Prologue

Kido lay in bed tossing. She couldn't get sleep at all. She felt too jittery, after all she hadn't expected the adoption. And she was with the other two boys, Shuuya and Kosuke.

The family that had adopted them seemed fairly nice enough. But that didn't do anything to make her feel any better, why them? She just wished she would just disappear.

Now lying in bed, in the same room as her new big-sister, she felt nervous and unsettled. And even hungry. She didn't want to stay at the table to long so she had very little and left early pretending to be asleep. Ayano had come in a little later and asked her if she was okay, but she adamantly kept her act. But Ayano kept talking anyway.

"I know that you're not exactly comfortable but I'll do my best to be you're ideal big-sister and make you feel at home. I don't know what you've been through , how you ended up in the orphanage, but I know that from now on as a family, we'll all try to keep you three happy", Kido didn't see her smile but she knew from Ayano's words that she was smiling. "If you ever need any one to talk to remember you have your Onee-chan. I always did want siblings especially a little sister so don't mind me if I dote on you a bit, hm", she laughed a bit to herself and Kido heard her open her wardrobe door to probably take out her night clothes and then she left.

It wasn't long after when she came back and got to bed before saying, "I always slept with mom and dad, this is the first time I'm sleeping with someone else. I'm glad I became you're big-sister but I wish you'd stayed up so we could talk a bit." Kido heard Ayano sigh, something both guilty and fluffy rising inside of her; guilty because she didn't stay up to talk to Ayano but she felt happy at the same time cause no one ever told her they wanted to talk to her.

When she was sure Ayano was asleep, Kido removed the cover from her face and turned to look at her sister. For the first time then she felt happy that she was adopted by this family. She wished that she had stayed up to talk to Ayano and then probably even fall asleep with her.

But then her stomach growled and she remembered how little she ate.

They were shifting to their new home so Kido didn't get much to eat all day anyway, and now the hunger ate at her, preventing her from falling asleep. But she didn't really want to go out because she feared someone might still be up there and they'd see her.

It's funny how many other emotions hunger can bring along guilt, for not giving her new parents and sister a chance at introduction at the table, for not showing enough confidence in them, in herself; sorrow, because Ayano reminded her of her real sister; fear, of a lot of stuff and most of all she started to feel that maybe she wasn't supposed to be her, that the family's kindness was just wasted on her, like she didn't fit in and maybe this was all a mistake, they shouldn't have taken her in.

After tossing for a while, her hunger got the better of her and she left the safety of her bed and cover.

She made her way to the kitchen in the dark. Bending over the open fridge her eyes searched for anything that would satisfy her hunger. she picked the leftovers from dinner and closed the fridge only to realize she wasn't alone in the kitchen.

Shuuya.

He flinched when she saw him tip-toeing out of the kitchen. Now that Kido noticed him he turned to her with an awkward smile on his face, rubbing the back of his neck, "Uh, I thought that you might want to be alone, you know, that you didn't want anyone to see, because you left the table so early and then now sneaking food at the middle of the night and stuff "

He was wearing the scarf. Her scarf, the one she gave him. It made her smile.

Seeing her smile he stopped mid-sentence and smiled back at her. "It's not that I wanted to be alone to be honest, I was just a bit, I don't know, awkward maybe and a bit frightened, it was all so sudden I guess I just didn't know how to act", she shrugged.

He furrowed his eyebrows, "Act?" He cracked up laughing all of a sudden, surprising her. "They're family now, you don't have to act. And even if you're not comfortable then I'm always there for you", he said, sending her a wink.

She felt her cheeks warm and she nodded. "Thank you"

It seemed to surprise him. But he shook it off with a grin. "Don't sweat it." He nodded at the food in her hands. "The food probably still tastes great, though I think it would have tasted better warm. Next time fill your stomach at the table okay?"

Kido winced a bit but then nodded. Just when Shuuya turned to leave, a thought occurred to her. "Um, if you want a bit, I can share you know, I'm not that hungry." She lied but she didn't want him to go back just like that because of her.

He had a puzzled look when he turned, "What makes you think I'm hungry?"

Crap, this is why she hated interacting with people, her intuition was always wrong. "No it's just that there's no one up now and its pretty late " What was she rambling about, of course it was late! " and since you're in the kitchen this late I thought maybe even you were hungry, or something like that," she trailed out.

Her rambling made Shuuya smile. "No I wasn't hungry I just couldn't get sleep", he smirked at her. "After all, it's not every day you get a new family all that excitement hasn't died out."

Then because she was a kid and he put up such a nice act she believed him. Not only her, but everyone believed him. She realized later that she should have seen through his act, that he was actually hurting not happy.

But then, she took all of his lies. Maybe because of his act, or maybe for her solace.