Quick little drabble on Andromeda Black. I really do feel sorry for her :(
This is the first fanfiction I've written in over a year. I'm a little rusty.
This is for TheWordFountain for always listening to me complaining, and has become quite the inspiration. Love you Wordy. *Does heart with hands*
Sometimes she tries to not to think of Ted, tries not to yearn for him. Because maybe if she doesn't remember, it wouldn't hurt so much that he is gone. But it's an insult to his memory to pretend he never walked these halls, never looked at muggle books and tried to explain them to her, never rocked their daughter to sleep at night, and never held their daughter's son. But maybe it's easier, to pretend the abbess isn't there, than to embrace the void within herself. She want's to lie down, to sleep beside him, but no she can't. She has to be strong.
Because what is Andromeda Black Tonks if not strong?
There's always someone hanging on to her, telling her she can never rest. When he left her, he kissed her lips and told her to never forget him, he'd be coming back, he just needed to help the order. But what ever happened, he told her to live, to stay strong for Dora.
Dora.
Sometimes she tries not to think of Dora. Screaming for mercy at the hand of a sister she once loved. She thinks if she wishes it hard enough, Dora will come bursting through the front door. In all her life she'd never loved another like Nymphadora Tonks. Her precious child. She pleads for mercy from a God she does not believe in.
She begs for death.
Death would be so easy.
But she has to stay strong. But for Teddy this time.
Sometimes she likes to pretend she can look at Teddy, and not see Dora and Ted and everything else she's ever loved. That he's not a reminder of all she has lost. That maybe when his hair turns a beautiful shade of bubblegum pink, that she doesn't remember where she's seen it before. But how can you look in Teddy's eyes and not see the love and devotion of a mother that died for her child.
Something she never got the chance to do.
Sometimes she likes to pretend she rescued them. That they never died. But sometime's when she looks at Teddy….they didn't die.
Sometimes.