Disclaimer: I don't own The O.C. Heck, I can't even convince anyone to drive me to Newport to take me to the beach! So, yeah, not mine.
A/N: Set during "The Proposal".
Forgiveness
"I'm going to go away. Give things a chance to be normal for you. Because I know as long as I'm here, they won't..."
And give you time to love me again, because I love you Marissa.
Not just because you're beautiful. Or because we have history. I love you for you.
I love you because you are fun and sweet and caring. Because you are loyal. Because you forgive. Because you are trusting, and innocent, and... not. Not at all. I love you because you are fragile and strong and stubborn. I love you because it's so easy to love you.
Not for Ryan maybe, because he doesn't understand what makes you tick and he wishes that he did. I love you for being a challenge to Ryan. Me? I don't understand you either, but I kind of like it. I love that you're a mystery.
I know I messed up with you. I screwed us up again and again. I thought with my dick instead of my heart, 'cause that's what teenage boys do, and I lost you. Twice. Which is once more than I have an excuse for. Twice. It makes me think I don't deserve to have you. I know I don't have the right to ask you to take me back, to love me again. But you're a forgiving person, so...