Enjoy this extremely short one-shot, partially inspired by the song "La costa del silencio" by Mägo de Oz (which I do not own) a beautiful song you should listen to.

TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide.

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When Chase got in the hydro-loop and back to the island the weather was bright and the sun high in the sky.

It felt as if the weather was mocking him.

You're so small,

Nobody cares,

Your pain is nothing,

You're alone.

When he got back to the academy Douglas tried to take him to the infirmary but he didn't listen.

I'm okay he told him, he told everyone.

Even though he hurt all over and the blood was soaking his mission suit.

I'm okay he told everyone he encountered as he walked to the door.

And when he was all alone and outside, walking on the hot sand, he kept repeating as a mantra.

I'm okay.

And he dropped on his side, tears streaming down his face and blood tinting the sea waves red.

The salty water burned as it coated his wounds but he couldn't bring himself to care for his spirit ached a thousand times harder.

Because her face kept appearing in his mind, with pale skin and blood seeping through her beautiful hair.

For she was not okay, not at all, she was dead.

And it was his entire fault.

He broke down.

And wept, and screamed at the wind who did not gave him any answer.

When the tears stopped he felt tired, so tired of fighting.

He got up and delved in the ocean until only his face could be seen.

She kept appearing in his mind and she was all around, in the clouds, in the sun, in the blue and his own skin.

He stared at his hands, the hands of a murderer.

Since he was already a killer why not? And he took the gun attached to his belt and caressed the soft surface, he was so tired.

When he stared at the sun the luminary seemed to stare back.

"It would have been much more beautiful to die facing the stars, so poetic" He thought.

But the sky remained light blue and the sun kept glaring at him.

The sound of the bullet was drowned by the same waves that engulfed his body seconds later.

And maybe the sea liked the taste of guilty blood because Chase's body was never found.

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I seem to write depressing stuff a lot lately.

Who was that girl? No idea. Maybe Kate or Sabrina or your own Mary sueish OC we all know is a self-insert (don't deny it we all have one :P)

So yeah. Do not suicide.

It hurts you family and friends so much, I've been there, if you have suicidal thoughts seek professional help and remember I'm always here :D

Tamo ;)