A/N: Just something that popped into my head. In Bella's point of view. Hope you enjoy.
Why can't I get these feelings to go away?
What I thought I knew was wrong. These feelings won't go away.
As I am sitting on my bed, waiting for sleep to come, I think of her. I pull on the loose threads of my black tank top, as my brain is flooded with thoughts of a certain woman.
I think of the way she looks at me, how she smiles, the sound of her voice, the way she moves. Everything single thing about her is flooding my mind, and I can't get it to stop.
I have fallen in love with her. I know this now.
Some may think that's great that I've fallen in love, but to me it's horrible.
I can't love her, I shouldn't even be thinking about this.
There is something wrong with me. I was happy, I found my soul mate already…or so I thought.
I can't be in love with Alice, because I love Edward too.
I took a deep breath, and lay back against my bed. I then rub my eyes, because it has been a very long day and it just feels good.
I shut my eyes, making sure to remember the few moments of peace I have right now.
It only took a few seconds before I heard my window squeak open, and then close quietly.
My eyes remained shut, and I didn't move. Whoever it was would come over to me.
At that moment I felt a cold, yet gentle hand touch my cheek.
It must be Edward, but his hands don't usually feel like this.
That's when I decided to open my eyes. I was met with a golden pair, staring right back at me.
"Alice?" I raised my head slightly, but she gently pushed me back down against the bed.
"Shh" Alice whispered quietly, as she placed a cool finger against my lips.
I did as she said; too confused to question what she was doing.
I watched her as she crawled slowly upon my bed. On all four limbs, she crawled to me like a cat and laid down right beside me.
"Where's Edward?" I asked after a few seconds.
She made a pouting facial expression for a second, and then moved her hand back to my cheek. She stroked lightly, it felt comforting.
What has gotten into Alice?
"Why do you always ask about Edward?" Alice said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
"He's my boyfriend. I just want to know if he is okay." I responded quietly.
"Edward is fine, Bella." Alice paused a second, and then asked, "How come you don't ask about me like you do with Edward?"
"I do Alice. I care about you too." I was beginning to feel bad about what Alice was thinking.
She should know that I care.
"I know you care, it's just sometimes I want to be the one you're always thinking of."
"But I am always thinking of you…" I respond.
"Are you?" Alice asked quickly. I think if she could cry, then she would be.
I moved my hand slowly towards Alice, and placed it against her shoulder. I rubbed lightly, trying to comfort her.
"Of course. You may not think so, but I honestly do. You have no idea how often I think of you."
"Probably not as much as I think about you." Alice looked at my hand on her shoulder, and then back up into my eyes.
"Why do you look so sad?" I asked her.
It took Alice a while to respond, but after a few seconds she replied, "Because I will never be Edward."
"What does that mean?"
"It means that I will never be able to hold you like he gets to. It means that I will never be able to kiss you like he does. It means I will never get your love back in return." Alice was having a hard time telling me this, but I listened to every word she said.
My eyes opened wider, as realization hit me in the face.
"Alice…are you saying what I think you're saying?" I managed to ask quietly.
"I can't keep it a secret from you anymore. I just need to tell you…that I love you; like Edward loves you." The confident Alice that I usually see was not here tonight. Alice was vulnerable, almost human.
"I don't know what to say…" I trail off.
Tell her you love her back you idiot! My brain was yelling at me.
"I understand" Alice nodded and stopped looking me in the eye. She began to move away, but I stopped her.
"No…wait." I grabbed her arm, and she looked back at me.
"Please stay. Let me explain." I continued.
Alice nodded, and lay back down next to me. I smiled weakly before I continued what I was going to say.
"I need to tell you something about us. Now I don't know what these feelings mean, but I just think that you should know that…I think I have…fallen in love wi-…with you."
Alice's eye shot up and met mine in an instant.
"I knew there was something more between us. I could just feel it." Alice was now smiling at me.
I nodded my head slowly, but I wasn't smiling like she was.
"There's one problem though. I still love Edward too." I said slowly.
Her smile faded, and her expression turned sad once again.
"And you don't want to hurt Edward, right?" Alice asked.
"No" I simply said back.
Alice nodded her head and said, "I understand how you feel."
The room was silent for a moment, but then Alice spoke up again.
"Can I just try something out? It will be our little secret." Alice reached out and took hold of my arm. She pulled me closer towards her, so close that our noses were almost touching.
"What is it that you want to do?" I asked in a whisper.
Her cool breath blew slowly on my face, as she examined every inch of it. Finally her eyes stopped moving, and they were locked onto my lips.
I licked my lips in anticipation, and waited for her response.
"This" Alice said quietly, and moved in slowly towards my face. Her lips slowly brushed against mine, almost teasing me in a way. I pushed forward into her lips, and we began to kiss.
They were the softest lips I have ever felt. I stayed glued to her lips for a few seconds, before Alice began moving her mouth. I went along with her, and moved my lips against hers. I found that sucking on the bottom of Alice's lips was quite a turn on.
Butterflies swarmed angrily in my stomach, as I inched closer towards Alice.
I shouldn't be doing this. It's betrayal to Edward! But she's so irresistible…
One of Alice's cool hands trailed down against my stomach, sending a tingling sensation down in-between my legs.
I gasped slightly into the kiss, as her hand stopped at the bottom of my tank top. This is when Alice opened her mouth, and began to tease my lips with her tongue. I slowly opened my mouth, and found her tongue with my own.
Her hand slowly crept up inside my shirt, and I felt nails delicately tease my skin. I jerked a little bit from the sensation, and Alice laughed while we kissed.
I don't want this to end.
Her hand went higher up my stomach, and soon she was going to get a surprise. I wasn't wearing a bra because I don't sleep with one.
Her hand reached the bottom of my breast, and I looked at her with anticipation.
"Do you want me to continue?" She asked.
"Yes, please Alice." I said with want in my eyes.
She smiled her award winning smile, and almost moved her hand further up when…
"Bella" Someone called my name.
I tried to ignore whoever was trying to interrupt me, and focused back on Alice.
"Bella" The voice was louder this time.
Alice was beginning to fade, everything around me was disappearing.
"Wake up; it's time to go to school." Edwards's voice echoed in my head.
"What?" I groaned, as reality came back to me.
"Wake up sleepy head. You need to get dressed." Alice said.
I opened my eyes, and saw the two vampires standing above me. My heart sank when I realized it was all a dream.
I sat up slowly, and rubbed my eyes. I looked up at Alice, and she seemed to be her usual self.
"I'll meet you two at school. I have to go hunting for a while; I just wanted to say good morning." Edward kissed me on the cheek and went out my window.
"See you later." I called to Edward.
"So, did you sleep well?" Alice asked me with a smile on her face.
I looked at her and responded, "Yeah, I slept really well."
"Have any good dreams?" Alice asked me.
I nodded my head and said, "As a matter of fact, I did."
"That's good." Alice said, and then walked into my closet. She came out with an outfit that she wanted me to wear today.
I reached for the clothes without hesitation. I learned to give up when it comes to Alice and clothes.
Alice looked out of the window, as I began changing clothes.
"Can I ask you something?" Alice said, still looking out the window.
"Sure" I said absentmindedly as I was trying to get my jeans on.
"What were you dreaming about?"
I stopped in my tracks.
Could she possibly know what I dreamt?
"Why do you want to know that?" I asked after a few seconds.
"Well, you were talking in your sleep and I heard my name." Alice turned around and caught me with my jeans undone, and wearing only a bra on top.
"Sorry" Alice said quickly, and turned around.
"It's okay." I said quietly.
That was awkward. You would think she would know I wasn't dressed yet.
"What exactly did you hear me say?" I continued.
"I believe you said yes, please Alice." She told me.
"Oh…really? I don't remember saying that in my dream." I tried my best to lie.
Alice turned around sharply, and this time I was dressed.
"For some reason I don't believe you." Alice smiled playfully towards me.
I just shrugged my shoulders, as she moved closer towards me.
"I've always thought you looked gorgeous in this shirt." Alice tugged on the material of my shirt, and I just looked at her stupidly.
"I'm going to finish getting ready now." I said quietly.
Alice nodded her head, and moved towards the bed.
I walked into my bathroom, and took a deep breath.
Alice can't know! It's impossible. I just need to remain calm, and forget I ever had this dream.
Alice can be mine in dreams, but that's as far as it will go.
I washed my face, brushed my teeth and hair. I took one last look in the mirror, and felt a hint of sadness come over me.
That was the best dream I've ever had.
A/N: There you go. I don't know if I want to continue this or leave it as it is. This is as far as I've planned it going, but there is an option to continue. I don't know what I want to do yet. Hoped you enjoyed what I've written.