'I know I couldn't do what I'm about to do to your face. I couldn't take your eyes burning into mine. Your eyes are what always did it for me. The very first time I saw you I remember looking into those intense eyes and telling myself, ' I'm going to fall in love with him.' You do everything with such passion that it's hard not to fall in love with you. I still love you very much and that is what makes what I'm about to do that much harder. Just know that it's all for the best.
By the time you read this, I'll be checked in at a rehab center. I need to get help, and I don't want to taint you with my illness. I know that you want to be here with me, but you can't. I can't let you see me like this. Right now, I'm not worthy of you. Right now, I am everything you hate. I have fought this before, but never like this. I've always been alone, and the only reason for me to quit was my job. Now my reason is you. I want to give you everything you deserve, everything you dream of. That is, if you'll have me back after all of this. I hope you understand that as cliche as it may sound it's not you, it's me. Don't blame yourself either. This all started before I met you, and has nothing to do with anything you have ever done. All the fights we had, all the arguments were my fault.
I know you know what's wrong. You're a brilliant young man, another thing I love about you. I'm sure you've had it figured out for quite some time now. I just wouldn't let you say anything. Whenever you tried, I'd always start accusing you of not trusting me. You shouldn't have trusted me, but you did anyway. I love you for that, I love you for everything you done for me, for us. Now let me do something for you, for myself and for our future. I'll see you in thirty days, if you let me.
Love
Raven'
CM Punk slipped the letter down into his jeans pocket and wiped the few tears he had streaming down his face away.
" What's wrong?" Julio asked from the doorway. Punk jumped, forgetting that Julio had been behind him.
" Nothing, nothing." Punk said.
" Where's Raven? What were you reading? Why are you crying?" Julio asked, walking over to his team mate.
" You ask too many questions." Punk said smiling slightly.
" So. Now answer them." Julio said.
" Raven had to take a trip. He'll be back, and we didn't break up. Don't worry about the rest." Punk said. " You can go now. Thanks for dropping me off."
" You gonna be okay?"
" Yeah, I'm gonna be fine." Punk said sitting down at the waffle house table that he and Raven had for kitchen table. " We're gonna be fine."
Author's note: HOLA!! Okay, here's the scoop. I typed this story out last night, but the computer decided it was going to be a prick and freeze right before I saved it, so this is kind of the second draft. I think the first was better, but this one is close. The title is from a Matthew Good Band song which has nothing to do with the story. And for some odd reason I felt compeled to mention the Waffle House table. But anyways, I own no one, and just about nothing, so it wouldn't do anybody any good to sue me just to let you know. I get my info from theraveneffect.com and CM Punk's Livejournal, so there you go. My musi have been running rampant lately, so don't be surprised if you see me kicking around a little more. Now that I've babbled enough for all of us..ttfn ~heather~ Oh, don't forget HAIL SABIN!!!
By the time you read this, I'll be checked in at a rehab center. I need to get help, and I don't want to taint you with my illness. I know that you want to be here with me, but you can't. I can't let you see me like this. Right now, I'm not worthy of you. Right now, I am everything you hate. I have fought this before, but never like this. I've always been alone, and the only reason for me to quit was my job. Now my reason is you. I want to give you everything you deserve, everything you dream of. That is, if you'll have me back after all of this. I hope you understand that as cliche as it may sound it's not you, it's me. Don't blame yourself either. This all started before I met you, and has nothing to do with anything you have ever done. All the fights we had, all the arguments were my fault.
I know you know what's wrong. You're a brilliant young man, another thing I love about you. I'm sure you've had it figured out for quite some time now. I just wouldn't let you say anything. Whenever you tried, I'd always start accusing you of not trusting me. You shouldn't have trusted me, but you did anyway. I love you for that, I love you for everything you done for me, for us. Now let me do something for you, for myself and for our future. I'll see you in thirty days, if you let me.
Love
Raven'
CM Punk slipped the letter down into his jeans pocket and wiped the few tears he had streaming down his face away.
" What's wrong?" Julio asked from the doorway. Punk jumped, forgetting that Julio had been behind him.
" Nothing, nothing." Punk said.
" Where's Raven? What were you reading? Why are you crying?" Julio asked, walking over to his team mate.
" You ask too many questions." Punk said smiling slightly.
" So. Now answer them." Julio said.
" Raven had to take a trip. He'll be back, and we didn't break up. Don't worry about the rest." Punk said. " You can go now. Thanks for dropping me off."
" You gonna be okay?"
" Yeah, I'm gonna be fine." Punk said sitting down at the waffle house table that he and Raven had for kitchen table. " We're gonna be fine."
Author's note: HOLA!! Okay, here's the scoop. I typed this story out last night, but the computer decided it was going to be a prick and freeze right before I saved it, so this is kind of the second draft. I think the first was better, but this one is close. The title is from a Matthew Good Band song which has nothing to do with the story. And for some odd reason I felt compeled to mention the Waffle House table. But anyways, I own no one, and just about nothing, so it wouldn't do anybody any good to sue me just to let you know. I get my info from theraveneffect.com and CM Punk's Livejournal, so there you go. My musi have been running rampant lately, so don't be surprised if you see me kicking around a little more. Now that I've babbled enough for all of us..ttfn ~heather~ Oh, don't forget HAIL SABIN!!!