I went throught those halls day after day, I walked by them on my way to every class, I came to school every single day and still, I was one of the crowd. One of a small crowd. They didn't know anything about me. They didn't know that I loved music so much that it never stopped playing in my head, or that I loved nature. Just to run through a forest as fast as I could. They didn't know that I loved to laugh and cry because they brought with them such strong emotions I felt like I was going to explode with the feeling of it all. Most of all, and maybe the reason they didn't know anything else; I was dying and that was something I had allowed no one priviledge to know.

I had fallen in love with this town as a young girl, many would think it dull and lifeless for a small child but I found mystery in the forest. I felt that the woods were full of magic and that just being in them would bring me joy. Sure, my intrests had changed since I was 4, the closest good library was an hour away and the closest good live music was in Seattle but I felt peace here. Something I had found impossible in any hospital, no matter how 'homley' it was.

I'd gone to this high school for 2 years and still nobody noticed me. Sure, while I was a new face, I wasn't an interesting face. Sure, teachers had tried and failed to integrate me. I made my peace with being alone. I could live with the forest and the water to as my company. At least, I told myself this but still...I watched them from a distance. I sat by myself in the small cafeteria with my back against the wall sitting by my untouched lunch, sketch book in hand. If anyone were to look over to me, they would see me in my own world, drawing the doodles that flowed freely from my mind. In reality, I watched them. Small schools are interesting, almost like a soap opera. A teenage soap opera. I could tell most of what was going on in school just by listening to the lunch crowd. For instance, the popular crowd was having couple issues thanks to the new girl. Jessica was still enthralled with Mike, and Mike was still enthralled with Bella. The whole school seemed enthralled with her. She was pretty in the classic pale way. I could see why all of the boys in school where happy that she was here. After hanging out with the same people since you were babies; almost anything new was welcome. One exception; me.

Who knew why I had remained unoticed. I have always been shy, but then again so were the Cullen's and they were always on everyone's mind. You could tell when someone was talking about them; they voices would quiet to a whisper and they would unconciously look towards one of the Cullen's. Maybe they got more attention because they were all immacuatly beautiful. The blonde, Rosalie most of all. Many people thought that the Cullen's were outcasts and that they were just to perfect to be in a small town like Forks. But I knew that they kept themselves apart for the same reason I did; because we had something to hide. Something that we proteced with enough venom that no one could find out, no one was allowed close enough to figure it out.

I didn't know their secret. I had no desire to go digging. It was no place of mine to look into their personal lives. As far as I knew, they didn't know my secret. Only their father knew, and I hoped that he took his oath honestly. If they did know, they didn't show it. I never got the pitying looks that came so ofter from those whom I told.

Then I noticed one of the more popular girls, Jessica whispering to Bella and her stare remained as far away from the Cullen's as possible, but Bella looked. The tell tale signs that Jessica was making sure to fill Bella in on all of the Cullens and their unusual habits. I didn't want to believe that there had been any hope, even a small hope that maybe she would notice me and I would finally be found. But she was just like the rest of the children in this small high school.

The bell rang and I got up quickly before heading to Biology. Although I didn't have a passion for science like I did for math, didn't mean that I hated the subject. I did well enough to get an A. I took my seat in front; a must for me, I had bad hearing from all of the loud music I listened to while I tried to block out surgery after surgery. I sat staring at the white board until I heard the whole room erupt in whispers. I followed their gaze, at first thinking that they were staring at me until I looked behind myself to see Edward Cullen. He sat on the edge of his desk, recoiled from where Bella Swan sat in her new seat next to him. None of us had ever seen this much emotion from Edward. He acted like she repulsed him. His head snapped up as he looked up to me. I'd never seen him look anyone in the eye before either. I quickly returned to my postion, staring at the white board again. Althought the rest of the class was normal, we all noticed Cullen's quick jog out of class.

I dismissed the strange ocurrence and went throught the rest of my classes normally. After scholl, I stopped my the local grocery store to pick up the ingredients for beef stew. It was chilly outside, and hot soup would be perfect to warm me up. When I was finished shopping, I was walking to my car when it happened.

My legs stopped working and I stopped in an ungraceful shaky fall. The gravel of the parking lot cut into my legs and elbows and my bags fell to the ground with a huge crash and my groceries rolled and fell from the bags. I started to get up when I felt the acid rise in the back of my throat, and before I even had a chance to stop myself I was throwing up blood onto the ground. The blood my deep red, unlike the bright red of fresh blood. My head pounded on all sides and I fell from my knees, and too weak to stop I fell into my own blood before everything went hazy. I couldn't think straight, but I heard a scream as some poor woman was scared to death at the sight of me. I could only hope that she was calling the ambulence. All I could hear was her muttering "Blood, so much blood, oh my god" over and over again.

Throught the mist of pain that my body was experiencing, I felt a pressure around my waist and I was suddenly weightless. The change made my stomach clench ungratefully. I heard more voices than the hysterical woman but I couldn't force myself to pay attention to the words. And then all was black, and I could hear nothing.