~~~Konichiwa minna!!! Here's my very first
ONE-SHOT. Hopefully this would be worth
your time in reading. This is just a product of
too much daydreaming (specially on class).
Hehe. . . actually this is just one of my opinions
that pop-out of my head while watching CCS. And
its not just about Syaoran (ooh. . . dats because
I think 'bout him a lot), its really about Tomoyo's
unknown 'special person'.
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS. Some part of
the story is taken from the original
CARDCAPTORSAKURA Series and I don't
own it. But this story is mine.
(A.N.: The story happens in the middle of
the REAL series ok?)
"Character Speaking"
'Character's Thoughts'(Me speaking)
~~lyrics~~
[[ the episode where it was taken]]
{{ disturbing words from the past that they remembers}}
#### Change Scenes####
Concealed Feelings"If there were many tears falling down,
Every heart would become gentle.
If everybody expresses what they think,
Every heart can be satisfied".
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[[Episode60"Sakura and Her Precious Friend"]]
'Since when did I start feeling this way?
Why do I always stares at him from afar?
Only to see him staring at someone else . . .
Would there be a time, where I would be the one in his eyes?'
She dismissed all of her thoughts and approaches the guy she was staring the whole time. "Yesterday was such a pity," I said.
"Wh. . . What was . . .?" he stammered.
"You were about to tell Sakura your feelings, but Kero interrupted." I replied, trying to sound as if I'm not disturbed about the idea. 'Well, whose idea is it anyway?'
{{There may be a reason to just keep this hidden within your heart, but how about your feelings? Is it really okay?
No matter what kind of feelings it is, if you do not put it into words, it cannot be told.}}(From episode 59Sakura,Tomoyo and the ball trap)
'But, how about me? Why do I keep my feelings concealed?'
"When are you going to tell her?" I asked.
"I'm not going to tell her yet . . ."he said. "I admit that yesterday I had no other things in mind but to tell her my feelings. But before that I still have things to do first."
"I made a promise. Before the girl I like the most appear, Meilin will still be my fiancé. Therefore I. . ."
"Therefore, you need to tell Meilin your feelings right?" Tomoyo said.
"I talked to her last night over the phone. I told her that there is something I need to tell her when we see each other next time."
"What did she say?"
"She asked me why couldn't I tell her on the phone. I told her I wanted to tell her in person and she said okay."
"I see. . ."
"After I tell Meilin. . .then I'll tell her. . ."
"And when will you two meet?"
"Actually I told her that I'll go back to Hong Kong during the winter break but she said she can't wait that long."
"Meilin, she must have wanted to come here as soon as she had talk to you."
# # # # AFTER School # # # #
Now I'm walking beside Syaoran, listening to Sakura and Meilin's conversation. It's getting awkward so I tried to start a conversation with him.
"Are you going to tell her today?" Tomoyo asked. He nodded and said.
"I'm sure about my feelings already, if I don't tell her, I'll be breaking my promise." he said. "And I have to keep my promise to her no matter what."
"This is just like you, I am sure this is one of the reasons why Meilin has fallen for you."
'And perhaps this is one of the reason's why I am falling for you'
sotto mezameru~~~ Quietly awakening...
hakanai omoi zutto~~~ I always, always wish
donna toki demo negau yo~~~ that these fleeting thoughts
anata ni todoku you ni to...~~~ would reach you...
# # # # Night # # # #
'What a tiring day, being attacked by those penguins. . .' Tomoyo drink her tea and smile, a sad smile. 'I wish he could always be by my side to protect me. . . and tell me why I'm feeling this way.' She closed her eyes, trying to ease the pain.
Suddenly, a maid told her that a friend of hers, named Meilin wants to talk to her. She walks slowly down the stairs and saw Meilin. She was carrying a suitcase, eyes red. Tomoyo ushered her to come into her room. And when they arrive in there, Meilin put down her suitcase, Tomoyo sit down. Silence enveloping them.
Abruptly, Meilin ran towards Tomoyo. She landed on her knees and began to cry.
"What a heartless guy!" Meilin shouted.
"I really love Syaoran more than anyone in this world! I—I'm sure I love him more than anyone else!(sob) Why did this had to end like this!(sob)
Why! Why did this had to be this way!(sob) And you know what Tomoyo?! What makes me even mad is the fact that I can't hate Kinomoto. I know she's a real nice person. And I know I can't blame her, why Syaoran loves her and not me!"
Tomoyo just sat there listening to her friend. How she knew, she's feeling more hurt than Meilin. 'At least she have courage to tell him, unlike me. . .
"It really hurts! It's just that I can't accept he loves someone else!(sob). It really hurts that much! I'll cry and cry until my eyes would sore! I'll cry and cry until I have felt that I had no more tears left for Syaoran!" Meilin continue to cry as Tomoyo comforts her. They just stay there; Meilin's sobbing could be easily heard. They were both quiet the whole night, while their hearts hollered. Soon they fall asleep.
"ato sukoshi" to yuu kyori ga fumidasenakute ~~~ Unable to move forward across "just a little more" distance
itsumo me no mae wa tozasarete-ita no~~~ The way I see before me is always blocked
# # # # Next Day # # # #
Tomoyo walks down the streets remembering what happened last night. Seeing Meilin cry, and all. She really felt sorry for her friend. But somehow she felt more sorry for herself. Why can't she just say it out loud in front of him? Of course she knew why. . .
She knew that if she tell him, he will just reject her.
aitai aenai hibi wo kasaneru tabi ni~~~ Every time the days I want to see you but can't pile up,
tsuyoi tokimeki wa setsunasa ni naru yo~~~ My strong heartbeat turns into heartbreak.
'Why does the image of your face make me tremble? Is this really love? If I tell him, will it be the same? Would you still be my friend? Would you still trust me?'
anata no koto wo omou~~~ I think of you
sore dake de namida ga~~~ and that alone is enough
ima afuredashite kuru yo~~~ to make the tears start to flow now
hakanai omoi zutto~~~ I always, always wish
donna toki demo negau yo~~~ that these fleeting thoughts
anata ni todoku you ni to...~~~ would reach you...
Walking pass the Penguin park, she notice Syaoran was sitting on one of the swings alone. She comes closer and sits on the other swing.
Syaoran smiled a little to her, she looked down on the floor so he won't notice her cheeks, turning to red.
"You know Tomoyo? I've been thinking lately, how coward I could be, not being able to tell my feelings. But you've boost up my confidence. I do admire you a lot, it seems like there's nothing holding you back, like your one perfect person and---
"That's just what you think, but I'm not perfect, not even near perfect. . ."
tsuyogaru koto dake shiri-sugite-ita watashi~~~ I've known all too well about pretending to be strong.
dakedo ano toki kara mayoi wa kieta yo~~~ But since then, my doubts have vanished.
"Your really a brave girl with great wisdom, a very nice friend. Without your advices I might still be confuse on my own feelings."
"Yeah. . . right. As if I am. I'm just a big TALK with no actions. Where did I find the guts to give you advices like that, if I myself can't be true to myself? Remember the time you told me the reason why you can't confess to Sakura because she do love someone else, and I ask you if that is a reason to not tell her and no matter what kind of feelings it is, if you do not put it into words, it cannot be told?"
"Tomoyo. . ."
misetai to omou mono ga kitto atte~~~ There's definitely things I want to show you
kikasetai kotoba mo takusan aru~~~ And so many words I want to hear
egao nakigao mo zenbu mite hoshikute~~~ I want to see all sides of you, when you laugh and cry
matte-iru watashi wa yamete~~~ So I'll stop waiting
"CHANSU" wo tsukamu yo~~~ and seize my "chance."
"Sometimes I think how can I help others when I can't even help myself. . . Somehow I've been asking myself, Why couldn't I just tell you that I love you!?"
This surprised Syaoran, but he didn't say anything at all. He stayed there staring at Tomoyo's faltering figure.
anata no koto wo omou~~~ I think of you,
sore dake de kokoro ga~~~ and I feel like that alone is enough
tsuyoku nareru ki ga suru yo~~~ to make my heart grow stronger.
hakanai omoi zutto ~~~ I always, always wish
donna toki demo negau yo ~~~ that these fleeting thoughts
anata ni todoku you ni to... ~~~ would reach you...
"I know, you're mad. I know you would just reject me. But is all right for me as long as you and my best friend will be happy. After all I already admit it to myself that you could never love me back." Tears started to fall from her eyes. The cold wind blew coolly, and her hair dance with it.
"I remember saying to Sakura, that if the person I like most can be happier than falling in love with me, I would like to keep this happiness for this person the way it is forever. But I guess it would haunt me down if I don't tell you this, I just wanted you to know, I'll always be here for you. That if someday you'll find yourself confuse, I could still be your friend."
anata no koto wo omou~~~ I think of you
sore dake de namida ga~~~ and that alone is enough
ima afuredashite kuru yo~~~ to make the tears start to flow now
tookute koe ga todokanai dakedo itsuka wa~~~ My distant voice can't reach you now, but so that someday
kanarazu todoku you ni~~~ it definitely will...
shinjite la la la la la la...~~~ Believe. la la la la la la...
shinjite la la la la la la...~~~ Believe. la la la la la la...
shinjite la la la la la la...~~~ Believe. la la la la la la...
"I'll remember that." He answered as he gives Tomoyo a blue handkerchief and smiled. In return she smiled too and takes the hankie and wipes all of her tears. Now she's free somehow . . .
# # # # 10 Years Later # # # #
"Congratulations Tomoyo!" Sakura said, giving her friend a hug.
"Good job"
"Thanks" she replied "I really don't think I deserve this. And wait, how did you know?"
"Oh come on Tomoyo-chan! As if I'm not working on the same company! And Hey! You've been dreaming about this to come! And you do your best so you deserve it."
"Y-yeah"
"Oh! Look at the time! I'm really sorry Tomoyo, but I need to go. I'll come back tomorrow ok?"
"Bye!"
"Bye!"
Tomoyo smiled at herself on her mirror placed beside her cabinet. She changed her dress into a more casual one and went for a walk outside. She passes to some stores and buys some things, she went to the bookstore this time, until she saw someone familiar browsing through the shelves. It was Eriol.
Eriol felt her presence and turn towards her, smiling like usual.
"Hey" he said.
"Long time no see" Tomoyo said.
"Yeah, it's been 4 years since I last saw you and now you are one big successful designer."
"Well, not exactly, what have you been doing?"
"Writing, composing, anything"
"That sounds more like you."
"Hey, how about we drink some coffee in there." He asked.
"Sure" They started to walk together and reached the cafeteria and seated on the table near the windows. You can clearly see the busy city, with cars rushing by.
"So. . . I guess you've been fulfilled ne?" Eriol asked.
"Not really. It seems like I've reached my goals already but still I feel something is missing. She drank her coffee and look outside the window once again.
"Then, maybe you're missing me." Eriol said holding her hand and smiled.
"Maybe, just maybe. . ."
AWRIGHTY!!!! Finish my very first one shot. Actually this was supposed to be Tomoyo+Syaran fic because I think I haven't read one like that so I just wanted to make a change but I guess it turn out to be an E+T (hehehe SYAORAN'S MINE MWAHAHAHA)
Well I really don't know if this was good unless you review! ^__^
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