My name is Ava Morgenstern. For as long as I can remember, I had a mommy and a daddy that were always mad at each other. I would never see them sit at the same dinner table together unless we had guests over. As I started to move beyond my preschool years, I started to hear my parents fight a lot. I'm not sure if it started when I was in kindergarten or if they just did a better job at hiding it when I was younger. The point was I was a little girl with a mommy and a daddy that were always fighting.
On the nights they yelled louder, I would sit curled up in a ball and lay on my bed secretly sad and crying. As I cried though, my eyes always went back to my doll house. In my doll house things were perfect. There was a a mommy doll and a daddy doll. Everything was perfect there. I wanted my parents to be like that. But I couldn't make them be that. I couldn't make my parents turn into a perfect mommy and daddy. So I decided that if I couldn't have a perfect mom and dad pair, I would create a perfect mom and dad pair.
I met Auggie as soon as I started kindergarten. He was nice and cute, so I decided he would be a perfect daddy that I could be a mommy with. And the best part was that he lived very close to me! So I started going over to his house all of the time! I acted like I was the perfect ideal mommy of the house (or at least what I thought a perfect ideal mommy acts like). I made Auggie act exactly like a perfect daddy acts, and I even treated his parents: Cory and Topanga exactly like you're supposed to treat the annoying in-laws of the family (okay, the only way I learned how to do that was from TV).
My life was becoming so good. I told Auggie he was my husband now, and he treated me like a wife. Everything was amazing... except for the part where my own mommy and daddy kept yelling at each other. The yelling increased, and they even started making threats at each other. I began to get more scared. Not just because of what was happening to them but I was starting to realize many kids at my school had mommies and daddies who didn't stay together, and realized how me and Auggie might end up like that.
I tried creating for Auggie a contract to make sure I would be taken care of if we ever separated. But when Auggie's mother: Topanga realized where I had gotten my inspiration for the contract, she finally realized what was happening at home. I finally told Auggie's parents what was going on and afterwards, I thought things might get better. They didn't. Because two days later, this morning... my daddy left.
Everything is shattered now. Both my real life and my fantasy life. It was only when my dad left that I finally realized what I had done wrong. I so desperately was trying to create a happy family, that I tried to create a perfect pretend family with Auggie, when instead I should have been trying to fix my real family. I should have gone to someone for help. I should've told people like Auggie's parents what was going on at home sooner. But when I finally did, it was too late. It was my fault my dad left. It was my fault. All my fault...