Open on exterior shot of Xander's building, night. Cut to inside. Anya, Xander, Willow, and Tara sit around the table.
ANYA: Do you think she ... walked around on clouds, wearing like ... Birkenstocks and played a harp? 'Cause those are just not flattering. You know, the clonky sandals, not a harp. (softly) I mean, who ... doesn't look good with a harp?
The others just look at her. They all look grim.
ANYA: What? I'm just saying what everyone's thinking, (to Xander) right baby?
XANDER: You are attractive and have many good qualities.
TARA: It's totally not stupid to wonder what it was like for Buffy. But it could have been any one of a zillion heavenly dimensions. All we know is that ... it was a good place and she was happy there.
WILLOW: And we took her away from that. We wrecked it for her.
XANDER: We didn't wreck. We didn't know.
WILLOW: We didn't wanna know. (Tara looks sadly at her) We were so selfish. *I* was so selfish.
XANDER: (shakes head) Maybe we were. I just feel weird feeling bad that my friend's not dead. It's ... too mind-boggling. So I've decided to simplify the whole thing. Me like Buffy. Buffy's alive, so, me glad.
TARA: Not to be Miss Psycho Pep Squad, but we have *got* to stop obsessing about what we did and start trying to make things better for Buffy.
ANYA: I'm with Miss Psycho Pep Squad.
XANDER: Ah, we need to spend more time with her, just hang out. Maybe have ... weekly dinners over here, or, uh ... a book club. Short books. Videos.
WILLOW: I can fix it. I know a spell.
TARA: (angrily) No! No more spells.
Xander looks from Tara to Willow, confused.
WILLOW: (to Tara) Then what? This isn't something that's gonna be fixed by a video club. I know I messed up, okay, and ... I wanna fix it.
TARA: I can't believe that we are talking about this again. You know how powerful magic is, how dangerous. You could hurt someone, you ... you could hurt yourself.
WILLOW: (shaking head) I know a spell that will make her forget she was ever in heaven.
TARA: (angrily) God, what is wrong with you?!
XANDER: (getting up) I'm gonna go get that ... phone you probably don't hear. High-pitched ring, ears like a dog.
ANYA: I'm gonna help you with that.
Xander and Anya flee into the bedroom leaving Tara and Willow alone.
TARA: Do you think I'm stupid? I know you used that spell on me.
WILLOW: Tara, I'm sorry, I-
TARA: Don't! Just ... don't. (shakes head) There's nothing you can say.
WILLOW: Tara, I didn't mean to-
TARA: To what? Violate my mind like that? How could you, Willow? How could you after what Glory did to me?
WILLOW: Violate you? I ... I-I didn't ... mean anything like that, I-I, I just wanted us not to fight any more. I love you.
TARA: If you don't wanna fight, you don't fight. You don't use magic to make a fight disappear.
WILLOW: But I-I just wanted to make things better. Better for us.
TARA: But you don't get to decide what is better for us, Will. We're in a relationship, we are supposed to decide together.
WILLOW: Okay. I'm ... I realize I, I did it wrong.
TARA: You did it the way you're doing everything. When things get rough, you ... you don't even consider the options. You just ... you just do a spell. It's not good for you, Willow. And it's not what magic is for.
WILLOW: (anxious) But I ... I just wanna help people.
TARA: Maybe that's how it started, but ... you're helping yourself now, fixing things to your liking. Including me.
WILLOW: Tara, no!
Tara looks away. Beat.
TARA: (tearfully) I don't think this is gonna work.
WILLOW: Hey. It is, i-it's working. (Tara just looks at her, looks down) Tara, please. I need you, baby. I need you. I don't need magic, I-I don't, I ... let me prove it to you, okay? I, I will go a month without doing any magic. I won't do a single spell. I swear.
Tara looks at her, nods.
TARA: Go a week. One week without magic.
WILLOW: (excited) Fine. Fine, that's easy!
TARA: (nods, not convinced) Go a week, and then we'll see.
Willow's face falls.
TARA: I don't know, I just ... think we both need some ... I don't know, space. (Willow looks upset) Oh, I can't believe I'm saying this.
WILLOW: Are you saying you're gonna leave me?
TARA: I am saying,I can't trust you anymore,I just need....I guess,time to think(Willow begins to cry)I can't stay in this relationship ,not when you're so in love with something that's not me.
WILLOW:Baby no.I love you more than anything,We can work on trust,please TARA PLEASE!(Tara stands) Baby please....(willow chants).
TARA:I'm sorry Will I just don't feel it any more,I know how strong my love is for you,but your love for me,feels as if it has faded.(Tara kisses Willow's forehead and exits the room).
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DOOR SLAM
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TARA: Dawnie,I...I have to leave.(tara says leaning on Dawn's door frame,tears falling)
DAWN:Oh my god,is there another big bad,Did someone get hurt?Tara why are you crying?.(dawn questions jumping to her side pulling tara into a tight hug.)TARA:No,no big bad Dawn,I just....Me and Willow...we just.....I have to leave for a while,until Willow and I fix some problems.(Dawn pulls away)
DAWN:What problems?I know you guys had a fight about magick but you worked it out,right?Don't tell me you're leaving because she's into magicks a little more than she should be.(Dawn had a disgusted look as she backed away from Tara more)
TARA:Dawn,She erased my memory of that whole fight,I don't want to leave i i just don't know another way to deal with this,I it's n not healthy,she's not healthy.(tara let her head fall)
DAWN:You just deal! I can't look at OUT GET OUT GET OUT!!!!!!!(dawn yells throwing herself on her bed holding a pillow for dear life) Tara slowly closes dawns door and she walked back into her and Willow's room to could see Willow crying her back against the puts all the things she packs in her car with one box in the dining room, as she comes outside she sees dawn and tries for a hug,she is shrugged off, and tara drives to her new apartment crying.
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2 WEEKS LATER
street scene, and Willow walking past the coffee-shop and towards the magick groans and limps.
XANDER:Oh! I think I pulled a jive muscle last night.
WILLOW:(chuckles)The funky monkey claims another victim.
They reach the door to the magick box just as Tara comes out,holding a large magick book.
WILLOW:(surprised) are you doing here? I mean...uh it's ok for you to be here if you have things that....you have to be here for.
XANDER:Yeah I'm gonna go bring Anya up to speed on that monkey situation.
Xander gives Tara a sweet smile as he smiles back goes into the store.
TARA:There's a monkey problem?
WILLOW:Only if you don't stretch first.(looking at Tara's book.)The Brekenrieg Grimoire?Light reading?
TARA:uh,yeah I was just...
WILLOW:No,it's okay.I,I didn't expect you to stop doing magick just because...You don't have to hide it.I'm not-I'm doing spells for thirty-two days.(Tara smiles)I can even go to the magick shop long as someone's with me at all ,uh,but it's better now,it really know,If you were checking up on me.
TARA:No,I wouldn't.....I was just looking for Buffy.
WILLOW:(willow's face drops a little),I-I haven't seen her since last 's not around much these kinda miss her.
TARA:I'm sure she feels the same you see her,c-can you tell her that I need to talk to her?It's important.
course I will.
TARA:Thanks.
Tara starts to walk off,pauses,turns back.
TARA:I'm going away for a England.
WILLOW:England?Why are you leaving?I mean not that You don't have that choice because You're old enough to do what you want,And You should go where you want....
TARA:I was asked to come to the Wiccan coven in Devon practice and worship,just until I find all my answers.
WILLOW:Wow that's a grate oppertunity.I hope you find yourself soon though,because I don't think I'll sleep much with you out of the country,worrying and all.
TARA:I'll keep in touch,You shouldn't worry.I'll call every now and then to check up.I'll be super safe with some of the most powerful woman in the world.I'll be fine(Tara places a hand on Willow's shoulder for reassurance).
WILLOW:When are you leaving(Willow questions taking in the feel of Tara's hand)Can I give you a ride to the airport?
TARA:I'm leaving in two days,on Wednesday at 12.I don't know if that's.....It's better if you don't It would just make things harder for us both.I have to go(Tara runs off,a tear streams down Willow's face as she walks into the Magick Box.)
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WEDNESDAY
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DAWN:Tara I'm sorry I was such a brat when you left.I understand why you left and why you're going to England so I won't try to stop you,But Promise you'll write me,You like a mother to me and I can't loose another mom,Don't make me loose another mom Tara.
TARA:(pulls Dawn into a tight embrace)Sweetie, OF course I'll write,I'll call,We can even have web cam chats if you want.I would never leave without keeping in touch with you Dawnie.I promise you aren't going to loose me.I'm just going on a extended Vacation.I love you Dawnie.
Flight 5-52 is now loading
TARA:That's my flight,Bye Dawnie,Mr. Giles.
DAWN:Bye Tara, I love you.
GILES:Goodbye Tara,I hope you find what you're looking for.
Tara gets on the fight
(Tara's POV)
Goddess I hope I can find somethings out,They said they needed me to come because I needed to train my power before Willow came into hers completely,But why is that?I mean I don't have much power and Willow is super powerful already,But why do I need to train my power?I just don't understand,I guess I will just have to wait and ask the sisters......Goddess I miss smile,Her laugh,the way she says my name,how she takes me,How good she can make me me feel like were the only two in the world,with no worries,no pain,But at the same time put me through hell and erase my memory twice,I can't be in that kind of relationship,Goddess I can piratically feel her touch, smell her smell,Feel her kiss,Here her moans of pleasure and joy.I know how badly I hurt her, but i can't be with her when magick is her first priority,I wouldn't care if it was anything else other than drugs or magick,She needs to know what magick is really foor and about,but she uses it to incautious, for just about 's god I love her so much leaving her is almost insanely painful.I can't think anymore,I need a nap.