Dear Dean,
My beloved Dean, this is you're beautiful angel, Castiel. I want to say all my good byes and loves you, for I have left once again but will make no return. I have hurt you and by the looks of it or feels, I have hurt again with my missing presence that leaves bruises upon your breaking heart. I know I packed up and left a couple years back but not a single day goes by that I don't think of you, or want to be with you. The problem is, I cant come back to you, Dean. When I'm with you, all I do is cause trouble, cast a storm above your head and I don't want to do that to you anymore, I don't want to cause you pain. I understand you believe we could have lasted forever, when we're old, to beyond. I wanted that, but love is stronger than want and my heart took its path. Don't worry, I have all of our memories locked safe inside, like the time we went skinny dipping together, all of them I will never forget.
My body misses and still craves for your soft kisses, and aggressive sex. You're probably asking yourself at this point "If he still loves me, why did he leave?" like I said before, I just bring pain to you and I cant watch you live like that, Dean.
I have traveled far my love, i'm currently in Hollywood, playing my guitar on the streets, writing songs, and living how I want. Haven't made it to the big times yet but who cares? I'm happy, but not complete. All my songs are mainly about you, and our times, but no one knows who you are.
You'll forget about me, you'll move on to a better love, and a better life. I know you don't want to let go but if you love something set it free, and if it comes back its yours to keep. Since I'm not coming back you need to move on.
My mistakes have caused me to leave as well, my terrible mistakes. I regret what I have done. When I told you, the pain that swarmed into your eyes killed me a thousand times over. I'm sorry for that, you don't understand how much I want to take back that night and try again, erase her from that moment in time. I love you, Dean Winchester.
This will be the last of it, the last of my goodbye. But I don't want to say goodbye, because that's not what it really is, and they hurt to much to hear and say. And my tears are falling down way to much to finish it that way. I love you, from the point of meeting you to beyond.
See you later,
Love Castiel.
Dean slowly put down the letter that Cas wrote to him thirty years ago, a painful thirty years that was. The letter he wrote to Dean always rested next to the obituary of Castiel Novak.
Castiel Novak died at a young age of 33, due to a suicide of a gun pointed at his head. He graduated high school with a GPA of 4.0, and a scholarship to Hartford that he never attended to. He had a love for music and wanted to continue on with his career as a song writer and performer. He never became a popular artist but his small town loved him to the moon and back. He never really experienced love till he met Dean Winchester, a strong, handsome man. Castiel wont be having a funeral, that was his wishes were before he died.
"I don't want a funeral, Dean will find me if I have one." - Castiel.
Dean slowly walked to the couch, crying rivers of salty tears. He touched the framed picture of Castiel on the table next to the couch.
"I love you, Castiel." He slowly spoke, choking at the pain that Cas has left behind.
"See you later."
A/N:: Please tell me what you think. I was bored and decided to make a destiel one shot. Well please leave a comment, and tell me what you think.