. "Only one of us is going to make it, and it's going to be him." He says it while shooting the crewmember. "Right my wrongs, and save our city." He pull the trigger and falls down. "Nooo dad, No."

When I wake up I don't move and keep breathing even to let it look like I'm still asleep. I try to become aware of my surroundings and notice I'm cuffed to the bed. I also notice that there are two other people in the room and listen to their conversation.

"Did you see him knock that dart away? That was awesome." One guy says. The other guy replies: "Yeah it was a pretty cool move."

They talk some more and I learn that they are both around the same age and that they are pretty good friends. I also l learn that the ward, where I am right now, is placed just outside the city. Then it's quiet for a while.

One of the guys begins speaking again: "He probably won't wake in an other hour." I feel like that would be a nice moment to interrupt. "Wouldn't be so sure about that," I say as I open my eyes, "I'm already awake for 10 minutes."

"Wow looks like he has more awesome tricks." Is the only reply I get. "I enjoyed the sleep but can you please take off the handcuffs now?" I say it with a smal smile on my face. "That wasn't sleep, you were drugged." One of the guys says. "It counts as sleep for me." I say, telling the truth for once.

They wouldn't take the handcuffs off but they did leave the room after a few minutes, so I took them off by putting my thumb out of place. I go sit in the corner of the room, and try to meditate the way Tatsu taught me. I sit there for about a half hour, when I hear two people talking.

"He has been sitting like that for almost thirty minutes now." I hear one guy say. "It looks like he's meditating, or something like that. Pretty weird if you ask me." An other guys replies. I can't resist the urge so I roll my eyes and shout: "If you guys want to gossip about me, do it where I can't hear!" I think about how their faces must look right now and grin.

It takes about 10 more minutes before the shrink arrives. "Hello mister Queen, nice to see you are awake." I try my hardest to not roll my eyes at him. "normally I would have said it is a pleasure meeting you, but because of the circumstances it's really not, so I won't lie." I say, from my place on the ground. "Oh and please call me Oliver, mister Queen was my father."

"So you don't want to be called mister Queen because it reminds you of your father?" Is his reply. "No I don't just don't like being called mister Queen." I answer thinking about Amanda Waller. "Everything has a reason, so why don't you tell me yours?" I grin at his words and reply:"My reason will be here in a minute."

And I was right, after a minute sitting in silence a man shows up. "There is someone who wants to see him." The shrink raises a eyebrow at me. I just grin and give him a 'I told you so' look.

Amanda Waller enters the room, looks from the doctor to me and says:"So mister Queen, this is the shrink they gave you." I reply while rolling my eyes, "Yeah my mom arranged it, still have thank her but she hasn't come to visit me yet. They even gave me guards, like they will stop me if I want to leave."

The shrink looks at Waller and asks: "Who are you? And how do you know Oliver." Waller sighs and answers in that way only she can. "My name is Amanda Waller, I am the head of ARGUS and mister Queen has worked for me for a while." The shrink looks at me and waits for me to confirm what the she-devil had said. "Well 'working' is a funny way to describe it for sure, but apart from that she is telling the truth." I say. "Have slept with her?" shrink asks probably well aware of my old habits. "No thanks, I'd rather get tortured again." The last part is more of a whisper but I know he heard it anyway. Damn it I shouldn't have said that. I curse myself in Russian which of course doesn't help my case either. I wonder what I got myself into this time.

TBC...

Authors note: I hope you liked it, next chapter will be up soon. English is not my original language so I'm sorry for all the mistakes. Please leave a review, it would really make me a happy girl.