Chapter 1

Old Boyfriend

Star light, star bright my love can only go to a certain height... I thought to myself as I remembered of how cruel my last boyfriend was.

I felt that now I needed to know love. What was true love? Was it what it what I had with him? I felt my face grow disgusted with what I had just thought. No, it would not be like that. If that was the case, he would not of tortured me the way he did.

My mind wondered off as I looked up at the stars with their continuous light shining down on me. I kept pondering what I looked like right then and there.

Suddenly a sound of footsteps coming around the block. I looked over and saw that no one was there. Then I saw a shadow next to my front door.

Who's that there at the door?I thought as I leened more out my window to get a good look at who was at my door step.

It was Natsu standing there. He reached out towards that door as to enter, but recoiled his hand.

Why is he doing that? He normally just barged in without asking, making me very upset and... I thought about that for a second when I realized something.

Do I actually want to have him in here? I don't really think so!I then saw Natsu walk away from the door with a worried look upon his face.

Good! He didn't come! But again, why didn't he do what he normally does?!Frustrated, I slammed the window shut.

Good for him! I am glad he doesn't want to bother me tonight!

On the contrary, I wanted him to come in and see me but I just didn't want to admit it because I was in denial.

I slowly forgot about Natsu and remembered what had actually happened before he came by.

Why did this all happen? Was it because I wouldn't let my old boyfriend touch me anymore then he had in the past?

I felt the tears roll down my face as I remembered how Grey had pushed me around when I was with him that whole time.

Yes, Gray was my old, yet recent, boyfriend who I really don't want to have to deal with right now. He caused all of this anguish for me.

I started to pace back and forth in front of my desk wondering what I would do.

Why did I ever decide that it was ok to go out with him? I guess it was because at the time he was so nice. But at first when I saw Juvia heart broken over how he liked me, I felt bad.

I flashed back to when Juvia was crying in a corner, unlike how she would normally act by plotting her revenge in the corner with her so called evil love grin on her face.

Gray was the one who comforted me and said that he felt bad for her too, but he only liked me. Soon after we started dating I had loved him so much and now I am hurt because of what he did. Grey is such a...a...I jumped into my bed and put my head into my pillow and that was when I just could not hold it in anymore.

"Grey you are such a J**K!" I pounded my hand on the soft mattress and cried.

That was the first time in a long time I had heard myself say that in a really long time I had heard myself scream so loud.

As I continued to pound on the mattress, I knocked my hand against the edge of the bed.

Pain seared through my hand as I looked at it. I was bleeding, but did not care.

The tears streamed down my face even faster then before.

All I wanted was love, but all he gave me was pain. Nothing hurts more than this. I was lucky to be able to escape without getting something special taken away from me forever.

He had done so much to me. He even tried to make me kiss him unwillingly. 'Let's make out.' he said 'don't worry, no one will find out' he said 'no one will ever

believe you' he said. Why couldn't he just leave me alone.

I continued to remind myself of what he did while also crying myself to sleep. Nothing could change the fact that I am hurting on the inside. No one can ever love me again. I will not ever be loved again ither.

Finally after another hour of this I fell asleep. I knew exactly what I would do next day to get my mind off all of this. I would go on a mission all by myself. No Grey, no team Natsu, just me and myself would go.

That would take my mind off of it all.