Pidge sighed as she tried to rebuild rover in her lab. Normal, this wouldn't be much of a problem but today her heart just wasn't into it. Lately she hasn't been herself, and everyone in the ship knows it. They've tried to get her to talk but she didn't answer instead answerings with other questions which just confused them. shrio , however, knew exactly why she was acting like this and told the others to leave her alone. Today, she was more out of it than ever for one reason only.
Today was the anniversary of the kerbal mission failure.
The same day her father and brother were taken away by monsters that crave blood. The same day where she felt lost. She knew for a fact they were still alive...well her brother is..but what about her father? Is he still okay? Is he somewhere with matt? Is he even alive? So many questions, so little answers….
Pidge leaned back on her chair, looking at the ceiling but ran a hand over her face when something caught her eye. One her computer was a picture of her and her family. Her dad, mom, matt and her when she still has long hair. They were linked by the arms and they were all smiling, even their dog gunther was there, sitting in front of pidge and matt. Pidge sat normally and she stared at the picture, and unknown to her, she softly started to sing.
It was February 14 Valentine's Day
The day came but they took you away
Wrapped on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm
Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is i don't know if you're gone
Or if I'll ever get to show you this songs
Dad you should see the quest that I'm on
I see you standing there next to mom
Both singing along, yeah arm in arm
Now there are days when I'm losing my faith
Because the man wasn't good he was great
He'd say "Music was the home for your pain"
And explain I was young, he would say
Take that rage, put it on a page
Take the page to the stage
Blow the roof off the place
I'm trying to make you proud
Do everything you did
I hope you're up there with God saying "That's my kid!"
I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now"
Pidge's glasses caught a few tears as pidge sang, her heart giving unpleasant jerks as she cried. Nonetheless she didn't stop.
If you could see me now would you recognize me?
Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me?
Would you follow every line on my tear-stained face
Put your hand on a heart that was cold
As the day you were taken away?
I know it's been a while but I can see you clear as day
Right now, I wish I could hear you say
I drink too much, and I smoke too much dutch
But if you can't see me now that shit's a must
You used to say I won't know a win till it cost me
Like I won't know real love till I've loved and I've lost it
So if you've lost a brother, someone's lost a dad
And if you've lost a dad then someone's lost a son
And they're all missing out, yeah they're all missing out
So if you get a second to look at me now
Matt, Dad I'm just missing you now
Pidge curled up on her chair, her glasses slipping off her face and hitting the ground, just like her tears.
I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Pidge looked down at her glasses and just by a bit, she gasped softly. For a second she thought she saw matt, but..then she saw her eyes..and she curled up even tighter.
Oh, oh
Would you call me a saint or a sinner?
Would you love me a loser or winner?
Oh, oh
When I see my face in the mirror
We look so alike that it makes me shiver
I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Yeah I'm just missing you now
I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now
The green lion's eyes flashed and the lion looked down at it's paladin, feeling her heartache. It brought it's head down and, gently as it can, nudged pidge, which made the girl look up and tur her head to her lion. The lion made a noise similar to a purr and nudged pidge again, it's tail swaying back a forth a bit.
'Do not fret my friend, do not let yourself drop tears. You will find your family soon'
"But will they be happy for me? Will they even see me the same if they knew i was a paladin?" pidge asked, her voice shaking and she hiccupped
'Of course they'd be proud of you.'
You could see, you could see me now