When it ends
A/N: I thought it was about time for me to write an angsty one shot. This is my first ever Tsubasa one, so be nice in the reviews. No point to this and its short but enjoy. Also it's told in Syaorans
The strange group we have collected sit around the fire which is slowly dying, save for Sakura, who is already asleep. I know my body is tired, but my mind refuses to quiet down, to many things are running though my mind. I know I'm not getting any sleep tonight.
" Something wrong syaoran?" Fai asked with his trademark smile plastered all over his face.
" no, just thinking. " I reply. Is it that obvious that I'm feeling down? " I'm going for a walk. I'll be back in maybe an hour."
" ok then. Be careful." Fai waves to me. Kurogane is silently polishing his sword. I bet he has something on his mind as well.
As I walk further from the camp and the firelight my shadow dissolves into the ground, seemingly sinking back into the netherworld and away from this place. I am alone now, save for the sliver of a pale moon that hangs high in the sky among the starry sky that is framed by outstretched tree limbs. This is when the thought come crashing back like waves from a storm.
I love this adventure I am on, and the people I am with. But what is going to happen when it ends? What are we all going to do? I cant just forget Fai and Kurogane when they go back to their worlds, were like family now. You cant just spilt up a family like that! But I am trapped in a cruel contradiction, if we never spilt up and the adventure never ends, Sakura will never have all of her memories back.
She can never have all of her memories back. A cynical voice in the back of my mind tells me. And of course how can I forget the deal with the time witch?Sakura will never get her memories back of me.
All the times I had with my dearly beloved are all shreds among the stars now. They no longer exist to anyone but me. But I love Sakura, and without her memories she is nothing but a shell of a person, just simply existing with no purpose or past. Tears roll down my face as I think even more. My mind is my enemy, all it ever does it point out the cruel reality I don't want to face, cant face. Or I will end up this shivering ball on the forest floor that I am now.
I'm so weak. Behind the aura of confidence I give, I hide how truly afraid I am. What if I die in battle and leave Sakura alone? Or if she died and I was trapped alone in a strange world, so far away from home with out her? I can't stand being so weak, but there is nothing I can do. No amount of exercise can strengthen my soul.
Its about time to go back, before anyone starts to worry. I wipe away the tears and dirt and begin walking. The moon distracts me and I pause to stare at me. The moon knows all my secrets. All the times I have cried alone on the soils of many worlds, it has always been the one watching over me. But I wonder if it is the same moon as on other worlds.
Too much thinking in one night, I dismiss the thought as walk back into camp and take a seat around the fire.
" Nice walk?" Fai asks, almost nodding off.
" Yeah." I answer as I look up at the moon once again.