Disclaimer: I don't own Sings, Joaquin( I don't think anyone could own
him), Rory, the little girl(her name has slipped my mind sorry bo) and Mel.
A brother's love is an indescribable thing. In my family brotherly love has always been fierce and very complete. It's always surrounded our household and it was always in our hearts. Graham and I hardly ever fought as kids. I could never argue with my big brother, he was always right in my mind. I admired him so much, you know? He was a saint, always calm, always comforting, Graham always knew the perfect thing to say. He was such a great guy, all through my high school days, he would always come to every single one of my baseball games, in the stands cheering me on. My parents were always there for me too of course, but Graham was my pal. My perfect brother. The one I wanted to be like.
Nothing changed, especially when my parents died. I had been sitting at home watching a special on t.v and I really got so into it that I didn't even hear the phone ring and Graham picking it up. I laughing in appreciation of what was going on in the show, when I sensed that Graham had come into the room. I slowly turned on an angle to see what he was up to, but when I saw that was sitting down at the table looking dejectedly at thin air, I knew something was wrong. He stood up and came to me. He gently place his hands on either side of my shoulders, tears silently falling on his cheeks. He struggled to speak, squeezing my shoulders as he does so.
"Mom and Dad." he sobbed out. My mind grew dark and I could feel my throat close up. "No..." I cried pleading him not to continue. If he didn't say it it wasn't true. "The plane...Nobody...No survivors..." he sobbed to me his lips now trembling. I shook my head in disbelief. This wasn't happening. It coudn't be...Mom..Dad.. We were supposed to have been there too.... I remember the conversation clearly even now. At 14 I was still scared shit of flying in planes, deathly scared. My parents had begged, it was going to be a family vacation...I had begged to be allowed to stay home while they went off but they had refused. They didn't want me to be home alone. Graham had stepped in and said that he would also stay, and that my parents could make it a second honeymoon. No need to tell you how grateful I was to him then.
But now...now...I'm still not sure.. I cried and he pulled me close into a hug. I cried for a long while. When I pulled away I said to Graham "I should've been on that plane Graham." I said. He shook my shoulders gently. "Don't ever say that Merrill, I don't ever want to hear those words come out of your mouth again. God has a reason for this. For our survival, he has a reason for everything." I guess that's why Graham became a minister, he had to believe those words in order to survive, in order to survive for me. Maybe he had used it all up on me the first time, but I only wished he could've had the same strength years later, to be there for his kids. But that's ok, cause I had the strenght and it was my turn anyway.
Ok. That's all for now folks. I think it stands strong on it's own but I might want to add another chapter or two so watch out for those. Thanks. Go now and Review.
A brother's love is an indescribable thing. In my family brotherly love has always been fierce and very complete. It's always surrounded our household and it was always in our hearts. Graham and I hardly ever fought as kids. I could never argue with my big brother, he was always right in my mind. I admired him so much, you know? He was a saint, always calm, always comforting, Graham always knew the perfect thing to say. He was such a great guy, all through my high school days, he would always come to every single one of my baseball games, in the stands cheering me on. My parents were always there for me too of course, but Graham was my pal. My perfect brother. The one I wanted to be like.
Nothing changed, especially when my parents died. I had been sitting at home watching a special on t.v and I really got so into it that I didn't even hear the phone ring and Graham picking it up. I laughing in appreciation of what was going on in the show, when I sensed that Graham had come into the room. I slowly turned on an angle to see what he was up to, but when I saw that was sitting down at the table looking dejectedly at thin air, I knew something was wrong. He stood up and came to me. He gently place his hands on either side of my shoulders, tears silently falling on his cheeks. He struggled to speak, squeezing my shoulders as he does so.
"Mom and Dad." he sobbed out. My mind grew dark and I could feel my throat close up. "No..." I cried pleading him not to continue. If he didn't say it it wasn't true. "The plane...Nobody...No survivors..." he sobbed to me his lips now trembling. I shook my head in disbelief. This wasn't happening. It coudn't be...Mom..Dad.. We were supposed to have been there too.... I remember the conversation clearly even now. At 14 I was still scared shit of flying in planes, deathly scared. My parents had begged, it was going to be a family vacation...I had begged to be allowed to stay home while they went off but they had refused. They didn't want me to be home alone. Graham had stepped in and said that he would also stay, and that my parents could make it a second honeymoon. No need to tell you how grateful I was to him then.
But now...now...I'm still not sure.. I cried and he pulled me close into a hug. I cried for a long while. When I pulled away I said to Graham "I should've been on that plane Graham." I said. He shook my shoulders gently. "Don't ever say that Merrill, I don't ever want to hear those words come out of your mouth again. God has a reason for this. For our survival, he has a reason for everything." I guess that's why Graham became a minister, he had to believe those words in order to survive, in order to survive for me. Maybe he had used it all up on me the first time, but I only wished he could've had the same strength years later, to be there for his kids. But that's ok, cause I had the strenght and it was my turn anyway.
Ok. That's all for now folks. I think it stands strong on it's own but I might want to add another chapter or two so watch out for those. Thanks. Go now and Review.