What Does It Feel Like?

by LadyShooter

What If, Carlisle had a daughter before he met anyone in his coven? What If that kid was the first half and half vampire, her mother being human and not Esme? What if, she never lost her beating heart and also kept all of her human qualities,forever?What If Carlisle had disowned her, owing to her falling in love with a Volturi? Story would go through Breaking Dawn after flashbacks.

1. Chapter 1

Carlisle POV:

1720

"Maria, you can do this! Just push! You shall have our bundle of joy in your hands, if you just go through this! You've been thinking about this for so long, just don't give up now Maria. Please!" How painful childbirth can be! My wife, as I can call her now, is about to bring our child to the world. She will be a miracle, not only because she's my child, but also because, she is something I thought impossible. I never thought my Maria would be able to conceive, given she knows what I am. But here, as the events unfold, I know that there is so much more I should know about what I am. My child is half vampire, and half human.

The faint cries of a newborn fills the tent. Maria's ear piercing shouts have lowered their magnitude as well. "It's a beautiful baby girl, Carlisle! Just look!" the midwife said. I could'nt agree more. Such a princess she looked like. Her mother's eyes, her mother's ears, her mother's everything, she has. I think as time passes this child would look nothing like her father. But will she live forever? That only time will all, she is part vampire. "Carlisle, my love...Is she okay?" "She's perfect, Maria. Here." My wife is visually enchanted by the little bundle she now holds in her arms. And we know that she is about to change our lives forever.

1724

"Everything would be fine, Eliza. She would still be watching us. You remember what she told you, right? Even when you fell like she would never be there, she said she would be watching. Didn't she?" I am bad at consoling crying people, especially when I need the consoling more than anyone at the moment. My Maria has passed away, leaving me with our 4 year old daughter, Elizabeth. My child cannot bear the pain of losing her mother, but I can never get through the pain of losing a woman that I had loved, since childhood. A woman who had accepted me for who I was, or what I was. And now, she has left me, she has gone.

But do I have the time to swim in my own sorrows? I don't think so. My child needs me, more than anyone, and she reminding me of her mother every second after she's gone has her own troubles now. For someone who does not know what life would be like to live without her mother, this would be very tough for her.

My child is being taken away to our house, and as all the guests leave, I am facing Maria's grave. All alone.

Hola! This is my first fic and I'm really hoping you guys love this as much as I do. Oh and don't forget to review!

Love,

XLadyShooterX